Rachel @ MindSay

So I'm home from hanging out with some of the girls, Katie ended up coming over too.  Fun stuff.  We went to the park by my old house.  I haven't been there since I went with Ricky when I was a junior (?).  With one of the weirdest conversations I had with him. Pretty much ever.  But it was fun to go to the park, there were kids there when we got there. Ok well like high schoolers maybe.  We scared them away I guess haha.  Fine with me, it was like 10 at night, and I think we left there a little before 11. I think we were there like 30-60 minutes.  We walked there from Rachels and then played on the stuff.  Went on the swings and the climbing stuff.  There was this weird thing with like a climbing side, this pole thing on the other side (that looked wrong like a stripper pole with a random ball in the middle), and then this thing that looked like part of a DNA strand.  It was weird looking.  Maff and I went in the Jeep car lol, and then everyone went on those rocker things.  And then we sat on the swings rambling.  Some way interesting convos tonight.  Way too many that were about sex.  It was awkward.  More so for Maff I'm sure.  Rachel kept texting me too from like opposite sides of the couch.  Just as I'd be texting Laura or Kim.  But I guess Katie is going to come tomorrow to Alumni with Laura and I.  Possibly if she isn't too tired from Six Flags.  But Laura's friend will be coming.  It will be so nice to just get out of the house. Thats for sure.  I'm good at keeping myself locked in the house when I'm sad.  And with everything thats happened - yeah.  Kinda been sad.  So it will be nice to go out and laugh with friends.  Maybe distract my mind for even just a moment from Kevin and everything going on.  I probably wont even drink lol.  I am not a big fan of it.  But I'll go.  Talk with Laura and help her with her boy issues.  It will be interesting.  Fun though.

Alright, so I have like a week of blogging to catch up on.  Stupid overtime...its taking all my time.  Well thats gone now so no worries I guess.

So last Monday I was sick, as I put.  Tuesday I went to work.  Oh the fun of it all.  I will say I was kinda out of it, but I was also a bit mad...because no one noticed my new cut (stupid I know), and I know everyones been busy working...so oh well.  Dorinda did notice after awhile, but sometimes it just sucks.  Granted it looked awful because I was sick. So yeah.  Tuesday I did lunch with Maff, Katie O'Brien, and Rachel.  It was nice, we did the usualy Pizza Hut.  I was late back to work, oh well, not by too long.  I know that sounds awful, but my one boss I just dislike him so much, and I never take my full lunch.  He doesn't appreciate or understand anything.  In any aspects.  Why he has a job is beyond me.  But either way lunch was fun.  Rachel and KTO were crazy.  We sat there coloring on the placemats lol.  It was awesome 3 20 year olds and 1 21 year old coloring on pizza hut menus.  I called Rachel  a stalker for adding Kevin on facebook, and Katie was like who's Kevin.  So got to talk about Kevin which was fun.  So Katie said she'd have to add him as well on facebook since everyone else had (and she did on Thursday).  We had a good time though, lots of food and fun and laughs.  I think being able to relax helped me to feel a lot better.  Then Tuesday night was Maff's house for a One Tree Hill gathering.  She picked me up when I got off of work and we talked a lot about life, and boys.  Erik, Greg, some new guy for her, Zac, and Kevin.  She IMed Kevin and said she stole his girlfriend and they talked about where we were gonna go and he asked if he could be the flower girl.  Lol it was interesting.  He's so cute.  We did some Wii bowling too, and tennis, so much fun!  I would love to have a Wii.  Then we got Hani and went to get dinner from Wendys. And sat there catching her up on One Tree Hill drama.  Oh the drama.  How I love it.  Got home late.  My mom wasn't too happy.  Since I had been doing it all week. 

Wednesday Kevin came home   I was so happy to see him.  So so happy.  I had missed him a lot...I'm sure I bugged him telling him so.  Many many times. lol.  But it was so nice to be able to be in his arms.  I missed it a lot.  I missed the way he hugged me and held me and kissed my forehead and even his scent.  I especially missed that feeling that I get when I look up at him from laying in his arms and just can't help but smile as I gaze at him.  Sometimes he turns and looks over and smiles and kisses me or my forehead.  Either way I like it though, just looking at him and thinking about how crazy it is we've been together such a short amount of time, yet I care about him so much.  He's a great guy.  He takes care of me, makes me smile and laugh with his sillyness, he's just so caring.  I really don't like when I have to go, I get so comfortable when I'm with him, and things just seem so nice, that it's hard for me to leave.  He says he's joking when he says I'm stubborn, lol but I know I'm pretty stubborn.  We took pictures together for the first time too.  It was nice   I love taking pictures.  Hopefully we'll take some more sometime soonish.  I love the one he took though of him kissing my forehead, because I smile everytime he kisses my forehead.  But he had a good time while he was gone, and he got to think, which was good.  And I got to spend time with friends in from out of town.  So it worked out really well.  He did mention that if he did have to move that he basically thought that we could make it, and I agree, thats what I had been thinking too, and had many mindsayers say to just try it and hope for the best pretty much.  It was comforting to hear though, definitely what I needed.  Seeing him was helpful too.  Ooh and cuddling, how I missed it.  I'm glad I was feeling so much better by the time I saw him.

So Thursday, we had Pizza hut with the girls again.  Katie, Kim, Maff, Rachel and me.  Vidya showed up for like a minute while I was there.  I was the only one with a camera so I have some pictures but not many.  Well at lunch we decided that we should do something that night.  Well I had chiro, and Kim had school.  And Maff, and I had no cars.  Nothing like making stuff difficult.  So we called bowling alleys at lunch and said we'd go to Brunkswick that night at like 9ish.  So I did the chiro, me and my mom went to this place for dinner, and as I was there, I got a call from Kim, she got out of class like two hours early at like 7ish so shes like "can I just come over?" so I told her that we were at the place, which is right by her school.  I wanna say it's Qudoba or something like that.  Anyways, she met my mom and I there, and we sat there talking, and Maff called in a panic over the boy, so I tried to calm her down lol.  And made my mom and Kim about bust out laughing and turning red when I said Maff's guy has his nipples pierced.  Soo after we ate we went back to my place and talked a bit and played with Karma.  And I got ready since I needed to straighten my hair but of course.  Katie called us on our way there and said that there was a 40 minute wait and that she was the only one there yet.  So we were like a minute away and said we'd be right there.  Drove right past Harvest which was weird.  I wish I could have gone, sounded like it was a good one.  It was weird cause it's like "look Kevin's right there" lol.  But I wouldn't have made it to my house in time.  I had to run around with my mom.  But yeah so we get to the bowling alley and Rachel and Maff got there right as we were getting out of Kims Jeep.  Oooh my Maffy was too funny lol.  She had some kind of drink and was crazy.  It was awesome.  She was talky, and just laughing and seemed happy and like herself.  Rachel made us get in her car because she said it was cold.  So there was the 5 of us sitting in the car not in a spot just kinda random in the middle.  Trying to figure out where to go and what to do.  Maff tried calling the automated numbers to get the numbers of other places that didn't go so well.  She was yelling at the phone. So then we were standing in the parking lot in front because Rachel drove around.  And we just stood there taking pictures.  They sent Katie and I in to see how much of a wait there was.  The guy told us soon (once he paid attention to us) and then went back to ignoring us.  So when we told them that, Rachel and Kim went in and were able to get us on a list for about 20 minute wait.  Maff called some random guy from our high school which was funny.  I didn't know the kid but everyone else was like oooh - except me and Kim.  But it was his b-day I guess.  So yes.  When we finally got our lane we were next to this serious bowler that we upset a lot I'm sure.  We were loud and silly and taking a lot of pictures.  4 cameras for 5 people lol.  We also did code names which was fun lol.  I was Lizzie. Maff was Lush, Katie was Lexi and Rachel was Laquesha or however you spell it.  We had a lot of fun though.  I started off ok...and then totally lost.  I suck at sports lately lol ...ok maybe not lately but worse than usual.  heh.  Well eventually next to our table came this girl from our high school and all these guys. And the one hit on Kim till he knew she had a boyfriend, and then hit on Katie.  He told them both that they needed new friends and they could do so if they came to his party.  Nice guy huh?  So theres Rachel hitting on the gross guy (at least I think thats what it was...) and then there's me and Maff feeling pretty I guess rejected maybe?  Like ok we weren't good enough.  And yes though it was some gross guy a girl can still feel rejected.  He took Katies number.  It was awkward.  So yeah I totally lost both games.  We closed down the alley.  I guess that Katie and Rachel said that Kim was being mean to me, so late Thursday night Kim sent me a text asking if I was mad at her, and that she was just joking at the bowling alley that she just gets competitive.  That the only thing that was honest was her saying that I was beautiful in the car (because we were talking about the crappy guy and I was basically saying it's because I don't think I'm pretty that I need to lose like a million pounds).  I told her I wasn't mad, that I barely noticed it because it's how we always are when we play sports.  She's competitive and anytime I do good she jokes around and such, and I play the pathetic hurt person or I pretend to gloat.  It's just how we are.  I thought it was nice that she was worried though.  We're like all each other has in this town (from high school that is). Everyone else went away.  So yeah that was Thursday.  We were nuts.  It was fun.  Maff took a video of me "yelling" at Rachel lol thats just plain awful.  I so can't be mean.  And it's obvious in that.  The second game, the first 3 ppl got a strike, I ruined it lol with gutter balls.  Oh well.

Well thats all, I will have to write about Fri - Sun later.

Tomorrow I'll be at Tasha's house for One Tree Hill.  Should be ... interesting.  Heh she wanted me to take Kevin along, but it's farish, I wouldn't make him do that, especially for a show he doesn't watch but it would be nice.  Tasha keeps bugging me that she has to meet him.  She wanted to be second to meet him, but with her brother dying things...got hard.  Man seems like theres been so much drama lately.  Tasha's one best friend will be there.  That I don't talk to and don't think I like.  But Jessica will be there so that will be fun :) 

Did you see Rachel Ray's add with dunkin doughnuts was pulled because Rachel ray wore a scraf that supposedly looked like Keffiyeh.  Check it out :

http://youtube.com/watch?v=JE7jFV2vSEA

http://youtube.com/watch?v=jvMnKFFm5PY

Everyone get in your blue jump suit.  All clothing must be governemnt regulated.  Not wearing a flag pin will result in imprisonment for support of terrorism according to the unpatritoic act, Free speech will cost you 1 million dollars if you are in violation of anti-american treason act, and so on.  Prepare for it because its not far off as the conservative movement scares people into submission, assimilation, and social control with conformity.

PS: See Scott Mcellan's book on Bush, Propaganda, and the war.

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