Pure @ MindSay

Casually browsing on youtube.com I found my all time favorite pure pwnage episode .. the one where Jeremy introduces Doug... So I guess I just wanted to share it with the rest of you...

 

Don't let the long intro fool you .. these guys are such funny gamer sterotypes

 

 

During the night of the 9th February , while we were celebrating my bestfriend Camille 20 years birthday, and while I was totally drunk and while it was 3 am when we came into  this Erasmus party and that all  those young guys looked at us as fresh flesh  , while I could not ged rid off this faked italian guy my eyes met the one of  the most sincere boy I've ever met. My eyes dived into his eyes and it was so intense and true and beautiful and ful of joy and sincerity. Then it's my mouth who dived into his one and then we could not separate from each other during all the night .I 've never seen such sincerity in the eye of someone, eyes who looked at you so deeply so honestly, eyes who smile and maugh and are delighted and sincere. So much that we did not need to talk.

but why talking when it's more than words

why wasting our time with words when it's about emotion.

We did not talked just felt.

But in the morning he had to left, to go back to Netherland and I was motionless, I had no legitimity to make him stay, I let him leave. I hesitated to run after him but I chosed to wait for him to run after me what he did not do because he waited for me to do it...I guess

It was wonderful. He was wonderful. It is a ebautiful story

a contemporary one without end

Tonight, I introduced myself to Father Simon Haric, a Jesuit who spoke on my campus about how Jesus lived under military occupation. It was a really refreshing speach that fuled not only the social justice aspect of my life and reafirmed why I appose the war in Iraq and violence in general. It also refreshed my faith and spirituality. Sometimes I need that: to be reminded of my christain faith and upbringing, even though I frequently question it.

Slightly humorous though.... is that before Father Simon spoke he was walking around in the audience introducing himself saying "I am called Simon." To which I replied "I'm Kate," becuase of course, that is my name. Before I proceed, I must digress.... earlier today Kristi, my room mate, who is the student government social justice coordinator and was responsible for bring Father Simon, told me that when Father Simon meets someone, he tells them what their name means from memory. So Father Simon replies, "Ah, the purified one!" and goes on to explain that after women were baptized they were henceforth purified and the name Katherine emerged from that. I already knew that this is what my name meant but it was SOOOO cool to here it from a Jesuit Priest. At first I was laughing at the irony of it all. Me, the not really very pure one, being called pure by a man of God!! LOL!!! I figured "Hey, if he says I'm pure, I'll roll with that!!"

But really, once the irony and humor wore off I realized that I have been baptized AND confirmed into the christian faith, and though I've lived a life that is anything but pure, there is still a chance for me. God still loves me. I am still a christian. I like to think that though my body is not pure, my heart still is.
I know its corny, or maybe another sad excuse for the way I behave but I had a flash of hope in my slight time of darkness these days. I think I'll keep fighting the good fight after all.

Time for a new blog. the old one was diseased. it was time for my ex best friend to stop reading it.

 

So today was a really awesome day actually. one of the best this week. and i was WORKING. i woke up on time which was great in itself, i always wake up late. i went to work at 10 and it seemed like all eternity until 12 oclock came around when he would be coming into work. How ironic that the same day we finally work together, we also get paid. and i get my coke. i cashed my check, put only 20 in my savings. and then im gonna spend 100 on the coke tonight. i was so excited to see him. i think i like him alot  already and its really sad considering i hardly know anything about him. but theres something about him that makes me totally interested and drawn to him. i could tell he felt the same way, we just kept looking at eachother all day at work, and giving eachother these looks to try to make it less awkward that we kept looking at eachother. hes so cute. just my type. hes calling me tonight at 10 then coming over, and thats when we're getting it. i dont know if we're hanging out today, but hes coming over for a bit. I hope he likes me. i think im his type too. He had never seen me with my work clothes off yet, so im sure he was wondering what kind of style i had, and when i changed into my clothes he kept looking at me and checking it out so yeah. haha it made me smile really big. he makes me smile a lot.

 

Unlike Him recently, hes only made me cry recently.. i hungout with one of my bestests after work today and we went out for chinese and she told me that he had found out that i made out with this guy whos liked me for 4 years, he knows that hes been wanting to sleep with me. im SO mad. hes telling everyone weve messed around. which isnt even true. but ofcourse he wont believe that. because ive lied so many times in the past. he has reason not toe believe me. and it just hurts so bad because i love him so much, and after waiting a year for him to move back i thought i would finally have him, but it turns out no. and that everything has gone to shit just like it ALWAYS does with me and him. i used to think that me and him were meant to be, that we were so in love.3 years will do that to you. but as of today i really dont know. maybe im feeling so okay about this because im interesting in the other guy right now. im not sure why. maybe because im bipolar and im having a moment of happiness. but all i know is, he hurts me a lot. and i know that theres a lot of other guys out there who would treat me amazingly. way better than he ever did. or does. it still doesnt stop me from hurting so badly. you know?

 

Anyways, so ive got to hangout with my best friend the last 3 or 4 days or something? and i hadnt seen her in like a month. but for some weird reason it didnt feel like that long. probably because we talk on the phone everyday. so it was so nice to spend time with her because i love her so much! and we both really needed eachother. we're both way heartbroken. and what can i say. misery loves company? yes, yes it does.

 

So i dont know. im so excited about getting 90%pure that i am seriously like shaking. you have no idea. i havent had it in like 3 weeks or something. and thats a really long time for me. i would have it a few times a day everyday if i had the money. but i dont. i will soon though when i keep getting more hours and better paychecks. i work 21 hours this week.. eh.. not good not bad. but i work everyday but saturday. my work sucks but i cant complain too much because i love the people, and im making money. and hes there!! thats why.

Don’t you bring me down
Kick me when I’m down

Put me away again
Every now and then
Your bottle spinning my fate
As I hold my breath
And you say you don’t want any part of this now
Where did it go so wrong

I guess I’m finally finding out
It’s got me tripping now
The little things, everywhere I go
It’s such a shame
Why you held on, so long
Why don’t you confuse me a little more?
Confuse me

And I never thought that you
Who would believe that I wasn’t good enough?
Those things I never thought you’d do
You got the best of me

You got the best of me, when you said you didn’t love me anymore
And I know, this will be the last time

You’ve got me, running in circles like a freak
So why do you try, to kick me when I’m down
I’m down, all the way down

Put me away again
Every now and then
Your bottle spinning my fate
While I hold my breath
Don’t sweat the lies that you say I control
Confuse me a little more
(Confuse me)

And I never thought that you
Who would believe that I wasn’t good enough?
Those things I never thought you’d do
You got the best of me
You and all your secrets don’t need me
You got the best of me, when you said you didn’t love me anymore
And I know, this will be the last time
You’ve got me, running in circles like a freak
So why do you try to, kick me when I’m down
I’m down

So when you say you’ve let me go, let me go
‘Cause you didn’t care about this, sorry you
I guess you’ll be all right
Now that you’ve got things to go your way

How could you be like this?
This it the last time but you don’t hear me though

You got the best of me, when you said you didn’t love me anymore
And I know, this will be the last time
You’ve got me, running in circles like a freak
So why do you try to, kick me when I’m down
I don’t understand the way
That you’re thinking, thinking, Andrea

Who could believe that I wasn’t good enough?
Who could believe that I wasn’t good enough?
Confuse me a little more
Who would believe that I wasn’t good enough?
Who could believe that I wasn’t good enough?