Proposal @ MindSay

A lot of General Delivery is about, surprisingly enough, the delivery. What we're doing with the sound we create, what we're doing with the energy, the mood behind it, etc. I described it to a friend as blending Tai Chi with choir.

Sometimes, Gene will start using visuals. Today was good, because we're working on this Spanish lullaby/carol, and he's trying to get us to project more joy into the tone. As far as Gene's concerned, Passion = Joy. So, he's having us visualize different things that make us happy, building the levels.

And we're all fairly open to this, you can feel the mood rising, glancing around at expressions on people's faces, we're all in the same place on this. This is good. All was going well, until he unveiled, "It's Christmas morning...and you've just found that giant package with your name on it, that must be that whatever-it-is that you've been wanting all year..." and one of the altos completely crumples. Just immediately closes off.

Like I said, we're working with energy, so, while this sounds goofy, we could all feel the change and the direction - like everyone was holding onto a giant parachute while falling, and she just let go of it. Gene stops, and her whole face is cloudy, arms folded, sunk down in her chair. "What??" he asks, bewilderedly.

After a beat, she gets out, "I don't like Christmas."

Well, then. Sigh. We try again, building visuals other than Christmas. He's had the guys drop out to just listen for a bit, working with the sound from the sopranos and altos. "Okay, ladies? It's that day. That special day." Right, anticipation is building, we're all already happy from whatever the previous image was. "You're out with your special someone, and he goes down on one knee, and he's holding a little box."

Again, you could feel the energy, joy, delight, anticipation - except for, just to my left, a frantic crumple of parachute silk as Lizzie not so much closed off, but sprinted in the opposite direction.

Despite her fondness for her boyfriend, my roommate has expressed that she doesn't want to get married, and would be very freaked out if he ever did propose. At that point, she simply panicked.

Maybe Gene should go it Peter-Pan style, and have us come up with our own happy thoughts. Really, the way the energy builds in that room, up to the point when somebody responded unexpectedly, you almost feel as though you could levitate.

Ernie Chambers the Omaha District Senator done stuck his nose into business that isn't his concern.  And going to set off a Race war like he did down in Omaha!  Isn't he such lovely man!

My District has always been fighting over who has juristiction in our area.  County or Tribal.  It all boils down to that a good portion of our district is reservation.  But on that reservation isn't just "indians" you have "non indians" also.  A lot of people would settle their asses down and accept joint juristiction and have BIA, Tribal, and County all work together.  Simply because ther are many ppl who like to claim non indian status one minute and then next minute claim that indian statues.  It would make rural ppl both indian and non indians feel better protected and it would also make those living in town better protected. 

But NOOOOOOOOOOOOO the counties and BIA and Tribal like to fight for that power!  And that is exactly what it is!  A power trip.  Who gets to hold what power and how can we abuse it to help my own family out or my own people out.  Got news for everyone.  If you live in the US and are considered citizens everyone is your "people"!

But the kicker here is, Mr. Chambers.  He started that lovely race war down in Omaha when he is the one as a Black Man, to propose segrgated schools in the Omaha District!  And it got shot down big time and not just by black people!  Well Mr. Chambers has now stuck his nose into a District that isn't his concern!  He has propsed on handing over ALL JURISTICTION to one of the tribes on the reservation!  And it isn't even the tribe that can manage it's own people, finances, or ethics!  It is the tribe who has had some of the worst embezzelment cases via "Tribal Council" members and other "indian gov't officals".  They are broke off their asses and are EXTERMLY raciest towards not just non indians but other indians NOT of their tribe!  And contrary to popular belief any indian of any tribe can move on to ANY reservation!  Not to mention they can not control their own "young Population" and embarss the crapout of their older generations by their behavor! 

The proposal or bill what ever Mr. Chambers has proposed for MY District when he is NOT my Senator has already been read once!  The first question by not just non indians but by indians not of this specific tribe is:

What the hell is Mr. Ernie Chambers doing sticking his nose into business that doens't concern him?  Doesn't Omaha have it's own problems that he helped instigate? 

Second Comment and Question is:

Our own district Senator wasn't even aware of Mr. Chambers proposing this bill until it crossed his desk after the first reading!  Why was it even introduced via Mr. Chambers in the first place?

Third Comment and Question:  If non indian gov't would do something like this it would be considered RACISM!  Why the hell is it okay for tribal gov'ts to do this?  Is this yet another way the federal gov't is prompting racism in the US?

Fourth Comment and maybe Question:  Why NOT introduce a bill or proposal that gives juristiction to County, BIA, various City  and Tribal gov'ts and MAKE them work for the ENTIRE county, District, and towns!  That would be the most benficial of the power trip! 

There is a county meeting for my county for the second reading of the proposal Tuesday night at my county seat.  My district is actually about 3-5 counties and one county has already read it and those ppl didn't say yay or nay because the majority of them are white or "non Inidan".  But MY county is a very eclectic mix because it is predomintly reservation and it not only has Indian and White but quite a few other races!  It would be assinine to allow the Tribe have all the power to abuse non indians with and to strip our county of all of it's money by doing what this specific tribe is well known for:  giving only to their specific family members and passing only laws that will benifit their specific families.  Even the other Tribe in our county is split over this.  If the tribe Ernie Chambers wants to hand over power to gets it, the other tribe will be abused also not to mention their tribal officers handed over jobs that the other set of tribal officers do NOT want to do!

I have both indian and non indian friends going to this meeting to voice their NAY vote over allowing this specific tribe having complete control.  I have family going to voice NAY also.  And let me tell you, lots of letters, phone calls, and emails are going to be sent to Lincoln; to the offices of our District Senator and to Dumb Ass Ernie Chambers about how this came about!  If Chambers would have minded his own business in his OWN district, things would have worked themselves out........like they have for YEARS.  At the moment, our county and the Tribal/BIA officers have a tentive truce going on via State with a trial cross juristiction!  Certain officers on the BIA/Tribal side are cross deputized for both tribes.  I feel safer because County has a bad habit of asking if I am indian if I need to call in.  This way regardless of how I answer, I am going to get a response in a decent time period instead of waiting for 20-30 minutes for county to get on the right road and then find my house!  The majority of the BIA and Tribal officers already know who lives where regardless of race and can get here FAST!

Can we say this truce of juristiction is going to go up in FLAMES!  All over a raciest pig of a man who can't even help his own district!

Those are the words of a co-worker of mine. I don't think that a book like that would be all that good as many people would basically take it as I was a dumbass for taking him back three times and then see a pattern of all my past relationships. If I wanted my love life analyzed, I would go back to therapy.

Anyways, haven't heard from the guy who visited in November since his visit. Rather disappointing, but I guess that is life. Had a date last week with a local guy. All went well, but scheduling is a bit of an issue....big surprise there, eh?

The other day I asked Doctor Andy to marry me again. What does he do? He laughs at me! Then he reminds me that he doesn't like to rush into things. Hell! Andy and I have known each other for at least five years! Rushing into things? What world are you in? lol

So as of this time next year, I will have another sister.  That's right, my brother finally popped the question to his wonderful girlfriend. 

It's pretty darn exciting to have another wedding happening in this house. :)