Prom Dress Shopping @ MindSay

So!

This is my dress. SO not going to take a picture with me in it because it will be very bad because of lack of tan.

But isn't it gorgeous?!!?

 

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OH!

FFA banquet tonight.

Cody will be there. And Mandy Cooper.

WAHAHA!

Oh! And Prom date tom.

Cool Beans.

OH! I'm part of the talent act. It should be frickin hilarious. Wahaha!!

And, I made my famous peanut butter chocolate chip pie for the auction.

It is SOOOO!!! GOOOD! Damn good. Not gonna lie.

I am muy excited.

 

Well gonna wait for this pic to load, and then get ready for tonight..

 

Ciao,

Mariah

Yesturday.....

 

Went to school...took my final...feel like I did good. Beat Niles, Skye, and Aaron in BS. Came home, went to the mall w/ Sam, met Kyle and Jake there....and that is where the fun begins.

 

Well, I went and found out...my dream has come true...I am a 32 D. Yay! Anyway...Went prom dress shopping again because I decided the other dress I found just isn't "the dress". Well, I found "the dress". It's about $120 and I put it on 24 hr hold and I'm going back to the mall today with my mom to put it on layaway because we really don't have the money to just buy it straight up. It's gorgeous. Red satiny type material...has one of those things that goes around the neck, it's backless but if they say something I'll just put on a jacket. It's floor length and I'm just completely in love with it. I mean, the blue dress was pretty...but I mean, I just have so many doubts about it and, sorry, you CANNOT doubt your senior prom dress.

 

Well after making Kyle and Jake suffer through me and Sam shopping we started walking around the mall...this little 10 year old chick starts following us with her friend. Everytime we turned around she'd try to hide or turn around. Well, we turned around one time and she just RAN into Abercrombie & Fitch....so we followed her in. Sam and Jake went one way while me and Kyle went the other....She tried to come around the side me and Kyle were on...as soon as she saw us she friggin sprinted back around the corner. We had her practically trapped in the back of the store for like 5 minutes. I was laughing so hard...and pretending to be Kim Possible...don't ask....it was the pants. Anyway, she finally walks past us...goes and sits on the bench right outside A&F with her little friend and just watched us. Followed us to Spencer's and just kept Heely-ing back and forth past the store. So I finally went out that and was like, do you like him or something? She ran away.

 

Came home, left with Kyle, went to Kyle's and watched Gangs of New York and gave Gangsterlicious a bath. I petted him! Yay! He's getting to be more calm cause he's getting handled more. Me and Kyle did some serious talking, but I don't want to go into that right now. Just know that he's considering the Navy Reserve and despite all his assurances, just know that it scares me to death to think that I would have to give up the one thing in this world that I love with all of my heart and soul that makes me truely happy 100% of the time...but his reasoning for possibly doing this is good...he even said that if we were to get married it would be good for me because it's the most awesome insurance you can get and I HAVE to have good health insurance to cover all of my Crohn's stuff, ya know?...and if it's what he decides he wants....I'll wait for him....I'd wait an eternity just to hold his hand for a moment.

 

We went bowling...I didn't bowl because I felt sick and tired cause I didn't eat a lot yesturday. So, Kyle bought me food and made sure I was ok. The food did make it better but I was still tired just because of stress and other stuff...we talked about it. That's a very personal conversation, but talking about it did make me feel better and I know it's okay. Jake was even checking on me and making sure I was okay. Is it wrong or weird to have such a good friendship w/ his little brother?

 

Today

 

The dress is on layaway. I almost didn't get it because of my mom. She thinks my boobs hung out of it.

 

A) One of the clasps on the back was missing, which caused the dress to hang looser than it really would
B) I wasn't wearing a bra...cause it makes no sense to go and wear a reg bra when trying on a backless dress and so the dress wasn't going to fit the way it will on prom when I do it all up right, ya know?

 

But because I am the puppet master I pretended to browse other dresses then stared sadly at that one until my mom caved. I think that I really was about to cry at one point when my mom was telling me I couldn't get it...I blame the PMS because normally I'd never cry over a dress, but I mean, it is the perfect dress. I feel like a movie star in it and it fits me so well besides the whole boob thing, but I mean, anything is gonna fit awkwardly w/o a bra, you know? Anyway, I was about cry but then my reasonable side...which is slowly slipping away for the next week...spoke up and was like...chill, you know what to do. Alrighty peeps! I'm gonna get pics of it on here as soon as I get it for real and all. Love!

 

Alrighty....so my Senior Prom is right around the corner and I've bought mine and Kyle's tickets...but I have a feeling I'm going to have to fight to get him there. The prom ticket nazi is saying that the oldest age date you can have at prom is 20...but according to the Student Code of Conduct that's a lie. The Student Code of Conduct clearly states and I quote :

 

"All guests must be in at least the ninth grade and NO OLDER THAN TWENTY-ONE YEARS OF AGE. All guests who are not juniors or seniors must submit an application for approval. A charge must be paid once the date has been approved."

 

I have no problem paying for Kyle. It's my prom after all. But I do know that he will be there no matter what. Hell, I'll get him a fake ID that says he's still 20 if I have to. But my boyfriend will be at that damned prom!

So as far as the dress, I thought I found the perfect dress....it's absolutely gorgeous. It's in Camille's and it's this light/baby blue color and it goes all the way down in back but in the front it's cut up to the knees and it does this cool criss cross thing with the straps in the back and they cross perfect in the middle of my shoulder blades. But I mean, reading of the dress code it says no backless dresses....and this dress is backless. Should I listen? Cause no one did last year and you know some people won't this year...right?

 

In other news...I thought about it last night...and as soon as it's possible I'm going to move out. I'm going to get a job, probably with Wal-Mart so that I'll have insurance in case my parents decide to be bitchy about it, and I'm going to get my own place, with roommates, or if Kyle's found a place and he doesn't mind, I'll move in with him. Of course no matter where I go I'm going to help pay rent and have job and all. I'm going to ask my parents to sign the car over to me as an 18th birthday present so that it will be MY car. I'll find scholarships and get grants and loans to pay for college. I'll do what I have to...but I'm tired of not having privacy....I'm tired of having to deal with my brother and my parents, their favoritism and sexist views....and I'm tired of having to do everything for everyone and still it's never enough for them.

 

My dad found out I'm on BC. How much he knows I'm not sure it was a conversation I was too upset to have at the moment. My mom told me that he found out but the way she did it made me snap at her and tell her off about my constitutional right to privacy...even in "their house".

 

Last week I didn't go to soccer because I came home and did dishes and cleaned the floors. I thought I'd be nice and do that for them since everyone is so stressed out right now. Well, I did the dishes twice that week and then I turn around and my mom tell me Friday night as I'm walking out the door with Kyle that I have to do the dishes tomorrow. I'm like okay whatever. Well, I did them and the floors again on Saturday. What does Clayton do? Tries to bring the dog through the effin house after I've cleaned the floors and then throws his nasty dirty shoes on my clean floors to be a little bitch about it. You know what my mom says to him? "Clayton pick those up." And walks out the door to fuckin smoke! YEAH I HOPE MY KIDS HAVE TO DEAL WITH A GRANDPARENT WHO'S GOT LUNG CANCER! NOT! But they probably will the way my parents are going. And they just let Clayton do whatever. With me they're always calling and asking where I'm at, what I'm doing, who I'm with. It's like they have to know every fuckin thing.

 

And I'm just sick of doing everything around here. I feed the animals and play with them. I clean my room, the dishes, the floors, I go to the store when they ask me to. I get good grades and I do all kinds of stuff for them, but do they care? No. That's why I refuse to learn how to do laundry. Cause the moment I do they're gonna expect me to do it. Gawd, they'll probably even want me to cook for them if I learn how to cook. I'm going to have to eventually....probably soon if I'm going to move out when I turn 18, but I'm not going to do that for them when I do learn how. Fuck them. I'm not their fucking servant.

 

The only time I'm ever happy anymore is when I'm out with my friends, including school, or out with Kyle. I mean, when I go and hang out with my friends it's like none of that matters and I'm just able to relax and have a good time and rant about teachers that  completely bite with them. When I'm with Kyle, it's like there is nothing else but that moment. The other night after we went out with Kayla, BJ, Sam, and Erica....we went back to his house and just slept until I had to go home. I've never been so happy to just go to sleep. I loved it. I love just lying next to him. Jake said it was one of those picture perfect moments and if he'd had a camera he'd have taken a picture of us like that. And yesturday we went ice skating and when the Snow Patrol's "Chasing Cars" came on...he took me out to the middle of the rink and just started dancing with me. Gawd....it was amazing. He's so amazing. I mean, can you see how things like that would make me forget about everything that's wrong and just get lost in him and his voice in my ear singing to me? And we even helped this little kid to ice skate for his first time! We took him around the rink twice and it was just so adorable. Don't worry it wasn't just some random kid, his church had rented out the place...but it was just adorable watching the little kid try to skate and Kyle tryin to teach him. I know he's going to be an amazing dad someday. Hopefully to my kids.... To be honest, if he asked me to marry him right now I would. I know that's a ways off, but right now, I'd say yes...and I don't thnk that's ever gonna change.

I fell in love with a dress today, for Jon's prom. I ended up ordering it, and so now as soon as it comes in I have a dress. So now I don't have to stress about finding a dress.  WOOHOO! (haha that rhymes)

 

 

That's my dress, its not such a good picture because it was off my phone, but you get the idea. Its really a deep dark red on the top, and fades out to red on the bottom. It matches my newly dyed hair, because I dyed it back to a REALLLLLY dark brown/black, eliminating most of the red, but some of it shows threw and looks really good in the sunlight. I didn't even plan that out... haha. That was the first dress I tried on at the shop, and was like wow! Now if only I had found that shop first... haha. Now all I need to locate for myself is jewelry, and shoes.. which shouldn't really be a problem.