Pretty Poem Thing @ MindSay

fucking douche bags.

nobody can hardly get on this computer because of them. seriously, about 5 hours online playing some fucking idiot game. it's not here for that! use your mom's laptop!!

damn.

 

anyways.

i pretty much just gave up on the whole no drinking thing.

guess who puked all over themselves last night!

yeah.

 

the hebrew is intense. but i've totally learned so much.

i'm not about to have a really long conversation..and i don't know too many words.

but i can definitely make loads of sentences. like sentences i can use. it's pretty cool.

and i actually can't wait to be done with this. like it's cool and all...but i wouldn't mind being able to sleep a lot more.

i'll miss being close enough to the beach i can walk..but i won't miss the fact that the beach here sucks anyways and the one i would get to from my aunt's house is a lot better. although time consuming to get there and it would also cost money.

 

21 more days to my birthday!!

16 years old.

soooo cloooseeee.

:D

okay so the War Whoops audition was today at 3:30 in the PM.
and if anyone forgot War Whoops is the longest running radio show in the state of Nevada. and it's hosted by students at my school. it's a class/club thing. and you have to audition for it. it's not the most popular thing but you do have to audition.

and it went so bad!!
ugh!

like, it's not that i was really nervous about it or anything. like i wasn't just like "oh my gosh War Whoops i need to get it i need it!!" ya know? but i don't know.
actually i think it was Johvanna sitting right in front of me. she's a senior and REALLY pretty and all involved and stuff. she's a singer (and ya know about that) and she's just really nice and pretty and all that jazz. i'm basically positive that's all it was.

but ugggghhhh that was so bad.
like we had to think of an introduction for us, just for like how we'd be introduced on the show, and i didn't think of anything so i just thought like, if i just forget about it they will too? i don't know. but that was the first thing they were like "okay we're gunna record your introduction" and i'm like uhhhh hold on i gotta think about it first. and then i was just like umm let's get back to that later. so we did.

and then the next thing was this commercial we had to think of against drinking and stuff. and i did that so i was like yeah okay. but the thing is is that i didn't type it up double spaced or anything like that. like i just wrote it up today in second hour so it was on lined paper and everything and i didn't rehearse it at all. so i was like uhhh okay. so i did it and i was going to add a little something to put it more in my own words, and then i looked back down and i TOTALLY LOST MY PLACE. and i was like umm...can we start over?
and UGGGGGHHHH I TOTALLY FUCKED THAT UP!!!
but then i did it again and it worked out and it was 27 seconds long. and it was supposed to be 30.

and then they went through my idea for a new segment and that went fine. they also recorded that.

and then we went to my best "whoop whoop". i was like what the hell? but i was like all right. and mine was horrible but i'm sure nobody else's was any better. it sounded really bad. ha.

then we went back to my introduction and i was like oh shit. hahaha. so i just thought of something like "the one and only becca zohar! whoo!" and that was it. exactly 3 seconds like it was supposed to be. so i guess i'm happy about that. but that's a really stupid introduction. uggghhh.



i guess i did fine overall. if Johvanna wasn't there i would've done better. D: but i think i did alright. i guess. ghkldi.
i mean, it's not like War Whoops is what everybody's been trying to get into. there was me, Teresa, Caleb, Paige, and Sydney. soo..yeah. it's not like they'll only pick two of us. haha.
uggghh. i just epically failed that.

Howdy Howdy All!

Okay, first let me say that I am still writing a poem per day, I just havent had the chance to post them. But I promise every single one of them will grace this blog and make you long for better versed individuals...LOL

Okay, I just wanted to say HEY to all of y'all and tell you that the semester is almost over and then I will be so in your face that you wont be able to stand it.

Goddess Bless

For absolutly no reason I've been afraid to login to mindsay.  I've been doing pretty well but I'm overcome with guilt all the time.  They put me on more meds but honestly lithium was the only thing that really balanced things out but they won't give it to me anymore because it can be lethal.  I want to say I'm sorry but I don't know what for... I lie in bed a think about a tree falling on my house or a plane crashing into it... just an act of "God" for lack of better words to take me from this place.  I have so much going for me and I know that some people would kill to be in my shoes but I say take them I'd rather be barefoot.  It's like I'm standing on the edge and I can't see my feet anymore, nothing but blue sky below me, nothing but rain above me and nothing but a cliff I stand on.  I could ramble on for days ... it's always me me me... so how are ya'all doing?

I Had This Wierd Dream The Other Night,
I Barely Remember It Now,
But I Was Up High Somewhere,
Think It Was My Bedroom In Sydney,
But It Was Looking Over Lampton Key,
And I Saw A Dinosaur,
It Appeared Outta Nio Where ANd A Car Crashed Into It,
I Laughed, And It Grew Bigger And Came Up To The Window I Was Looking Through,
I Freaked Out And Backed Off,
But Then I Realized It Was Pretty Friendly,
But The Scientists Didn't Approve Of Him,
I Only Realized There Were Scientists When I Turned Around And There Was A Lab Behind Me,
Wierd,
Any Way This This Happened I Couldnt Quite Understand It,
Its Like They Were Growing Its Organs Inside It So That I Died And Choked And Gahhh
I Dont Get It
Cant Explain
But At The Time It Was Discusting And Completely Violently Explicit.
But I Tried To Stop Them And I Sort Of Dissolved Into The Air
I Was Spinning And There Were Dark Colours Around ME Like Purples And Greens
And The This White Writing Came Up,
It Said 11th
And This Thing I Dont Know What It Is,
Said That Something Scary Will Happen On The 11th,
The 21st Came Up
And The Same Thing Happened Except It Told Me Something Significant Would Happen On The 21st
On The Eleventh I Totally Forgot About It Then Suddenly I Realized, But I Wasnt Sure If It Was The Tenth Or Eleventh So I Looked AT My Phone And It Said 11/12/07
And I Looked At The Time, It Was 11:11pm
Then This Strange Thing Happened Where I Like Started Shaking But I Was Still At The Same Time And I Closed My Eyes
For Some Reason I Really DIdnt Want To Open Them,
Fuuuck,
Who Votes That Im Crazy?
Im So Confused,


Well I'll Keep Yous Posted About The 21st


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