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Dixie currently feels:

Depressed

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I'm not happy today.

The day has gone by so slowly.

How I despise Mondays.

The only good thing about today was that my Science teacher wasn't in.

As a result, I only did one question, and spent the rest of the lesson talking with Nazia.

I AM SO SICK OF THEORETICAL YIELD.

It's more Maths than anything.

And I HATE Maths.

Screw Maths up the backside with a calculator.

I don't need to be doing Maths in SCIENCE.

Leave me alone, you poxy numbers.

From the end of first lesson, to before I left the library - I had a safety-pin stuck in my glasses.

I clipped it round the right branch, next to my eyebrow.

Eighteen people commented.

I did it for the pure crack.

I wanted to see how many people would notice.

Nazia found it really funny.

My Maths teacher was confused.

My Geography teacher was bewildered.

Our librarian smiled at me - as she always does.

I didn't smile back.

I'm not in the mood to smile today.

I'm sick of people using my weaknesses against me.

So sick of being ignored.

So sick of being left alone.

So sick of people rubbing how good their lives are in my face.

Sick of the preps talking about insignificant matters.

The world is a terrible place - awful things are happening. Nobody cares.

I miss Emily.

I need her back.

ok... at basketball practice today Holly was'nt there so Shannon dicided to go easy on us (we got to go at 4:30 instead of 5:00) Anyway, I went into call my dad to tell him he had to pick me up early and I couldn't get a hold of him.  I called my mom to tell her and she said that it was'nt her problem (she's been a pain in the butt laitly).  She wasn't going to pick me up so i would have to wait outside for half an hour (we've been having record breaking cold weather).  So she starts yelling at me for no reason and I hung up (as it turns out, my dad was out drinking with his girlfriend).  I went back out to practice and got a ton of crap from the other girls (our team's full of a bunch of braty preps).  I was playing point guard while we were practicing this one play and they woudn't listen to me at all.  I passed the ball to one of them and they were supposed to pass back to me after I got under the basket.  She didn't and passed it to one of her friends to try to get me mad.  It didn't get me mad and I told her that that wasn't the point of basketball but she gave me that stupid old talk to the hand thing and the rest of the preps gave me crap the rest of the day.  It only made me more detirmaned to make all of the points that practice because by that point I was ready to throtal not only my parents but every freaking person on my team!! I just won't help them in math on monday... but ohhhhhh it erks me!!!!!

     Today was the start of a new semester...yay! Well, I love first hour--Drawing II. Gee what a coinkidink! lol. Most of my other classes suck though because either there's no one I'm friends with at all in there, or I'm stuck with a whole bunch of ditzy (girls), loud, and annoying preps....so that really sucks. Even in 6th hour, which is a class I'm really going to like within the next few weeks or so ;) . Oh well, I'll get through.

     I think I might be starting to like someone now, too. I've thought he was cute since Driver's Ed last May, and from then on. I thought he would be mean, but he's far from it. He's in my drawing II class, and proctors in my 6th hour. I'll have to get to know him and see what happens next. It's kind of a weird feeling..to like someone again. Yeah, I liked Eric for a few weeks at the beginning of the school year, but it's not the same. Maybe I'll actually have a chance with this guy. I won't let myself fall as hard as I did with Alan (unless we get to a relationship level), because honestly--I just got over Alan months ago and it took way too long to get over him...I don't want to fall that hard again unless I know for sure something could possibly come out of this. I kind of feel bad though because one of my friends (I just met her this year, though), likes him a lot, and he doesn't like her that way.......I don't know what to do--if I should continue falling a little more, or not. I don't want to hurt her....I'll just have to wait and see what goes on with that. Hm...that could be a problem though.....

     I'm still not back to my giggly old self, but I'm in the process of getting back there. I'm completly fine when I'm at school, it's basically just at home when I feel really low. Oh well.....I'm working on it.

     G'nite all. Hope you had a great day!!!!!!!!

<3 Nicole