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Just got off the phone with Gwen, the principal of this school in Northampton, MA, called Jackson Street.
I met with her and her team yesterday for an interview about their behavior program. I was supposed to be interviewing at 12, but wanted to be able to go to work at camp for at least half a day, so I begged them to switch it to 9am. Then I KICKED myself about it, because now I was going first, which means everyone would be compared to me, and I would be the least memorable by day's end. I kept "no" outta my heart though; I embodied Joe Dirt and went in there and hoped for the best.
So she called today, and basically said, "We felt a really good connection to you and were really impressed by you" "I have to call your references to be sure, but I know they're going to be fine, so I'll call you back today or tomorrow with more" and then "It'll have to be tomorrow, so I can talk to the superintendent and advocate the salary range/step".
I am swiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiimming in happiness right now. Could it be, knowing what the hell I'll be doing in September an entire MONTH early? A whole month without stress or waking up at 4am unable to sleep because I'm afraid I'll never get out of debt or hired again?
And it's beautiful outside. I'm going to go squeal some more : ).
I met with her and her team yesterday for an interview about their behavior program. I was supposed to be interviewing at 12, but wanted to be able to go to work at camp for at least half a day, so I begged them to switch it to 9am. Then I KICKED myself about it, because now I was going first, which means everyone would be compared to me, and I would be the least memorable by day's end. I kept "no" outta my heart though; I embodied Joe Dirt and went in there and hoped for the best.
So she called today, and basically said, "We felt a really good connection to you and were really impressed by you" "I have to call your references to be sure, but I know they're going to be fine, so I'll call you back today or tomorrow with more" and then "It'll have to be tomorrow, so I can talk to the superintendent and advocate the salary range/step".
I am swiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiimming in happiness right now. Could it be, knowing what the hell I'll be doing in September an entire MONTH early? A whole month without stress or waking up at 4am unable to sleep because I'm afraid I'll never get out of debt or hired again?
And it's beautiful outside. I'm going to go squeal some more : ).
WORLD-ON-YOUR-S... DAY
Today is world-on-your-shoulders day. There’s problem to my left, and another to my right. Looking down a problem waits there for me too… and looking up a huge rock just waits to fall down on me hanging on a thread. So am stuck in the middle, can’t go anywhere.
Have you had that kind of day?
I guess every normal air breathing person goes through such a time. The feeling is like drowning with the waters up to your neck and rising. Or something like so dumbstruck and numb with anxiety and your feet feels glued to the ground; you’d like to run but your legs won’t cooperate.
Then you want to quit.
What -- Quit the world or living in it? Quit the thrill of facing a challenge? Quit the promise of a blessing at the end of the dark tunnel? Quit the opportunity and possibility for great achievement? Quit the potential to become a better person in winning over the struggle and strife? Quit knowing your GOD better? I can tick off dozens of reasons and things you would be losing by quitting.
Truth is, all that you need to do is…
Have faith. Believe in yourself. Believe on the ONE set of footprints on the sand when two of you are walking on it.
...Yup. If you guessed "My day again", you were right. 8D
My day, again, was good. I've been staying positive (or at least my best) the past couple (or possibly several?) days, and I'm just... really happy, or at least content, I guess.
In Math, I had a resource appointment to go over my IEP (Individual Education Plan - it's a system for students with disabiltires, or learning difficulties, to go over what different methods would help you learn better. Eg. allow them to sit by a buddy, or allow laptop use within the classroom, photocopy notes, etc. It's a bit of an advantage. :3)
ANYWAY; so I went, sat down beside Ms. VanKessel, and she started going over it with me and making the odd accommodation here and there. She asked me if I wanted to change my career path, and I told her I had backup options - which were Web Design, so I could possibly work at home (incase I get married and possibly suddenly have a family to raise), and I also said I had a small desire that's growing inside me to be a child and youth worker. I looked at her, and said:
"To be honest, I want to be the mentor that I never really had... It's one thing to talk to somebody, like a counsellor, and get advice or help - but I find it's a totally seperate thing to go to somebody like that, and actually have them relate to what you're going through."
She agreed with me, a hundred percent. I figure that I might put the ongoing pain in my past, and even present, and even future to good use. I want to let others know that they aren't alone, even if they may feel like they are - and especially the world that I'm going to be sucked into in the future. I can't imagine how it is now, with kids (let alone my own, when the time comes) going through the same things. I want that "avoided", by all means possible. I don't them going through the same things.
So, all in all, a final note - experience is good. It helps us grow, makes us stronger. I can say that I'm glad that God put me through the things that he put me through, because without that, I wouldn't be the girl who learned that she had to rise above everything and truly value who she is. (Okay, I'll confess, I have the times where I actually don't. But you get what I mean.)
She asked me how my semester was going for me; and that was when I brought up how tough English was for me - and how my hand couldn't handle the amount of writing I was doing in that class. I asked if I could bring a laptop in, and they, even my teacher in that class, agreed. I also said to Ms. VanKessel that I dropped Academic, and went back to Applied (College) level. She said that she would talk to my teacher, and then I went back to Math.
Oh, not much to say about that period. Although, I notice Randy has gotten "worse". He has obtained an obnoxious habit of touching me, now. He was squeezing my right side as I was leaning over to zip up my backpack. (And I'm very ticklish, so it made me flinch and squirm a bit). He's highly entertained by my reactions to things. I don't even want to KNOW what's going to come next.
The bell rang, and I finally reached English - but I ran into Ms. VanKessel on my way there, and she told me she talked with my English teacher.
"I talked with Ms. Gudall."
"Oh?"
"She told me that she's actually surprised that you're an Applied student. She thought you were an Academic student."
"...Oh."
"She says that you're handing in work that's expected from an Academic student. She told me that you're doing great in this course, and everything you have handed in has been great."
"Oh. That's great!"
Then it just ended there. Had to get in class before the bell rang. I'm staying in Academic this year; and I would LIKE to continue on with it for the next two years... But I'd rather ace the Applied level rather than not really "enjoy" the Academic level. To be honest, I feel like a bit of a failure. I feel like I've let everyone down...
In History, we did some review for our test tomorrow. I'm sure I'll do fine. I'm not too worried.
In Computers, it's always a riot in there. We started a new unit (remember how we were working on Microsoft Excel?). Now we're working with Microsoft Word; which is a program that I've used practically my WHOLE life. XD
I was so hyper in that class (I always act like I'm on crack with my buds. It's awesome. XD). And at the end of class, I was talking about how I didn't want to turn 16. The bell rang, and I headed out, only to find Chase catching up with me.
"You know; being 16 isn't a difference from 15 at all."
"Yes it is! It's got a SIX in it!"
"Well, do you wanna be stuck in a LITTLE body forever?"
That was when he had to go to his bus, and I departed to my Grandmother's car. I'll be seeing her tomorrow, too.
I have a bit of English homework to do, which I will, of course. Gotta get a shower tonight, too - do a bit of History review as well.
Oh, and I've also got two new ideas for 'Did I Ever Tell You How Much I Loved You?'. I keep daydreaming about it. (Dun' worry, it's a cute idea. :3 Not a violent one. XD)
Oh, and it's also Eating Disorder Awareness Weak this weak... I might write something regarding that; you know, something to dedicate to all those who have struggled, died, or are struggling with an eating disorder. Maybe I will, maybe I won't. It all depends.
Have a good day, peoples! 8D
In Math, I had a resource appointment to go over my IEP (Individual Education Plan - it's a system for students with disabiltires, or learning difficulties, to go over what different methods would help you learn better. Eg. allow them to sit by a buddy, or allow laptop use within the classroom, photocopy notes, etc. It's a bit of an advantage. :3)
ANYWAY; so I went, sat down beside Ms. VanKessel, and she started going over it with me and making the odd accommodation here and there. She asked me if I wanted to change my career path, and I told her I had backup options - which were Web Design, so I could possibly work at home (incase I get married and possibly suddenly have a family to raise), and I also said I had a small desire that's growing inside me to be a child and youth worker. I looked at her, and said:
"To be honest, I want to be the mentor that I never really had... It's one thing to talk to somebody, like a counsellor, and get advice or help - but I find it's a totally seperate thing to go to somebody like that, and actually have them relate to what you're going through."
She agreed with me, a hundred percent. I figure that I might put the ongoing pain in my past, and even present, and even future to good use. I want to let others know that they aren't alone, even if they may feel like they are - and especially the world that I'm going to be sucked into in the future. I can't imagine how it is now, with kids (let alone my own, when the time comes) going through the same things. I want that "avoided", by all means possible. I don't them going through the same things.
So, all in all, a final note - experience is good. It helps us grow, makes us stronger. I can say that I'm glad that God put me through the things that he put me through, because without that, I wouldn't be the girl who learned that she had to rise above everything and truly value who she is. (Okay, I'll confess, I have the times where I actually don't. But you get what I mean.)
She asked me how my semester was going for me; and that was when I brought up how tough English was for me - and how my hand couldn't handle the amount of writing I was doing in that class. I asked if I could bring a laptop in, and they, even my teacher in that class, agreed. I also said to Ms. VanKessel that I dropped Academic, and went back to Applied (College) level. She said that she would talk to my teacher, and then I went back to Math.
Oh, not much to say about that period. Although, I notice Randy has gotten "worse". He has obtained an obnoxious habit of touching me, now. He was squeezing my right side as I was leaning over to zip up my backpack. (And I'm very ticklish, so it made me flinch and squirm a bit). He's highly entertained by my reactions to things. I don't even want to KNOW what's going to come next.
The bell rang, and I finally reached English - but I ran into Ms. VanKessel on my way there, and she told me she talked with my English teacher.
"I talked with Ms. Gudall."
"Oh?"
"She told me that she's actually surprised that you're an Applied student. She thought you were an Academic student."
"...Oh."
"She says that you're handing in work that's expected from an Academic student. She told me that you're doing great in this course, and everything you have handed in has been great."
"Oh. That's great!"
Then it just ended there. Had to get in class before the bell rang. I'm staying in Academic this year; and I would LIKE to continue on with it for the next two years... But I'd rather ace the Applied level rather than not really "enjoy" the Academic level. To be honest, I feel like a bit of a failure. I feel like I've let everyone down...
In History, we did some review for our test tomorrow. I'm sure I'll do fine. I'm not too worried.
In Computers, it's always a riot in there. We started a new unit (remember how we were working on Microsoft Excel?). Now we're working with Microsoft Word; which is a program that I've used practically my WHOLE life. XD
I was so hyper in that class (I always act like I'm on crack with my buds. It's awesome. XD). And at the end of class, I was talking about how I didn't want to turn 16. The bell rang, and I headed out, only to find Chase catching up with me.
"You know; being 16 isn't a difference from 15 at all."
"Yes it is! It's got a SIX in it!"
"Well, do you wanna be stuck in a LITTLE body forever?"
That was when he had to go to his bus, and I departed to my Grandmother's car. I'll be seeing her tomorrow, too.
I have a bit of English homework to do, which I will, of course. Gotta get a shower tonight, too - do a bit of History review as well.
Oh, and I've also got two new ideas for 'Did I Ever Tell You How Much I Loved You?'. I keep daydreaming about it. (Dun' worry, it's a cute idea. :3 Not a violent one. XD)
Oh, and it's also Eating Disorder Awareness Weak this weak... I might write something regarding that; you know, something to dedicate to all those who have struggled, died, or are struggling with an eating disorder. Maybe I will, maybe I won't. It all depends.
Have a good day, peoples! 8D
Just my day again. :)
I think I may have developed a case of PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). <--- But let's get off that topic, that's negative. I'm sick of being negative all the time, although it's a lot easier than staying positive for days at a time. Or maybe that's just me. But whatever the case...
In Math, I realized that I'm practically twenty pages ahead in my math workbook than everybody else. I think I should get some free time to work on something or read. But my teacher insists that I should keep truckin' along anyway... :/ Well, whatever the case, I'll do as she says. I'm the student, she's the teacher, after all. But she's really really really really nice. ^^ Sometimes I think she's a little TOO nice. But y'know, rather have one who's overly nice than excessivley mean.
In English, we had a subsitute teacher. He just gave us this sheet of past, present, and future tenses - which I finished in less than ten minutes - and then he gave me more questions about Farenheit 451, which I finished by the end of class. But I've noticed that I'm starting to get hand cramps as I'm working on stuff like that; because I tend to write a lot and everything. I'm thinking about asking my English teacher if I can bring my laptop that the resource room currently holds for me into class now, since my hands can't handle writing a lot for long periods of time. (Now I'm beginning to think, what if I have to write a five page essay by hand?! :O). Well, if that's the case, the school has these accomodations set for me that's apart of helping my learn better. I know one of them is more time on tests, or projects, if it's required. I'm sure my English teacher will let me use it if I just ask her...
In History, my teacher made us write the goals we wanted to accomplish in the next five years - that's 21 for me. Mine were basically education set. Y'know, go to College, get a degree in whatever, that sort of thing. But I also listed that I would like to get into a relationship then. Well, we'll see what holds in store, eh? ;)
I also have to do a project that's due tomorrow, which I'm close to finishing. I'll finish most of it up until I get hand cramps tonight, then after dinner I'll finish it completley.
In Computers, nothing big happened there. Nothing big ever really happens in Computers. We've just moved on to Charts in Microsoft Excel.
OH... AND YOU WON'T BELIEVE IT. Guess what I started reading?! :D
...Well. If you guessed Hamlet, you would be correct. ^^ I'm so weak-willed when it comes to refusing or putting off something I like so much. XDDD
In Math, I realized that I'm practically twenty pages ahead in my math workbook than everybody else. I think I should get some free time to work on something or read. But my teacher insists that I should keep truckin' along anyway... :/ Well, whatever the case, I'll do as she says. I'm the student, she's the teacher, after all. But she's really really really really nice. ^^ Sometimes I think she's a little TOO nice. But y'know, rather have one who's overly nice than excessivley mean.
In English, we had a subsitute teacher. He just gave us this sheet of past, present, and future tenses - which I finished in less than ten minutes - and then he gave me more questions about Farenheit 451, which I finished by the end of class. But I've noticed that I'm starting to get hand cramps as I'm working on stuff like that; because I tend to write a lot and everything. I'm thinking about asking my English teacher if I can bring my laptop that the resource room currently holds for me into class now, since my hands can't handle writing a lot for long periods of time. (Now I'm beginning to think, what if I have to write a five page essay by hand?! :O). Well, if that's the case, the school has these accomodations set for me that's apart of helping my learn better. I know one of them is more time on tests, or projects, if it's required. I'm sure my English teacher will let me use it if I just ask her...
In History, my teacher made us write the goals we wanted to accomplish in the next five years - that's 21 for me. Mine were basically education set. Y'know, go to College, get a degree in whatever, that sort of thing. But I also listed that I would like to get into a relationship then. Well, we'll see what holds in store, eh? ;)
I also have to do a project that's due tomorrow, which I'm close to finishing. I'll finish most of it up until I get hand cramps tonight, then after dinner I'll finish it completley.
In Computers, nothing big happened there. Nothing big ever really happens in Computers. We've just moved on to Charts in Microsoft Excel.
OH... AND YOU WON'T BELIEVE IT. Guess what I started reading?! :D
...Well. If you guessed Hamlet, you would be correct. ^^ I'm so weak-willed when it comes to refusing or putting off something I like so much. XDDD
Black African Reggae artist in FESTIVAL
The black african reggae artist Alioune Badara DIALLO, performing in one of the best West African FESTIVAL in ABENE, in SENEGAL.
He is the composer, songwriter and leadvocal of the band BLACK AFRICAN POSITIVE (reggae / ragga / dancehall / bashment / acoutic / afrobeat / world music)
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