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Looks to be another beautiful day here. A day to be outside. Got some weeding done the other day, it will continue today ..... the never ending job. I'll try to make it out to the garden for photos today ..... exciting I know. lol
It seems every time I turn around something is delaying our trip to the river. The refrigerator is what started this whole trailer revamping. Buying ice blocks for the old ice box was quite costly and the food was kept cool .... not really cold, ya know? So with a propane / electric refrigerator we would be stylin'. But the refrigerator would not fit through the door of the trailer. But it would fit through a window maybe ..... and the rest is history ..... five new windows, a double sink, a four burner stove / oven combo, a new larger door and of course the refrigerator. Which ran for two days then went wacko ..... the thermostat went out. So now we sit and wait for our $110.00 (choked on that one) thermostat to arrive in the mail.
But .... the electrical is all hooked up now .... inside and out, new tail lights and more lights inside. The insulation is in complete. I have a nice new closet, albeit small. A new canned food closet ..... long and narrow w/ slanted shelves.
I will go out in the afternoons and sit in it sometimes ..... staring out the window picturing the scene from the river. Close my eyes and noise from the cars going down the highway turns into the roaring river. Open them and reality is in front of me. The driveway, the house. The highway. We will get there. We will.
Well, that second cup of coffee is calling. A walk to the garden I think this morning ..... take in some of the cool summer morning air. But I won't forget the earplugs .... the quietness of the morning disrupted.
And with that I have come full circle.
Happy Fathers Day to you dad's out there. Happy Sunday to everyone ..... enjoy your day.
Peace. J.
Puffy and swollen eyes later, a stomache full of crabs and a glass of wine or two I can at least breathe when I thought I lost my breathe for good. I don't know why I do the things I do, I just do. Today was supposed to be rest day, I took off I was supposed to chill and just be, but nope I can't do that. Instead of finishing up in the yard or playing with the kids I decided to drop off a window screen Nina Simone shredded last year. I put the screen in the back of the car and headed off to the post office. Today was the first day it had not rain in over a week, a little in the low 70s but I love that temp. I breathed in the air and just as I was about to leave something said "yo let the top down" Can you recall the sound you heard the first time you broke a bone or the loud beating of your heart during your first kiss? Thats what the damn glass sounded like as everything fell apart. I screamed and the tears came along with the snott and why me and you gotta be freekin kidden me.
Hours later I can once again try to be grateful that it is just a window. I can try to be grateful that it will just be 499.00. I can be grateful that I have my car and as annoying and painful as this has been I will come through and out. Only God knows how much I was hurting today, lonely and wishing I had that "him" to hod and kiss away the hurt. Only God knows what my tomorrow will be but if nothing else he has to have something greater planned than both my today and yesterday.
It stinks but yes I am grateful.
so hi
my life is a little boring...no one is going to read these....no one ever reads things i produce on the internet. so i guess i am making this just to let shit go, cuz everyone like reading about everyone elses problems, when they have their own problems anyway.....
well i guess you should get to know me.....
I am weird, my name is paige and i dont like it...idk why.
I am blunt, i hate alot of things and think alot of things are stupid. i hate sterotypes so keep them away from me. i like all different types of music, hardcore, rock, tencho, indie, and jpop. I am really in to Photography, writing, and just having fun. I am a fun person when you get to know me. i think Rap is gross, and people who act black and are white are just posers and losers [Come on people get a life]
i dont like religion too much, but i am Wiccan. it just causes stupid pointless fights. i dont like the government...they hide too much from everyone, and dont give a shit anymore.
I dont drink, or do drugs, again i think are pointless and stupid. i am not going to lie, i have tried drinking, and pot....ill never touch it again.
I am every open about alot of things. just ask me and ill tell you.
I like talking about sex, though i have never had it, and proud of it.
I have MSN, and shitspace, just ask for it.
I have an Amazing boyfriend.
I love life...just hate the shity parts.
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