Polo @ MindSay

So I suppose a new blog right now would be pretty rediculous seeing as I haven't had a blog on here for about a year. But I am sitting in 5th period right now where I am Mr. Matthew's TA typing up a blog anyways.

I really don't feel compelled to make this blog witty, funny, clever, or anything else like that. I am just going to lay it out because I feel like it and don't particularly want to think very hard.

My last polo season is well underway. It's bittersweet I must admit. Our team is alright.

Haaahahaha. This dumb-ass sophmore in this class is trying to be funny and just said pussy and Mr. Matthew is PISSED! Shit I can't believe he did that. What an idiot.

Is it better to be feared or loved as a leader? That's the discussion. Feared I think. Mr. Matthew cracks my shit up. He is mocking pansy teachers. If you're loved by all, you're gonna get walked all over. If you're feared, you'll get respect. Maybe in a utopian society, being loved might be more important. But when you're feared, you're not going to get shit from anyone.

And that's another thing. Love is stupid. Scratch that. Love doesn't exist. I think love is overrated. All anyone ever talks about it is how much they love someone or someone loves them. SHUT up. Love is a joke. Call me pesimistic but I don't care.

GOD Mr. Matthew is a genius. And I quote "I already have friends and I don't need a bunch of 13 - 14 year old friends. Quite frankly, I don't care if you like me." I wish all teachers were like him.

This morning, I hated everyone. And last night, I decided that I don't want to see any of my friends on myspace. Well, almost, I mean. Everyone annoys me. I am done with valley people. I'm sick of their lame drama and lame convorsations and lame lives. I want to meet new people. I want to live a new life. I want a change.

Intimidation. That's the new subject. Ask me about that one. I'll jump all over that.

I've been searching the internet desperately to find someone. I don't know what happend. I need to find out what happened. It's killing me. I swear he never existed. Everything is is just fine and then one day - YOINK- donzo. Never existed. Little fucker. That's so unacceptable. I will find out. Mark it.

That's it. I'm out. Ends justify the means. Lie, cheat, steal.

I might go see Coral tomorrow. I will take the Greyhound to Grand Rapids in the morning and spend the day with her and take it back at night. I am kind of excited.

It's funny we have been back for only a month and she is already trying to get rid of my fave sweatshirt. I have this  really nice grey Polo zipper-front  hoody that was a hand-me-down form my uncle Ray. It's about two sizes to gig for me and has a lot of stains on it but it is so warm and comfortable. I will never get rid of it, never. Coral can try but she will  never win. I am wearing it right now and I feel so good. It's kind of like that security blanket or second slice of cheesecake we all know when it's time to give it up but we never do because it makes us feel so good and safe.

Thanks for Reading,

Mark M.

So last night was fun.  We went to the play.  I thought the first two acts were really random and the whole thing was extremely odd. I just didn't think I liked it very much while I was watching it.  It was just too...different. and i know that's dumb not to like a play because it's different, but I couldn't say i was a huge fan at first. The first two acts were random and kinda funny at parts, but then there was the third act. THAT was morbidly depressing. I mean... it was like "you're doing life wrong" and it was so sad. It ended and I felt so different about the play than I did earlier. The end was just so intense and so...wow.. i can't even put it into words.  just...wow.  All the people in it were soo good. I was way impressed. and i thought i wouldn't like that there weren't any props, but it really grew on me. If the "miming" had been poorly done, then it would have been extremely distracting and would not have made for a good play, but all of it was really good. It was very precise and "detailed" i guess you could say. So overall, this play was really different, but all of the actors were awesome, and i enjoyed it a lot. nice work guys

Tonight was fun too. After I went out to dinner I stopped by kelli's and we just talked for awhile... it was nice..   and then i ran home, and then went to target where i met amy, kirsten, and dani.  Then we went over to kirsten's where molly, aubrey, and gretchen came.  I had an...interesting conversation with aubrey...which was actually sort of a continuation of the one with kelli...that kinda got me thinking. and i suppose we are just gonna have to see where that one goes.  anyway...at kirsten's we had a really great time coloring care bears and listening to disney music.  it was wonderful :)