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Home, Sweet Home
Well, I moved in yesterday, so I guess today is my official first whole day. It's not as great as I thought it was - the apartment, I mean. The bathroom door is fucked up so we had someone come and look at it and they ripped the fucking floor to shit. The tiny, piece of shit kitchen smells like roach powder, probably some shit like a Borat mixture or something. I am so bored! Crystal (my roomie) went off to work and won't be back until 8 or so. We don't have cable yet, the internet is slow as fuck, and to be honest I'm a bit nervous to leave the apartment by myself. It's creepy and I live on the eighth floor. I don't want to be raped!! :P (I'm only half kidding.)

I'm watching the movie, Girl, Interrupted. It's one of my favorite movies, partially because I feel like it reflects a lot of shit in my life. Plus, I think Wynona Ryder and Angelina Jolie are hot as fuck. lol I really love the character, Lisa, that Angelina Jolie plays. Lisa and the rest of the girls that are at the mental institution are the ones that are fucking sane, man! Everyone else around them are the people that are crazy - living in some false reality, telling themselves a bunch of fucking lies to try and make themselves happier, but none of them are fucking happy except those that are considered "insane." This movie makes me depressed as hell, but it makes me feel good - it makes me think about life. It's one hell of a movie and an even greater book. I'm glad that my parents decided against sending me to that mental institution after I overdosed. Fuck, man, just a couple months ago some dude raped some woman at that very same institution that the doctors wanted to send me to. Scary! Although, I wonder what kind of person I would be today if I had been forced to go.

Jared Leto, from the band 30 Seconds From Mars, is in the movie Girl, Interrupted too. He's also in the movie Fight Club. He has such beautiful eyes. They just stand out so much. I wish I had eyes like that. I mean, I guess I have pretty eyes. Crystal is always saying that she wished I didn't wear glasses because they make my eyes look smaller and she thinks I have big eyes - not bulgy eyes, just big eyes. People used to say that I had doe eyes, you know, like a deer. I guess that makes me feel good. Not a lot makes me feel good anymore and if it does, I can't fucking remember it.
 
 
   
 

updates dudes!
wow so a lot has been going on. went on another recent trip back to riverside...this was the trip that gave me a rude awakening and i realized a lot of shit this time.....main thing being how much i miss my family but how much weve all changed....next thing being the fact that i gave hex all these chances and we were doing ok then his split psycho stupid personality the ignorant bastard stepped in and fucked it all up. im done with him. i mean it. i was so set on trying to fix things n its not even worth fixing our friendship least of anything. i cant even say his name anymore. hes not a regret, hes a lesson, never waste ten years loving someone and going thru the shit you go thru with them when you were scared from the beginning. never do sumthing if u have doubts. only thing is, i still love him, but its not going to win over this time. im truly done. and yes, ive said it many times before. but when someone says and does things to you constantly and makes your heart and hindsite get weaker and weaker every moment and theyre tearing your heart apart piece by piece, it just becomes unteolerable to any longer love that person or have hope. hes a stupid piece of shit that needs to grow up and stop ruining others lives jus to make himself feel better...what the hell did i ever do to him to deserve all of this? i keep thinking theres gotta be summin i did to make him hate me so much. but everyone keeps telling me to go on n ignore it n its him not me,....but how would U feel if the one person in your life that could kill u jus with a look, the person whos held ur heart since before it could be held, who uve loved more then your own life <of the opposite sex i mean lol> jus took ur heart out of u n burnt it and stomped on it rite in front of you? you would feel hate, i do, you would feel pain, i do, you would feel loss, i do, and most of all, you would feel a dumb numbness...that i do. anyway enough about that....as far as the rest of my life goes im doing fine gettin ready to work at wal mart for a while then go back to kansas in early january and start college hopefully and yuh there begins my life as an 'adult' how fun it sounds...NOT lol....o by the way...my 18th birthday is next week, and for anyone that finds this site of mine yes...i did delete everything except my myspace and this.....WOOT WOOT haha lol ive been waiting to get rid of all that shit for a while n why not...i dont ever go on them jus get perverted comments from old men n boys whos balls havent even dropped yet....lol....anyway.....im outs for now.....WEDS. the 22nd....BIG 18!......WOOOOOT! ...i LOVE me... o and on the robb issue...im done with him too. im over caring for people...back to the wonderful old whore amber! lol hey what can i say? i got no heart so why act like i do? and robb...i may be nice and i may act like ur a friend...but fuck with my head ever again and trust me ull be hurting. im a friend only a friend to you and me even agreeing to be ur friend again...comes with rules....but ill type those later......anyway im outs for real....MWUAH!
 
 
 

   
Adam Sandler
- Ode To My Car
Performed by Adam Sandler

Here we go

Piece of shit car
I got a piece of shit car
That fuckin' pile of shit
Never gets me very far

My car's a big piece of shit
'Cause the shocks are fucking shot
And my seatbelt's fucking broken
I got to tie it in a knot
(It's a piece of shit)

I can't see through the windshield
'Cause it's got a big fucking' crack
And the interior smells real bad
'Cause my friend puked in the back
(It's a piece of shit)

(Piece of shit car)
Piece of shit car
(He's got a piece of shit car)
It sucks royal dick
(That fuckin' pile of shit)
100% crap
(Never gets him very far)
Oh fuck you car

It's got no CD player, it only got the 8-track
Whoever designed my car can lick my sweaty nut sack
(They can bite his ass too)
And I got no fuckin' brakes
I'm always way out of control
Eleven times a day I hear "Hey, watch it asshole"
(You fuckin' piece of shit)

(Piece of shit car)
I got piece of shit car
(He got a piece of shit car)
Diesel gas sucks my ass
(That fuckin' pile of shit)
That pile of metal shit
(Never gets him very far)

Oh what the fuck did I do
What the fuck did I do
What the fuck did I do
To get stuck with you
You're too wide for drive-thru
And you smell like the shoe
But I'm too broke to buy something new
Oh fuck me

Well the engine likes to flood
The car always fuckin' stalls
And the seat cushion's got a big rip
So a spring always pokes the balls
(Ouch, ouch, ouch)
Plus the door locks are busted
I gotta use a fucking coat hanger
(What a pain in his ass)
And if a girlie sees my car
There's no chance I'll ever bang her
(He never ever gets da pussy)
Hey shut up
(Piece of shit car)
You piece of shit car

(You got a piece of shit car)
You piece of shit car
(Piece of shit car)
Bald fuckin' tires
(You got a piece of shit car)
No rearview fucking mirror
(Piece of shit car)
Seven different colors
(You got a piece of shit car)
Fucking rag for a gas cap
(Piece of shit car)
Tailpipe makes the sparks fly everywhere
(You got a piece of shit car)
(Piece of shit car)
(You got a piece of shit car)
(Piece of shit car)
Oh the whole town thinks I'm a loser
(You got a piece of shit car)
Cabby give me a push
(Piece of shit car...)

 
 
   
 

To transfer or not to transfer thats the fucking question

my dai is nowe officially shit and its only one a fucking clock. ive been thinking about transfering to a school i know absoulutley no one at and staying there and not telling anyone what school i go to. i wanna run away from my life, friends, enimies and just eveything just keep running and find out where i end up. if i belong there ill stay. if not ill keep runnning. do i even belong anywhere?

life is not the best thing. and its not the worst either. music is hell. crushes just stomp all over you. love swallows you whole. friends dont alwats understand. random strangers confuse the hell out of you. and people you dont reallie get along with. they know exactly who you are. and they get every feeling and feel like terminal shit because you do.

this is all i have to sai. nowe im getting off this piece of shit b4 my whole weekend is watsted getting pissed off and writing on this retarded thing.

jen

 
 
 

   
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I AM SO SICK AND TIRED OF THIS. everyone treats me like a piece of shit and wont admit... ive had my heart broken, but i refuse to break anothers heart. y... y cant she just see... just see what shes done to me? i just wanna cry... ITS SOOOO UNFAIR! she fucks everything up... shes worse than kimber... i just found out sooo much more secrets she never told me... and shes keeps sayin she never used me when she clearly did... i have hard proof... i, im gonna flip... go crazy insane... y does she do this to me? y did i care sooo much for her? and when i was feeling like an ass for what i said, i find out more shit? how could she do all that to me?!?!?!
 
 
   
 

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