Pet Peeves @ MindSay

Yea, everyone has one...but mine is definitely the weirdest!!!

 

Lol, I hate to sit in a warm seat! It really really bugs the hell out of me, and for some reason I think it's absolutely disgusting. If I sit in a warm seat...I automatically get up, not even thinking about it...and change the seat. Like, switch desks, or chairs, or whatever I'm sitting in at the time...

 

 

Yes folks, it is yet another horribly edited installment of Inside The Mind of a Night Owl (ITMANO).  Episode III discusses a few of my pet peeves.  Since the video was filmed in 8 clips of 22 second installments because I had to film it with my cell phone, the editing is shittier than ever! Note those smooth transitions and notice how my head changes positions in the frame.  Also, my accent seems to get thicker and thicker with each 22 second installment. Other than that, ENJOY! (or don't).

 

 

1. Slow Internet (which I've got)

2. MySpace camera whores

3. Camera whores in general

4. People who get dressed up and put on a ton of makeup just to take some pictures to put on MySpace

5. People who bitch and complain ALL THE TIME that they're ugly/fat just so people can reassure them that they're not.

6. Narcissists

7. People who talk about their role-playing game life outside of it. Honestly, when they talk about things they've killed in the game it sounds like something that really happened. And if they bitch about something, it's because they couldn't defeat the wizard or whatever on level 26. Then they talk about their own character and it's so gay! Get a life! Sorry if this offends any of you.

8. When I've been working on a song for a long time then some stupid guy in my guitar class plays it perfectly after having just listened to me for, like, two minutes. I HATE that!

9. Egoistic people (mostly guys)

 

That's all I can think of for now, but I'll probably update.

 I'm sorry he feels like he's wasting his time. I know he said he was joking...but I just got that feeling, you know? It just cuts me deeply, and I'm not sure how to handle it. I hate cyring over stupid things that don't really matter. 

I mean, he doesn't have to be an asshole all the time, does he?  Not that he's an asshole to me. He's not. He's really sweet to me. But he'll almost just ignore me when we're around people. I guess I understand why he says he's doing it, but still. What the fuck? And what is it with his shitty comments about Celeste all the time? I know she's not the coolest person in the world, but he doesn't have to be so rude every time she walks into a room.

And why the hell did he start smoking again? It's nasty, and I hate it.  He knows it bothers me, too. That just pisses me off even more. He asked me if it would bother me, and I told him it would. But he started up again, anyway. And what is it with those fucking sleeping pills? God, why are there so many things that he does that bothers me? Why do I even stay around? Why am I still sleeping with him? Why am I such a dumbfuck? Why can't I ever have a relationship go right? Hell, this isn't even a real realtionship. Not officially. He was right. He did hurt me. And he's still hurting me. And I'm letting him. I'm helping him. I'm so fucked up.

 

Am I wasting my time?

Am I wasting his time?

 

Am I just "another woman to bone"? God, I feel like it. What the fuck made me think this could actually work? Why the fuck would I think anyone would  actually want to be with me? How the fuck did I let myself think that everything would be the way I wanted it to be? Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with me?

And why the hell am I sitting here crying over him? There's not even anything for me to cry over! 

And once again, I've realized that I haven't really eaten in over a week. That's usually one of the many signs that I've fucked up again.

But this is a big fuck up that I can't take back.

 

I'm just so scared I'm going to end up alone, with everyone I love hating me, leaving me. I'm going to be abandoned by everyone. Like it's been my entire life. Fuck it all.