Personal Reasons @ MindSay

I've spent the last couple of days in a mood of self loathing more or less.  That whole window quiz thingie was right in one aspect and I've almost always realized this about myself.  I do tend to let certain emotions build up until I burst with it.  And I usually pick the most...WRONG...times to cry or to find the struggle to hold back tears just really difficult.  And to a lot of people it seems like I am coming out of left field with it.

The reasons are many.  But it has had nothing to do with pms (I'm not hormonal at all) and nothing to do with Matt's female orgasm post.  In all honesty, ithe reasons are rather personal and I don't want to post about it.

There are some things in my life that I don't post about.  I just don't feel that some of my feelings and emotions should be open to critisism or analyzing or comment.

Actually, I don't blog at all to be critized or analyzed.  The critizism doesn't bother me really, but I don't like to be analyzed without invitation to do so.  Because really, there is no one on earth who knows me 100% down to every cell and atom and thought in my head.  I analyze myself enough...I over analyze myself enough.  And the only person who even comes close to having the right to analyze me is Matt.  And when he does...he's usually right.

Second baseman Pokey Reese's contract was terminated Sunday by the Florida Marlins, who said they were disappointed not to receive an explanation regarding his abrupt departure from spring training.

 

Reese went home following a workout Wednesday without notifying the Marlins. They later heard twice from his agent, but not directly from Reese, general manager Larry Beinfest said.

 

"I think that the 72 hours that have passed is more than a reasonable amount of time for him to offer some explanation for his unexcused absence," Beinfest said. "We still do not have that explanation, and we're moving on."

 

The 32-year-old infielder has coped with a succession of tragedies, including the death of his fiancee 13 years ago. His agent, Mike Nicotera, said Reese went home to deal with personal issues.

 

"Pokey is fine," Nicotera said. "He's with family. When personal feelings are involved, it's very difficult to put a timetable on the resolution of those."

 

Nicotera said he hoped Reese would play again. The agent spoke shortly before the Marlins released Reese and didn't return subsequent phone calls seeking comment.

 

It was unclear whether Reese was in his native Columbia, S.C., or in Charlotte, N.C., where he also has family.

 

"The expectations of this organization [are] that as a professional you'd have the courtesy to at least notify us why he left," Beinfest said. "If he was a young player maybe without any experience, you may have a little bit different tack, but this guy's been around. We're extremely disappointed."

 

Reese, a two-time Gold Glove winner, spent all of last season on the disabled list with Seattle following shoulder surgery. He signed with Florida in December for $800,000, and was to be one of the best-paid, most experienced players for the young, cost-conscious Marlins.

 

"It's disappointing," manager Joe Girardi said. "He fit that role that we needed really well, with a lot of experience and a lot of knowledge of playing the position."

 

With Reese's departure, the front-runner for the second base job becomes rookie Dan Uggla, who hit .297 with 21 home runs last year for Double-A Tennessee -- but also committed 25 errors. A trade for a veteran is a possibility, Beinfest said.

 

"As normal, we'll be in touch with our scouts and start to gather information," he said. "I wouldn't rule out anything, but is it a dire need today? The answer is no."