Permanent @ MindSay

I've found if I cut with a razor, it will have healed into a scar or at least something really light within a few days. Compared with scraping with a compass, which takes at the least a month for it to even really fade.

I haven't cut since about June 20th of this year. It's only been a month...it's kind of wierd to think about. I remember when I quit for two years! Then I did it in October, then I stopped for theatre, and I did it again before prom this year.

Even though I've been feeling better generally, I still want to. I know I'm a bit better, but Andy will always remain someplace in my mind. I will always love him in some way. I will never forget what he meant to me. I can't pretend to not miss the amazing friendship we had.

And everyone I've lost, I won't forget them either. They have changed and so have I. They may not want me in their lives anymore, and it may hurt, but I am still here.

I have also realized:

Only history is permanent.

What is permanent?

I think music is permanent. At least, to a great extent. You can't really destroy music. You can erase a tape, delete a song, or just not listen to it, or forget about it, but it is never truly gone. Unless of course every recording ever made of it is lost or erased, and all of the people who made it or dead, but still there might always be someone who will remember it, and will be there to play it. But for the most part, I believe music is pretty well permanent. And I like that. I don't think there are many things that are really permanent. A photograph can get destroyed, as well as the copies, and it might not be capable of reproduction. And as far as I've been thinking, the only other thing that is permanent seems to be the damage we've done to this poor planet... >.>

What are your thoughts? What is permanent? What does permanent mean? Is anything really ever permanent? Do you think music is permanent, if so, anything else? If not, what is?

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Sometime within the next 2-3 years, I will be moving, permanently, to New Zealand.

I researched luggage allowances, etc, to see how much I could take with me, and it seems my hands are tied. All I'm taking with me are 4 pairs of jeans, some long-sleeved shirts, a few t-shirts, a few pairs of shorts, 2 pairs of shoes, a couple sleeveless shirts for pajamas and working out and stuff, maybe 2 or 3 books (I'm sure I won't be able to find them easily over there), all the friken lotion and body soap I have that I've never used (maybe 5ish pounds worth), a few files I should take with me in case I need proof of education, employment, US citizenship, etc, a crayon box with pens and pencils, a few cds and burned movies stuck in 2 cd cases, a jacket or two, personal items (underwear, bras, socks, toothbrush and toothpaste, wallet, bathing suit, etc), and the stuffed animal my fiance gave me for Christmas last year.

I'm really not taking any more than I need, because luggage has its limits. But things are expensive there (for example, a basic cheap bra is $50, and jeans are around $80+), so it's be nice to not have to buy stuff I already have.. ya know?

44 pounds... that's my suit case and jeans.. what about everything else? I'm really only taking what I need, except the books, crayon box, and body soap/lotions. If I have to, I can cut those, but that'd suck to have them but never use them. I only have a little brother, so he's never going to use them. I'm really only worried about the body soap, so I wouldn't have to buy bar soap (because it's a little pricey there).

Any ideas?
How much would it cost to have a few boxes shipped overseas? I'd only need 2 small boxes at the most. I really only need to take 3-4 suitcases (because jeans and shoes take up so much space and weight so much). It'd suck to have to pay for the services of a few boxes of jeans and shirts.. right?

471. Permanent crimes deserve a permanent punishment.

Gary O