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Dixie currently feels:

Annoyed

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Seven reasons why Dixie is annoyed:

1. - The smiley went to the top of the screen again.

2. - I'm bored.

3. - I want to write and I can't.

4. - Guitar Hero is getting so bloody hard on Expert.

5. - I'm on a heavy flow period, I've been on for a week and it shows no signs of stopping...

6. - My bedroom's messy and I can't be bothered cleaning it.

7. - I keep making TYPOS.

...So, as I have nothing else to do, I'm going to make some more LISTS.

Lists are indeed, very fun.

Dixie's ten favourite Blackmore's Night songs:

1) Fires At Midnight

2) Morning Star

3) Under A Violet Moon

4) Shadow Of The Moon

5) Ghost Of A Rose

6) Greensleeves

7) Wind Dance Of The Fairies

8) Castles And Dreams

9) Avalon

10) Wind In The Willows

Dixie's five biggest fears:

1) Dentists

2) Needles

3) Heights

4) Spiders

5) Death

Dixie's twelve favourite random quotes, made by herself:

1) "Children of the sea!"

2) "Brunette is just another word for shit."

3) "Emily can wear a shoe, wash yer bowl!"

4) "Hmmm... MARZIPAN."

5) "Brita filters are funny."

6) "Too many cabbages, not enough Hilda."

7) "Yes you ARE going to ASDA!"

8) "I pressed BROWN."

9) "My mam's a balsamic vinegar."

10) "Who the fuck is Roxanne!?"

11) "Where did I put that chicken leg?"

12) "You and your shorts!"

Dixie's eight favourite voices on her keyboards:

1) Overdrive

2) Pan flute

3) Ocarina

4) Comet

5) Synth guitar

6) Clarinet

7) Banjo

8) Machine gun

Dixie's ten favourite songs on Guitar Hero III:

1) Holiday In Cambodia - Dead Kennedys

2) Prayer Of The Refugee - Rise Against

3) Heir Kommt Alex - Die Toten Hosen

4) Raining Blood - Slayer

5) Avalancha - Heroes Del Silencio

6) Sabotage - Beastie Boys

7) Bulls On Parade - Rage Against The Machine

8) Cherub Rock - Smashing Pumpkins

9) Radio Song - Superbus

10) Cult Of Personality - Living Colour

Random habits Dixie has when she plays video games:

- Dixie holds down the Whammy bar constantly when playing Guitar Hero, and tries to whammy every single sustain.

- Dixie cannot play Mario Kart sat up straight, she has to lie down.

- Dixie only uses her left thumb for one button when she plays Dancing Stage: Mario Mix on the controller - the B button.

- Dixie taps the sides of the bongos in Donkey Konga instead of clapping.

- Dixie cannot play Guitar Hero unless she is sat upright with her feet crossed.

- Dixie cannot play Final Fantasy VII without a drink next to her.

- Dixie cannot play Sonic Adventure 2: Battle without singing along to the BGM.

- Dixie cannot use the analog stick to play Bust-A-Move 4; she has to use the D-pad.

- Dixie can only do one level on Wario Ware: Smooth Moves whilst she is sat down; Mona's level.

- Dixie cannot play Tekken 2 without speaking the announcer's lines out loud when he says them.

- Dixie cannot play Mario Kart: DS without shouting "BLUE SHELL!!!" every time one is present.

- Dixie cannot play chapter 3 of Paper Mario: TTYD without laughing at everything.

Dixie currently feels:

Sick

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I came home today, baked myself a chicken and bacon stuffed crust pizza - and ate it whilst I watched The Weakest Link.

I shouted out all the answers I knew, and I never got one wrong.

I felt rather intelligent, especially when the dimwits on the telly got wrong what I'd shouted out right.

Anyway, I think I've either ate too much pizza, or drank too much Sprite.

Maybe it was the dodgy ice cubes I put in the Sprite?

We buy bags of ice - dad likes to have ice with his cider on his nights in.

But the ice smells like seafood.

I have this really awful feeling that the ice is recycled, having already been used in seafood displays...

Eeewww...

I really hope not.

I fell asleep on the sofa at half 6.

Dad came in and fell asleep on the other sofa.

When I woke up, I turned over - and I rolled into a nice warm patch where I'd been laid.

I have a really high core body temperature - I'm ALWAYS warm.

I'm sat here in a room with no radiator on, in a towel, with wet hair - and I'm still warm.

It's not fair - I'm on a heavy flow period, and I've leaked a little on the front of my jeans when I was asleep.

Oh how the feminine cycle radges me so.

I fell asleep because of my lack of sleep.

For the past week, I've been satying awake until 5-6AM, talking to Emily or playing on my DS.

I'd wake up exactly 8 hours later, either at 1 or 2PM.

Last night, I couldn't sleep.

I laid awake with my DS, listening to some Fire of Glory recordings Emily had done.

Not that she has a boring voice - but when people read to me, I always nod off easier.

When I was little, I listened to stories on cassettes.

I still like to. :)

Ah, the sleep habits of some people. :D

I'M SO RELIEVED! Emma's in at least ONE of my classes for next year. We have last period together, which is our Quint period. Right now our quint is Health last period! I was worried, since so far the other people that I've asked have no classes with me, excepting lunch. And also because Emma and I have funn in class together. So hah.

Phew.

Well, so much for our Valentine's plans of a nice evening together. First, I feel like craaap. I've had a cold/flu type thing for about a week now, which isn't fun, but by this point I'm willing to get over it. But then I started with period cramps today too. Which are never fun. And these ones seem much worse than normal. Blahhh. My monthly friend came last week; I thought I'd finished a couple of days ago, but tonight all of a sudden it returns, heavier. I hate being a woman sometimes, I really do. My cycles are so messed up, I have no idea what goes on most of the time.

And aside from menstrual issues, I'm in a mood tonight now. I was fine earlier. God bless PMT. Well, that, and an ongoing discussion me and Nicky have been having for a little while now.

Babies. He wants us to have another. I know he has had a very hard time with the miscarriage we had in December. He was so happy about that, as unexpected as it was. And it got snatched away from us. He was so looking forward to the whole experience - just as I was - and he wants that again. In some ways I do- because I do miss being pregnant very much- but I know the time isn't right. But will the time ever be right? I know I should wait, because it's a big risk to my health - but it will always be a big risk, with my background; whether I get pregnant 5 days or 5 years from now. If I found out I was pregnant tomorrow, I'd be happy about it, without a doubt. I'm scared though, about risks and such. Part of me wants to say forget the whole idea and that I should just go get my damn tubes tied, but then I miss being pregnant; some days it's really strong that I don't think I'll ever be able to forget about it.

I don't know. I don't really want to rush into anything.. but I'm not on birth control anyway (for numerous reasons). It's just suddenly become a big deal, and I don't like it. If it was completely left to nature; we never talked about it, it just happened.. it would be fine. The thing that bothers me is all the talk; the emphasis and pressure put on the subject and it is really annoying me. I have tried to explain this to Nicky, and I know he will respect whatever decision I make, but I know it is hard for him. I do completely understand how he feels, because a lot of me feels the same way, but then a part of me (the rational and mentally stable part, I guess) knows it's a stupid idea.

Who knows what'll happen.

We didn't exactly end on a good note tonight. I guess I should go to bed and cuddle or something so he knows there's no hard feelings.