Perfect Day @ MindSay

 

You ask people in my position what was the greatest day of their lives and they will probably say it was the day that they had the Eagle, Globe, And Anchor put in their had. That day was special but not my greatest day. My greatest day was the day I realized I wanted to spend the rest of my life with One Brigette Elizabeth Steinpries. I had liked her for about a year when I asked her if she wanted to be friends with benefits…I knew this would make a friend mad but I didn’t care I liked her and I wanted to be with her. She said yes and then we started actually dating. It was on our very first date that I knew.

 

Everything was perfect…her and I hung out a bit…we walked around on the beach and I asked her a question. Her and I had been talking about us possibly having sex and she said she didn’t know and she would have to think about it because since what had happened in a previous relationship she wanted to wait until she was with the guy she wanted to marry. Well my question was if we were going to or no…well she said she had thought about it and it was a yes.

 

We drove around for a bit because I didn’t know were I would actually take her. We drove around for a bit and then I found the perfect spot…she knows which spot I mean. Well the time was like 8:56pm and we pulled into our spot. Every little thing was perfect…we had sex and we tried changing positions a few times but Brigette just ended up hitting her head so we choose one and had our fun.

 

When we finished it was about 9:33pm and I did the one thing almost every guy asks a girl the first time they do anything together. She said it was perfect and that is felt just right with me. I knew what she meant everything feel so perfect with her. Something about us clicked that night. We left the spot and we went to allsups and got something to drink. I took her home and we kissed good bye. On the way home I knew….I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my like with that woman.

 

In November I got back from boot camp and everything returned to normal…well kinda….I almost messed up big time because I didn’t want any secrets from her…but we worked through it and everything worked out. I left home to go up to MCT and while I was there it sucked I missed her so much and I knew then that I couldn’t live my life if she wasn’t in it…I bought her a ring and when I got home I dropped to one knee and asked her to marry me.

 

She said yes and we spent the whole month of December together. In January I had to come up here for my MOS training and I had to leave her again. But we have been talking online. A few days ago her and I talked online and on the phone and we figure out we want to try to have a kid soon…probably start the trying in October so the kid and be born in July. See next year on her birth day she is going to move in with me and then 8 days after that we are going to get married…but I will always remember the best day of my life.

 

It was the day that I realized no matter what I wanted to spend the rest f my life with One Brigette Elizabeth Steinpreis because everything seemed perfect with her.

 

Thank you for reading

PFC Loftis, Ernest P. USMC

My kids were AMAZING today. Erica was out, the sub was soooo sweet and let me truly just take over and do my thing, giving support where necessary. Amazing. I didn't get to eat all day, not until cake for Helen's birthday at 4:00 and an apple at around 6:30, but I don't care. I don't feel it. I am the happiest person in the world right now. To the point where it's been, I don't know, FIVE hours since I had to tell them my last day was Wednesday, and I was still rocking out on the subway because I just couldn't contain it.

Today's been one of those perfect Saturdays.  Slept in, ate a bagel and drank some coffee while reading the paper, went for a jog, showered, and spent the afternoon in Borders, perusing books and enjoying the day.  Then I took a leisurely walk, and returned home.

 

Tonight Meghan and I are going to see American Dreamz and then go out to eat at Giordano's.

 

In the meantime, I'll do some reading of Ethnicity, Race, and Crime: Perspectives Across Time and Place.

today (well friday) was so amazingly perfect.

not because anything speciall happened.... just because it was. even if they day had nothing note-worthy, it was still perfect.

 

This morning i spoke to Kody and it makes me happy everytime i see him. and talk to him. he's just too beautiful a person. Just that was enough to make me want to have another day of school in a row, just to see him. then we had a math test, and i was completely enveloped in love and compassion. all of my own makign. but completely, perfectly.

I did well on the test-- it's funny how good i do at things when i don't worry about how they turn out. i just send energy out to the universe saying "this is what i'm getting and thats that"

and everything was perfect peace. i feel the stress of everyone around me, and it buzzes at the edges of my bubble, but thats why i let people soak it in. we all need love.

and i just floated through the day..... i was perfect peace, perfect love. unfizzable. i was completely one with myself and the universe. I was complete.

 

Then in biology.... i was sitting between Jeremy and Sarah.... Jeremy moved over with me because amanda wasnt there and his excuse was that he didnt want to sit with the geniuses ;) . we had to do a tedious lab, and he sat closer to me than he had to. he had room to have his complete personal space. but he was really close. i was able to smell him the whole time and both sarah and him were demanding for my attention

it made me giggle :)

it made me happy. after that. lunch. we were just in the cafeteria, where i felt the bubble more. like, the way everyones voices were just far away and i could only hear those close to me. i did my usual trick with crackers. i stole a handful of someones goldfish (from another table) and put them in everyones food. I put one in megz' yogurt and jer was all EAT IT EAT IT EAT IT, at which point i put oone in his ketchup. when he went to have another fry he just said "oh!!!" and left his fry there to eat the fish. he gave me a look ;)

 

then i went to the library and chatted with sam, helped my baby-cousin heather out with an assignment, and hovered around amanda too. then when it was about time to start packing up for next class, jer came over to the main desk to hide someones backpack. we ended up shifting over so it was me and jer in a little space. then i had a subtle moment....

 

Me: Hmmm... someone smells good, but iunno who.

Jeremy: Oh, its probably me!

Me: *leans over and breathes him in* mmmmmmmyep! its YOU.

Jeremy: i knew it! my shampoo is all fruity smelling, sooo....

me: Ooo. well. Can i have... a HUG?

Jeremy: wha? a hug? Sure!

 

and i got a hug.

not just ANY hug, but a REAL hug. he actually held me. that made me happy. I'm the perfect height for a hug. my head rests in the perfect spot on his shoulder.

 

I'm not obsessive, just observant.

Honestly.

Although i suppose by saying that it means i'm capable of it ;)

 

Hugs are worth noting in my life. any kind of love, is worth noting.

after that, my day had nothing else interesting happen. i decided to sit on peoples desk and look at them alluringly.

First i sat on karens and say "Hey there.... ;)"

then i went to joshs and i was all..."pfft" cos he ignored me, so i went to amanda and winked.

I was then yelled at by miss buggie to go sit in a chair

me: but... i WAS sitting ON the chair.,..just not in it.

 then i got home and talked to matt... i said "i hope we have lots of rain this summer"

and about 3 hours later.... guess what :) it began raining.

 

then i went to Teresas to watch over alex.

He was asleep and it was weird because usually i'd be annoyed about waking him up, so i just spoke to him about my day when i took his jacket off, and then when he cried spoke to him some more and let him lay down. i kept talking to him from the kitchen, just about anything i thought of. and then i started asking him if he was hungry or wanted this or that. the process took about 20 mins but i got him awake and hyper. i changed his diaper in the process. and then got him excited. he shovelled hisfood in and then we played games on the xbox for... oh, iunno.... 2 hours? then we danced for 30 mins to no doubt (would have been led zepplin if not for my discovery of No Doubt which i couldnt find before)

Then i trucked him off to bath, he played around for long enough to get wrinkly, and then i got him dancing some more... and then got him to bed, read him 3 stories.... he didnt get to bed until 10:15, because i was compensating for the hour nap he had... never would have gotten him down before 10. so then i puttered around the kitchen, tidying up (never got to the bathroom), when a heavy patter of BOOMS came down the hallway. poor monster was afraid. so effie went in and slept beside him on the body pillow, him on the bed. then i had to crawl into the too-small bed so he would stay IN the bed.

but then i rolled off and just held his hand. all i remember now is waking up to teresa talking to me in a strange alien language. i hissed and pawed at my eyes cos of the light for a few minutes but i got over it. then i drank my warm orange juice that had been going warm for over an hour. and hung out for some giggles.

So here i am now. i'm tired and ready for bed. tomorrow i have to cook burgers for some gathering and then i go over at 3 to keep alex entertained again. sunday i will probably sleep and call a rain check for Very Shari.

maybe do a bit of driving in my fathers work-parking lot. its huge with little side roads. so i can practice driving a standard and learn some parallel parking. if i'm good enough i'll prolly drive home.

 

I went driving on tuesday. I did really good. my instructor was impressed. first time EVAR. i turned into a leadfoot once i got the hang of the car. I didnt want to go below 80 kmh :(

But i drove on backroads to belleville (15 mins away by highway, 30 by backroads) and then drove all around belleville and then ended up driving home. i even tackled a very hard curve that my teacher didnt know about. i just said "oh this is a v. bad curve" as i prepared to turn for it hahahahaha.

but thats pretty significant. That was a 2 hour driving session. not bad if i say so myself, for a newbie. 2 hrs does anyone in but the stress was harder on me being it was my first time.

All it felt like was as if i was in a game on the computer. it was surreal.

 

The world is perfect today. through tears and smiles, everything was perfect. always is. but i was ONE with this perfection today. I'm so happy. even when i got grumpy i was still content.

 

I'm amazed at whats happening to me, the innate calm that just overtakes. the person who's stepping up every morning called Stephanie is slightly different than the girl the day before, and significantly different from the girl who cried herself to sleep most nights 2 months ago or the stressed one a month ago. its wonderful. I DESIRE that we all feel this. I Desire that everyone has a chance at these feelings, of these amazement. that the only reason i'm different is because of affirmations. of goals.

 

"I will only speak the truth. i will not lie or use unneccessary words. When i do, it will be well-known those words hold no truth. I am healthy, I am happy. I am perfect."

 

Just those changed everything. there was so much attatched to those words, many ideas under them.

Watching my thoughts and actions, asking if they serve my will.... that took a good 9 months to completely change. the whole change took 9 months, but once you get so many steps ahead, you learn to.....

FLY.

So then, those "in the know" will know that yesterday, I was in London with Mena. And it ROCKED!!!!!!! ^_^

Yeah, I bought a few things, as you do when you're shopping, but the best part of it was just hanging out with Mena all day. Unlike when we were in Nottingham together, it actually felt as if we spent a lot of time together. I met up with her at 12, and didn't leave until half 6, so we did get quite a while together.

Anyways, I'm not gonna get into what I bought, it's irrelevant (though I did get a couple of nice shirts...), what I really wanted to muse on was the journey home.

Around the Biggleswade area (no, I don't know where it is either, but I'll hazard a guess at Bedfordshire), some prat decided to jump in front of the train. And we hit him/her, obviously. Now you've gotta go through a set procedure, of course you do, but it just annoyed me that, of all the trains he chose, it was mine, but what can ya do? S/he wanted to kill themselves. It's kinda sad that they felt that way, but again, what can ya do?

At first though, I thought we'd just hit some rocks. I was sure I heard another train beside us, so I thought the noise at the time was just some loose rocks it was kicking up. However, I now know that it was actually the train cracking, splintering, smashing and breaking the bones of the body it was going over. Nice to know, isn't it?

I ended up getting delayed by 2 hours. It's not comforting at all, really. OK, so it could've been much later (like the people who were going the whole hog from London to Newcastle. The train was expected to arrive there at half 9. When I got off at Grantham at 9:40, the estimated time for arrival at Newcastle was 11:48, though I doubt they kept to that), but I'm just glad that I did get home at the time I did. And it didn't really spoil my day either, was just a mild bad spot on an otherwise perfect day.

And so the countdown begins again. In 6 days, Mena comes to Grantham to visit me. It's our 6 month anniversary, and I'm spending it with my baby, w00t! :D

In closing, there are two songs that kinda fit how yesterday went: Green Day's Good Riddance, and Feeder's My Perfect Day.

Till tomorrow
-=Gav=-