People Ruin Things @ MindSay

it's been so long since i've logged in.
and it's strange, reading all these things.
stephanie asked me about our other journals,
and i remembered this one instantly.
really weird.
i don't understand.
hmm.
lately i've been making blog accounts left & right.
hoping to encourage myself to write more.
sometimes i feel like i can't write certain things because certain people might read them.
sometimes i wish the people that i was hiding my writing from would read them the most.
sometimes i even wish i weren't wasting my time with an online blog,
and would start writing in my regular journal like i used to.
i do miss that journal.
there was so much soul in it.
i want to make another, with just as much, if not more, soul.
but how?
sometimes i don't think i am half as quirky and weird as i used to be.
sometimes that really bothers me.
sometimes i feel that i have to be one or the other.
weird or funny.
quirky or...reachable? communicative? normal? relative?
i am not sure.
the suggested tags for this are hilarious.
i'm going to use them.
whatevs.
sometimes i want to just sink back into language,
but i just can't find the motivation.
i'm starting to wonder if it's because i don't have any inner turmoil anymore.
or maybe it's just because i don't want you to know that i do.
let's be honest, i can't say anything i want anymore.
my words actually hold weight against a few people.
i don't want to hurt anyone.
so i can't say a thing.
i can't write you anything.

Stupid people piss me off, as any of my friend will tell you. I don't mean that they get me a little agitated and I seem a little less friendly for a little while, I mean a good solid idiot-encounter can ruin an otherwise fine day. I know, it seems ignorant/mean/whatever of me to say these things, but it's true, and if I value anything, it's the truth. From the highest echelons of government bureaucracy to grocery store clerks and school teachers.

Heres a prime example of stupidity on a massive scale that simply proves my point, so I believe. Two years ago, I was in summer school (some of you may hear the word hypocrite floating through your brain, but I originally failed due to a reason not dissimilar to the situation I'm about to describe), for computers of all things. Within my school district file, I already had a big red post-it (literally) that said "Be careful with computers", with good reason; I'm a bit of a geek, with the usual geek intelligence and love of pranks.

It was week two, about halfway through the week, when I met another kid in the class who seemed to be at least intelligent enough to have some fun with. After playing a few machine-based pranks on him, he went home and learned some of his own, and used them against me. At this point in time, I didn't understand about escalation and the such (well, I did, but I hadn't take it into account), so this kept up until he finally dropped the network to it's knees. The school techs had no way of fixing it, but they determined that suspicious activity had been generating from our computers and we were both promptly hauled before the principle. Sadly for the other kid, he had evidence on his person that proved he did it, and I went back to class.

Here's the kicker: as I'm in the process of fixing the system, I'm called back and told the other kid ratted on me that I broke it. The one with the evidence on his person, in his handwriting, with every log pointing to his machine, "ratted out" me out. Love the logic, eh? When I challenge the principle's thought process, I got a simple "because I say so, and you shouldn't question it", but my mother (when called to be informed of my 'crime') also asked, and after pushing, got told that I intruded on the network (a detention, not a drop-F), which she in turn challenged, and was told that I (and now, I'm quoting) was " too advanced in the subject for any one teacher to be able to effectively monitor [me], even if they were assigned to watch just [me]."

That's right kids. I took the same class 3 times, because I was too advanced for the teachers. Stunning ain't it?

Anyway, I love that story, its one of those times that ultimately proved that I am the genius that so many people so wrongly believe is mere ego. On to my next topic though. More stupid people and computer things.

The people out there who claim to be "geeks" or (proudly and sadly) "nerds", while actually lacking any geek-like trait of talent, they piss me off beyond a shadow of a doubt. Do you know what Assembly, FORTRAN, and C are? Have you ever played a PnP RPG? Do you still watch cartoons and pirate old t.v. shows because they are funnier than the crap on today? Have you ever said the words "That looks good enough that I might buy it instead of pirating it..."? If not, you aren't making a strong case.

I was talking to my girlfriend today and heard one of her friends, who - by the snippets I'd heard up till then - regarded himself to be a tre posh geek (geeks are never posh, it's why we're geeks. we can be loved and adored, but we are not cool) actually said "my network connection is like 100 megabytes per second and I still download stuff at around a meg..." In that moment, I've never wanted more to have a law that requires a licensing process for computer use. Digressing though - the geek rant shall come later.

Our video-game is making absolutely great progress... that is to say that I've not heard from any of my development team in about a week or so, and I'm hating the DirectX crap I'm having to learn for it, but it's getting done. We have our main character and the world on the grow, as well as a pretty solid idea for the game story flow. Right now, I'm outlining the missions (looking to be 12), and then I'll be on to customizations I guess.

~Mr. Mobius

"I swear to god chachi, call me Morpheus again, and I'm going to bean you with a server! It's Mobius! Moe-bee-us."

i need to learn how to be more confrontational.
and how to not be afraid to argue with someone and say mean things and have mean things said to me.
i need to learn how to really stick up for what i believe in when it comes to talking about people.
and how to not make myself look or feel stupid in the process.

i'm sorry, Caesey.
i feel like shit now.
i should've said something. i know it.

i'm sorry.

I have decided that I'm not going to let the rejection we received to let us down. I am not going to let one person's opinion ruin the wonderful time I had on this recent trip.

I met some of the most amazing, caring and awesome people. I am truly blessed. They were loving, honest and truest people I have been charmed to know. Thank you to my family and those I consider family as well. This includes Fairydustings, Readbooks, Ukonzukai (and hubby), Jewfroart & Bovisrex.

One bad experience cannot take away the awesomeness of those I care about. Thank you soo much for being there for me!!! Thank you soo much for your hospitality.

YOU GUYS ROCK!!!!!! I will try to go through my pictures tonight when we get home. I hope to post them soon.

Sorry for being all emo previously. *HUGS TO YOU ALL*

i didnt get tagged but i am gonna do it any ways

 

Instructions:

Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about you (him/herself?). People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog. No tagbacks

 

6 Weird Things About Me

 

1. I am almost 20 and I laugh when I hear people fart, burp, talking about farting and burping and more than likely I am one of those people talking about that stuff.

 

2.  I still have my Penny and I got it when I was 3. (penny is my doll)

 

3. I have a mild form of OCD and I have ADHD. Its a wondeful combo

 

4. I like to watch cartoons still like scooby doo the snorks the smurfs old stuff and sometimes other things like blues clues the one with steve and i always try to watch sesame street.

 

5. im allergic to almost everything seriously. Like cats, dogs if they have long hair, peanuts and all nuts, fruits with skin like apples and peaches but i can eat pears weird, trees, grass espcially when its fresh cut, dairy, i cant think of anything more. But i still drink milk and fruit with skin and I still go outside I just suffer later.

 

6. I hate airplanes. I have hated them since I was a little kid. Its not because of being hijacked by terrorists I just dont like airplanes I like freak out when I get in.  But I am not scared of hieghts cuz I love roller coasters especially the ones that go like straight down almost and I want to bungee jump and skydive.  And I LOVE copters.

 

 

so I am gonna tag all of my friends on my friends list so if you read this and your my friend you ahve to do it.