People I Love @ MindSay

I'm not even sure I posted twice in the month of APRIL, and now I'm going to post twice in ...two days?!?!  Whoa guy!  Who am I?
I guess that's the power of much-needed, well-spent vacations with the people you love the best.

Some highlights of my weekend in NY:

The concert.  DUH.
Eating breakfast at VENUS diner (West Hempstead staple) with Erica on Saturday.
Seeing Peter Naas on the subway platform.  I got to know Peter very well over the last 3 years of college because he went to high school with Ellen and Jess.  But for the rest of my life, he will ALWAYS be that random boy who was in my room drunk one afternoon (thanks for inviting people we didn't know over and letting them sit on our beds, Meri!) 'for the first time' and found everything HILARIOUS.  Even if he goes on to be a world-class director, like his dream, he will always be that boy.
Brooklyn pizza.  Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Dinner in Long Beach with Lisa, Nicole, Nora, Kristina, Penny, Lindsay, and they're friend Becca.  A little expensive, but... I'm sorry, I LOVE people I went to HS with.  I do.  There are so few people I can think of a single negative thing to say about...and I like that.  It was loud and I didn't get to talk to most of them much, but just being at the same table with these girls...completely worth it.
We got back to Lisa's around 11:30, and I was exhausted, but I was like 'uh, wanna go to The Brew and see if Matt is working tonight?' and she said, 'let's call him instead of walking there' and he picked up (Matt having a cell phone is STILL SO WEIRD for me).  And he was NOT working, but was instead heading over to Croxley Ales with...Jeff Meyer.  So we went and hung out until 2 something.  The bartender was not very pleased I didn't have anything to drink, but I really don't care.
Sad news = I now know it could NEVER work out between Jeff and I.  He's still as good looking and weird as ever, but we had a conversation and it was an insurmountable difference.  This is RIDICULOUS to write, but you know how a little bit ago I wrote, 'there are so few people I can think of a single negative thing to say about'?  Yeah; there is definitely one boy who I can.  His name is Rob N. - everyone calls him Chestnut (not in the mood to explain that story).  Well, Chestnut used to pick on me mercilessly when I was in 9th grade.  Everyone else had their fun in 6th grade, but grew out of it.  Chestnut... Chestnut used to push me into walls, throw crayons at me across the room in our Biology class, and one time squirted me in the face with Hydrochloric Acid. I honestly think if I saw him laying on the floor bleeding I would stomp on him rather than call 911 to get him help.
Anyway, Jeff said something about Joe N., and how they don't get along, and I said that the whole family sucked (and I feel bad, but Daniela isn't any better than her brothers), and he said, "Actually, Joe's brother, Rob, is a really good friend of mine.  We hang out all the time".  And so, my 9th grade crush is OFFICIALLY ended.  Dang :)
Getting breakfast in Queens w/ Jess and Kim.  They made me a 'bubble tea' out of actual water melon, and it was sooo tasty!  They also plotted and kicked other customers out so the 3 of us could sit.  Kim and Jess have been friends since middle school, and I was always secretly a little jealous of when Kim would come over to hang out because they went back so much further than we did, but at breakfast ... it wasn't like that.  It was like Jess and I knew each other better than Kim did.  Apparently, Kim doesn't know Jess' mom at all.  We sat around talking about a lot of roommate stuff, and the time I went to her house in Queens the day she was flying to London for the semester, and we were eating lunch and she said, "maybe I should pack later" and how I packed both her suitcases for her.  I love my roommate.
Jess told a story about how Frank is back to being...Frank.  He was normal for almost 2 months this time, but then went back into crazy stalker mode.  To the point she called once to get him to fix the DVR, and he said, "okay, I'm locked in my bathroom right now, but as soon as I get out...." .  I know you don't know Frank (hell, I don't know him completely), but him being so mad that he slammed the door and the knob fell off... I can see it happen and laughed so hard at this bakery I cried.

I know there's more, but... I can't get there.  I needed this weekend. I needed to stay up until 3 and laugh loudly and be silly and hug people I love and hear the sounds of the city (and my island).  I'm already planning my next trip back, and wishing it was going to be permanent.

I've just been busy and odd enough my lack of posts are from not from a lack of wanting to post but more of a falter on my end. I think if I make a new years resolution I think I will try to get back into the habit of posting every day. I think I posted every day my first year here; now it's my fifth year being here.

For Pushing Daisies fans a link. Let's hope it comes to fruition.

I've signed the petition that is online to Save Pushing Daisies. Though if you really want to make a difference make sure you write to them. Here is where you can find the info to do so if you are so inclined.

I have a bunch of pictures to still post and even more to go through. Haha. So for now here is an Alphabetical survey I filled out.

A

- Available: Nopers.
- Age: 31
- Annoyance: When people pace when they are on the phone. Smokers tossing their cigarettes out the window. People who are racists or unable to be tolerant.
- Animal: Corvids, snake & cephalopods.
- Actor: Alan Rickman, Tim Curry & a select few others.

B

- Beer: Unfortunately I cannot drink it. It makes me instantly sick. The only one that doesn't irritate my tummy as much is Corona. Though, honestly, I'm not fond of the taste unless it's used in cooking.
- Birthday/Birthplace: Dec 21st. Frankfurt Germany.
- Best Friends: A small select few who know who they are. :D
- Body Part on opposite sex: Depends. I'm a sucker for fetching eyes & skinny ones(not too skinny though).
- Best feeling in the world: Dancing and singing while feeling sucked into the song. Love from those you also love. That moment when looking into your partners eyes and you feel the jolt run through your soul reminding how much you love them.
- Blind or Deaf: I couldn't imagine losing music but I would rather be able to see.
- Been in Love: Uhuh.
- Been bitched out: A few times.
- Been on stage?: Uhuh.
- Been beaten up?: No
- Believe in yourself?: For the most part.
- Believe in life on other planets: Yes.
- Believe in miracles: Yes indeedy.
- Believe in magic: Totally. It's just not Harry Potter-esque.
- Believe in God: Yes but which ones? :)
- Believe in Satan: Yes but not in the form most people believe. ;)
- Believe in Santa: Yes as the spirit of christmas. We carry that spirit with us when we are truly generous.
- Believe in ghosts/spirits: Most definitely.


C

- Car: My Honda Cr-V "Servo". :D
- Color: Orange, Red, black & purple.
- Cried in school: Oh yes.
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate
- Chinese/Mexican: Both equally. I love food.
- Cake or pie: Both again!
- Country to visit: The whole world. :D I want to travel every where I can.
- Comedian: Um...George Carlin.

D

- Day or Night: Night. Especially summer nights with a soft breeze foretelling the coming of a storm.
- Dream vehicle: An orange Datsun 240/260/280Z (late70s early 80s), a 1963 Cadillac El Dorado & an old Caddy Hearse/ambulance.
- Danced: I'd love to!
- Dance in the rain?: YES!!!

E

- Eggs: Prepared any way! Yum!
- Eyes: Blue-grey.
- Everyone has: loved in one way or another.
- Ever failed a class?: No.
- First thoughts waking up: What time is it?
- Food: Yes please. :D

G

- Greatest Fear: Letting down the ones I love.
- Goals: Travel, become a better person, become better at the arts, learn the violin & other languages.
- Gum: Grape.
- Get along with your parents?: Yes. :)
- Good luck charm: Me! I'm a lucky person in general.

H

- Hair Color: Long, black with red highlights in my bangs.
- Height: 5'8"
- Happy: In general yes. I do have bouts of times where things get to me.
- Holiday: Halloween. .
- How do you want to die: Hopefully not seeing it coming.
- Health Freak: I love eating healthy and feeling healthy.
- Hate: I don't think I really hate but I have a strong dislike for things.
- Heart Broken/when/who?: Nope.

I

- Ice Cream: Gelato please! (mocha with chocolate chips)
- Instrument: Violin & the Harpsichord (Though I do like the ehru.)

J

- Jewelry: Silver rings with onyx. I love my thumbring that I haven't been taking off. It's a silver tree. I have quite a few jewelry pieces I love including many necklaces.

K

- Kids: I have Savannah. :D
- Keep a journal?: This would be my closest thing to a diary.

L

- Love: Being Love, animals, nature, family, art and living!
- Laughed so hard you cried: Just recently I was on the phone recanting a story to Josh about something Savannah told me. Previously when Savannah told me I ended up laughing so hard I peed my pants.
- Love at first sight: Yeah.

LAST PERSON WHO...

1. Slept in a bed beside you?: Josh & Gigi(kitty)
2. Saw you cry?: Josh
3. Went to the movies with you?: Josh & Savannah
4. You went to the mall with?: Nahdene
5. You went to dinner with?: Josh, Julie, Krystal, sis #1 & Savannah.
6. You talked to on the phone?: Josh.
7. Made you laugh?: Savannah
8. Made you cry?: Myself
9. Broke your heart?: No one.
10 You vented to about a girl?: Nahdene

M

- Milk flavor: Chocolate/strawberry/soy/rice
- Movie: Ummmm. Clue, Kiki's Delivery, and too many others.
- Mooned anyone?: Yes indeed!
- Marriage?: Yes
- Motion sickness?: Sometimes but some video games set me off badly.

N

- Number of Siblings: 3 sisters and 3 brothers.
- Number of Piercings: 4
- Number: repeating numbers like 444.

O

- Overused Phrases: Profanities.
- Odd phobia: Driving my car off a tall bridge into a deep river when I have Savannah in the car.

P

- Place you'd like to live: Somewhere where I have a good amount of land with lots of trees and a spring.
- Pizza: Veggie, chicken & Greek
- Pepsi/Coke: Um, coke I suppose. (cherry coke!)
- Person you miss: A few people that have passed. Some people in my past.

Q
- Quail: Are cute! I remember seeing them when we lived one summer in the sequoia national forest.
- Quiet music or loud: A little of both.

R

- Reason to cry: Being hurt physically or emotionally. Happiness.
- Reality T.V: No thank you.
- Radio Station: I don't really listen to the radio. Sometimes I turn on my internet radio.
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: Yup. I can also flip my tongue both ways.

S
- Song: Too many! I love so many!
- Shoe size: 8 1/2 - 9s.
- Salad Dressing: French or Honey Mustard.
- Sushi: Oh I love sushi!!
- Skipped class: Nope.
- Slept outside: I love it!
- Seen a dead body?: At a funeral.
- Smoked?: Tried it but didn't like it.
- Skinny dipped?: I want to.
- Shower daily?: Try to but I love baths.
- Sing well?: I don't know but I like to think I do.
- In the shower?: Yes!!
- Swear?: Very rarely.
- Stuffed Animals?: :D I do like em!
- Single/Group dates: Doesn't matter to me.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: BOTH!!!
- Scientists need to invent: More cures.
- Sport: I used to play soccer a million ages ago. Though I prefer archery.

T

- Time for bed: Any time I go to bed.
- Thunderstorms: I love them!
- TV: Rarely but mostly watch them on the computer. I have a few shows I'm loyal to.
- Touch your tongue to your nose?: I wish I could but I cannot.

U

- Unpredictable: Yeah.
- Used to play: Um...trumpet poorly. Haha!

V

- Vegetable you hate: Fresh green beans. (OD'd as a kid)
- Vegetable you love: Almost all vegs!
- Vacation spot: Somewhere warm.
- Virgin?: Hahahahahah... um.. no.

W

- Weakness: I'm very trusting and open.
- When you grow up: I don't think I'll grow up.
- Which one of your friends knows the most about you: A small few. :D
- Who makes you laugh the most: Savannah & Josh. My bros do well too!
- Want to be a model?: I almost was.
- Where do we go when we die: I believe we have a choice.
- Weather: Warm, cloudy, raining...

X

- X-Rays: A couple of times. Mostly when I visit the dentist.

Y

- Year it is now: 2009
- Yellow: banana

Z

- Zoo animal: Tigers
- Zodiac sign: Sagittarian.





Oh, and I did finish a drawn MEME. Let me know what you think.


Character Obsession Meme WOO by *ForeverKnight on deviantART

Borrowed from shadeofgray

 1. The name on license is not the name I was born with.

 2. I have been held at gun point twice

 3. Enjoy movies with sub titles

 4. I have not kissed or held hands with a man in more than 2 years

 5. I can feel spirits (no I don't see dead people nor do I talk to anyone outside of the here and now)

 6. I feel like I have been here befoe

 7. I have felt alone the majority of my life

 8. I love the color red

 9. I have given up more times than I can count

10. Simple things make me both cry and laugh

11. I have thought about ending my hurts

12. I love people

13. Force myslef to smile under pressure

14. Afraid of heights

15. Have been molested

16. I love to eat crabs

I just spent 18 glorious minutes on the phone with Eric.   And I just realized, he called on the 1-week anniversary of Amanda calling and making me smile.  And Jill's texting me about coming down to NY anyway to go to her and Manny's party.  Aww.  I love my friends.


Right, Eric.  I was thinking about him recently.  And when I got my phone in September, the numbers didnt' transfer themselves over, so I used to have 300 + people in there, but now it's at around 85.  Somehow, Eric wasn't one of those people. But I saw the (718) 938, and... that's my Eric.  And he was calling me.

And I love him so damn much.

I love him.  And we talked about work and debt and applications for my rich husband and him maybe going to  STERN, and when my student was asked to name a state and he picked Wyoming and how I told them the story about my crazy friend who didn't believe Wyoming was a state. 

Now I miss him more, though.

Prom dates RULE <33

Do I like him again?  No, we're 6 years beyond that, but I most definitely love him (is that apparent yet?).

Remember that time I promised to post things of substance?

Hi everybody,

 

Here's my second blog ever and the reason i write this is because i'm truly fascinated by the culture these days. The macho culture to be specific. The beer drinking, sports loving, girl demeaning, fighting world of a man.

 

Here's my problem, i sometimes feel terribly misplaced when i go out with some of my friends, or when i am at work. Here's why, if i go out to a bar there are only a few things where men think about: Girls, Beer and fights. Ofcourse there are exceptions sometimes they talk about sports.

 

Don't get me wrong i like girls, i like beer but it feels like a mask people put up to not have be thereselves but they choose to live like te stereotype, at least that's in public. Why can't a guy just sit a bar and talk about love, love is what the world is about. It is the most desirable thing out there. But for some strange reason it's almost like a taboo. Or if you do speak about it it makes you look weak or they think you're gay.

 

For instance when i comes to movies. All the guys i know like action movies or comedies, but when i sugest a truly beautifull film, like Good Will Hunting, and i explain what it's about i get laughed at. I think movies like The Notebook are the most beautifull films out there, the capture the essence of life so great, love, romance, hapiness these are things that are portrayed in the most amazing way in this movie but a lot of men say it's gay or for women. But i am gay or a softy because i can honestly enjoy the beauty of love? And please tell what is wrong with a cliche end of a film. What's wrong with a happy ending?

 

Personally i can get really happy when is see love or feel the realness. Most people, as far as i know, tear up and cry when they listen to songs like Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah, or Ray Lamontagne's Shelter. It's makes me smile because it means that there are men and people who still dare to express there inner feelings without caring what anybody thinks. What's better than sitting on a beach at night by a fire with someone you love? Well being a man i should have answered, drinking all day and going to a football match. Well for me it isn't but does this take away my manlyhood? Everybody wants love, so should you pass up on it just to be a man?

 

Because when i think about it, even the most macho men must have a soft side. Some of them are married, no woman could stand a man who never shows a soft side, not even in the bedroom. So it comes across like some men have double personalities. For me it's different i used to try and act differently, that was all because i was insecure if my mates would like me the way i am. But after travelling the world and getting multiple options to portay my character in different ways i found out that nearly every man is alike when i comes to love. Some act tougher than others but all crave the same thing, love.

 

So maybe not everybody shows it as much as they like. For the men who read this i hope you can say fuck the rest, this is me. And if you already have, Congratulations. And i sugest you listen to: Ray Lamontagne, Damien Rice, Ali Farka Toure, Jeff Buckley, Elliot Smith, Amos Lee, Fink, Aretha Franklin, ect for a change. Just give it a try. Or watch: Good Will Hunting, Leaving Las Vegas, Pay it Forward, The Notebook, Casablanca, Notting Hill.

 

With all these things please try to be openminded and appreciate the honesty, beauty and love int it. Because that's what's life is al about in the end.

 

Simmovic

 

P.s. Please mind my spelling and grammar, i'm dutch so i do my best. And leave a comment what you thought about the blog.