Man things have been going so bad lately.
Life sucks so goddamn much.

First there was my mom dying.
That sent me into a depression spiral for at least four months.
Honestly I would've killed myself if i hadn't found the inspirational stories of endearment on this site.

And then i ran away from home.
Gosh that was a good idea. Nobody in my house understood me. Why the hell should I stick around anyway?!

Things were rough out there for a while.
I spent a couple of months out in the rain and came down with pneumonia.
They had to do emergency testicular surgery on me because some sort of infection spread to them.
The right ones ok though.
I don't even feel like a man anymore.
Was I ever a man?
After I got out of the hospital my aunt finally decided let me stay with her.
But shes a bitch.

They think that I'm gay just because they caught me in bed with another guy in our boxers before.
But we had just had a water fight and fell asleep on the bed.
We didn't want to soak through my covers so we had to take off our clothes.
And when i sleep i have to hug something and he was just there.
I didnt MEAN to do it, but yea....that makes me gay....god.

Then they started making up shit about how i have gay porn on my computer.
I DONT look at gay porn anymore,
That was just a phase,
My bastard uncle probably was jacking off to it and saved it in my settings or some shit,
Because he hates me,
I know because the other day when he walked in, and I said hi,
He didnt even say anything to me.
I mean, when I say hi to someone, they usually respond,
Unless they HATE YOU!!!!

And my cousin is such a bitch too.
She's always lording her boyfriend with the beautiful eyes over me.
Like yea, i can't get with anything.
She would be pretty hot too.
She would make an awesome girlfriend.
Does that make me awful?
Shes like a second cousin I think.....so that makes it ok right?

My girlfriend of 6 months broke up with me too with a restraining order.
She said no more hiding outside her house, or in her room,
And no more sending her vials of my own blood,
I can't send pictures of my penis anymore,
Or call her house and just breathe.
Her name was Sammy, but people call him Sam.

But its ok, im just glad to be alive.
Its so awesome, I just glory in the fact that I'm allowed to spend another moment on god's beautiful earth.

PS...my balls still hurt.
PPS...to any good looking guys out there my email is sfano345@aim.com
PPPS...my dad used to molest me in a spiderman costume and claimed that he got his powers from me and if he didnt do it then he would lose his powers and would never be able to save the day again.

I know this is rather unbelievable, but honestly, could I make this all up?

I have to say, I have always been sort of an ass, people seemed to always look up to me and seemed to expect me to lead and make all the decisions etc. I think I started taking a lot of the people in my life for granted. Relationships came easy, and went easy. I felt like no one I knew was as smart as me.

 

Now, I find I am not getting much attention from anyone anymore, guess I am getting what I deserved. No one is calling, people are avoiding me. I guess, I don't care, maybe it just means it is time from me to move on, move somewhere else and start another life, I am not sure.

 

I don't want any sympathy, I know what I have to do, just have to not be obnoxious and self-centered anymore.  I just felt like I needed to come clean, that is all.

Is there anyone out there?

hi my name is jason and i am from oakland,california and am a 41 year old black man. my main goal is to start a business to acheive financial freedom. right now i am working on a job that i really don't like and want to get out of as fast as i can. i would like to meet other likeminded people who have the same desire as i do to start a business by working together whether it is in real estate or perhaps a clothing business. those are the business i would love to get into and i need help by other people who have a great business mind that i can learn from or learn together.if anybody is out there that is the kind of person i would like to meet you can e-mail me here at jsnjason4u@mindsay.com. thanks so much

Meet James a boy with CF. This is the medication he takes each day to stay well.

 

What is Cystic Fibrosis?

 

Cystic fibrosis (CF), also called Mucoviscidosis, is a hereditary disease that affects the entire body, causing progressive disability and early death. Formerly known as cystic fibrosis of the pancreas, this entity has increasingly been termed simply 'cystic fibrosis.’

 

Difficulty breathing and insufficient enzyme production in the pancreas are the most common symptoms. Thick mucous production, as well as a low immune system, results in frequent lung infections, which are treated, though not always cured, by oral and intravenous antibiotics, inhalation of mucolytics and hypertonic saline solution, chest physiotherapy and daily exercise. It is vital for CF patients who are pancreatic deficient to use sufficient pancreatic enzymes with every meal and to consume high caloric nutritional foods. A multitude of other symptoms, including sinus infections, poor growth, diarrhea, and potential infertility (mostly in males) result from the effects of CF on other parts of the body.

 

1 in 2500 children is born with cystic fibrosis, and it is one of the most common fatal inherited diseases. It is most prevalent among Europeans and Ashkenazi Jews; one in twenty-two people of European descent carry one gene for CF, making it the most common recessive genetic disease among them. Individuals with cystic fibrosis can be diagnosed prior to birth by genetic testing or in early childhood by a sweat test. There is no cure for CF, and most individuals with cystic fibrosis die young — many in their 20s and 30s from lung failure although with many new treatments being introduced the life expectancy for people with CF are increasing. Ultimately, lung transplantation is often necessary as CF worsens.

 

While the earliest clear medical descriptions date from the 1930’s, CF obviously existed prior to this date but was un-recognized. Its clinical characteristics individually resemble those of other diseases such as pneumonia, bronchiectasis, failure to thrive, and celiac disease. Indeed, where these conditions are prevalent CF may still lie un-recognized. Moreover, if clinicians believe that CF is absent from their population they will not consider it in a differential diagnosis. A better awareness of and the increasing availability of diagnostic tests- the sweat test and/or DNA tests – frequently leads to the identification of a higher number of affected individuals.

In the last two decades, CF has been increasingly diagnosed in Latin America, the Middle East, and populations derived from the Indian subcontinent that have emigrated to Western Europe, thus implying the presence of CF in significant numbers among the citizens of India and Pakistan who have remained in their homeland.

 

CF is a multi-organ disease and children with CF need multidisciplinary team care in CF centres regularly.  This multidisciplinary team should consist of a CF Nurse, Paediatric Pulmonologists, Pulmonologists, Gastroenterologist/Nutritionist, Nurse, Physiotherapist, Microbiologist and Psychologist/Social worker who have been trained in the specific needs of patient care. Daily home care that requires both parent and patient participation is also needed to ensure the patients experience a better quality of life and life expectancy.