OH MY FUCKING GOSH!! I just found out tonight that we have a peeping tom in my neighborhood! That scares the hell outta me....he's been caught twice in the past week in my neighborhood. That's just nasty!!
Okay now, off of that subject--tonight was the opening night for the hockey season. I was so excited. But I had confermation so I missed almost all of the first two periods...but I got to watch the third period....and we won 6-3. Which is a good thing. Oh wow at one time in the game, we were only ahead by one goal and the other team almost scored and my heart was beating soo fast but they didn't and it was fine. But one of our guys (Zumic), got hurt. That sucks. We'll do okay though.
I think I'm feeling better about myself than I was before. I had a fever when I came home from confermation which isn't a good sign, but oh well. And I guess we all have our "fat days" but I'm so sick of feeling that way--it's been going on like that for like--4 days now. I'm tired of it.
I think I might give up on me ever having a chance with Eric....after that conversation, it kind of brought me down but that's okay. Maybe he was just lying. Maybe he was telling the truth. I don't know. I just don't want to ruin the friendship we have, and I don't want to get hurt by any more guys...even if they don't know they're hurting me. I'm sick of the pain and torture, and I don't want to deal with the pain that still lingers from Alan, but with a different person....not this time.
So what did you think of my poem that I posted in the entry before this one?????
~G'nite~
Nicole Lyn
