Peace Corps @ MindSay

hello, yes, me again. im crazy. this is the second time ive posted here and already got like 5 comments on my first blog. do you think its possible to be born naturally depressed? i think i was. im sure it doesnt help i was born on the gemini/cancer cusp either. my emotions right now are just fucking amazingly going insane. its like PMSing xs10. i cant keep my mind on one thing or person at a time...no its not ADD. i cant decide which person to be with...maybe im just dumb. sometimes, im so tired i begin to hallucinate, or so much energy i feel like beating the shit out of someone. maybe i just need to get out. not out of my house, but out of this state or country...i want to join the peace corps. i think that might make me normal again. i was never normal to begin with, so nm on that one. but if i stay here, i might as well commit suicide. this place(ft. wayne IN) sucks. horribly. i need so badly to leave this place. i dont even care where i go, just not here. preferably id like to be on a deserted island. alone. naked. and a bottle of rum. (rum only sounds god because obviously on MY island there will be coconuts and pineapple. i dont think vodka goes with those two. hmmm, i want to meet new ppl. tired of the same old bullshit with the same old ppl, who just dont understand a thing about life. not saying im an intellectual who knows all, but some ppl just are more crazy than me. ok. off to work for now. i can vent there.