Pay Back Time @ MindSay 
I'm almost ashamed to admit it, but ... sometimes I get overwhelmed. Any of you who have been here for some time may have seen evidence of this in the past. Like many people, I go along for weeks, sometimes months on a relatively even temper ... then the bottom drops out (or appears to). In actuality, it is usually that I'm just tired.
Well ... I've made it to finals week. Papers are all done and turned in ... The one class I do not have a final, I ended with a 109% 
. That was dramatic lit - the class for which I used the info about gender roles. Anyway ... classes are fine. All my profs what me to use them for references! HAH!
Which brings me to the overwhelmed part ... as always ... MONEY! (I thank God daily, believe me, that our "issue" is not health, or addiction, or any of the other horrible difficulties some of you deal with) Nevertheless, it is exhausting to live constantly from shut-off notice to shut-off notice.
This week, I was stressing about how to pay our auto insurance. Even with the help of my son and daughter, we couldn't scrape up enough. We were $16 short. (Now, I know some of you deal in the thousands or more, but the principles are the same regardless of the number of zero's.) Last night, while at work (delivering pizzas!), I kinda broke down ... crying in frustration. We lived for 3 years without a car and that is horrible where we live. It's more than a mile to any bus line. Anyway, to try to make a longer story shorter ... (HA!) When I got home from work, I decided it must be time to count the change jar. I started it when I started deliveding pizzas in August. Every night, I threw my change in there ... all of it. So, I counted it ... most of it. Without the pennies, there was over $26. This morning I received an unexpected check from the county for $20 ... AND a letter from the insurance I was struggling to pay. They re-figured our payments! It not only went down, but it doesn't have to be there till 12-22!
I don't know why I doubt. Never, ever, ever, ever has the bottom actually fallen through ... it only looks like it will ... but then (in my understanding) God comes through ... somehow. I wonder how many others, particularly single/divorced women struggle alone ...
Since we are officially in the "holiday" season, I encourage you blessed Mindayers to be mindful of those with less. It is a hard time to be alone with traditional thoughts of family et al. It's a hard time for those who have lost loved ones recently (whatever recently means). It is also a difficult time to struggle financially. Kids are kids and want ... holiday gifts. It's natural. Help if you can ... :)
~ B
Hey people how was turkey day for you guys. I had to work that day didnt get off till 12:30 in the morning. it was okay though it was all over time and holiday pay. I had alot of problems this month. my mom ended up in the hospital because she was having chest pains. Turns out that she had a minor heart attack and a stroke. She was also told that if she doesnt slow down and lessen her stress this may be her last christmas with us. We are trying are hardest to keep her calm. I also buoght a car, a 2007 ford focus, I had to make a down payment of 1,853.00 by the 24th of November and I didnt have that money. I did end up paying 1,000 toward it but I had to ask for an addvance on my next pay check so that I could pay the rest. They changed the due date to the 1st and I hope to GOD that I have the money for it and for the car insurance which is 1,017.00 for December and my first car payment is due the 1st and thats another 260.00 I dont have. I will be so happy once December is over with. I think I was my fault that my mother was in the hospital with all my problems. She also just bought a truck around the same time I did. She still owes 2,000 to the guy she bought it from and 2,000 to the guy she borrowed money from. I barley make 800.00 every two weeks I dont know how we are going to do this. Man I just remebered I have to pay my orthodontis too by the 28th of this month. Man if I survive this year it will be a miracle. The stress my kill me before it kills my mother. I have started working over time just to get some more money. Co-workers think im sucking up to the management but I just really need the money. I really think I may die before my birthday. Which is the 23rd of December. I really need someone to pray for my family and myself.
On other news my father is still without work and is drinking more and more. I got pulled over again last night we didnt get home till 4:30 in the morning and I am still tired. I have seen so many accidents and people dying in the last year that I dont even want to go out of my house. I have lost to much and so many. I wish I could just let go it would be so nice to get everything go. On my way to get my dad I stopped and looked at the mountians and the stars....it was so beautiful. I cant remeber the last time I just stopped and slowed down. I miss so much because I cant slow down anymore if I do everything else just fades and Then I end up with more shit to do. Its like I am in the twilight zone. I miss all of my loves and all my lost I will never forget any of them. "Never will I die will I forget who was there for me."-christina santacrose
Love always and forever,
Christina
PS
Never forget me and never lose me. Always know that I love you no matter who you are if we have had a glance or have talked just once. I will never forget you. you have impacked my life. And I will never froget you for that.
Now that you know who you are,
What do you want to be?
And have you traveled very far,
Far as the eye can see?
Why, oh why, does it seem as if every time I turn my back another celebrity expects me to accept their opinion as if it had come down from the mountain? And why do they get so upset when someone disagrees with them?
So what, you may make more money in a single year than I will in a lifetime, but does that mean I have to listen to you? No, it does not. I said it before, maybe in this Blog, if you expect me to even consider your opinion on anything, take all moneys you make above and beyond what I make a year and give it away and do not take it as a tax write-off - just give it away and still pay the taxes on it. And then and only then will I even consider your opinion worthy of my attention...
And don't even give me any crap about the country not doing enough for the less fortunate. It is time that you looked in the mirror and deep down realize that it is you who is not doing enough for the people - the tired and huddled masses...
Funny how it always ends up that we are not doing enough ends up with me paying for it. It always and will always turn out that the middle class will pay for the guilt of celebrities...
And thusly concludes my rant for the day. Thank you ever so much...
This is the Word of the AntiCrust...
WAS HE DEAF???? I am not sure if it's a good thing that he had stayed alone in our house while his gf is out there somewhere... shouldn't he be the one to be kicked out of OUR house??? What was Michelle thinking??? How stupid is that??? Is my cousin THAT stupid? I swear I am going to find out more about this stupid arrangement..
I confess, do not like Steve, I do not TRUST Steve. I have never liked him He has been really mean to me since 3 years ago. He stayed on weekends at our house, moved the ONLY TV into Michelle's room so they can watch it!!! When they are out, they'd lock their bedroom door with the ONLY TV inside... HOW selfish is that? You know what? he is totally scum. He took full advantage of our address, having all his mail sent to us, and gradually moved in.. taking over OUR place, our TV, our DVD player that I brought back, ate all OUR food, drank all our stuffs, used our phone to make long distance calls, and NEVER EVER paid us one penny.... OH... and drove all 3 of our cars, NEVER bothered to pay for patrol..... I swear... I am going to kick his butt out this year!!!! This is the kind of MAN that we call - MAN with no backbone! I HATE HIM!!!!