Pathetic Love Life @ MindSay

yeah, ive kinda been down in the dumps lately...ive been so confused...well, i have feelings for this guy...mark, and this is the 4th time ive dated him...i mean, i know my friends say that i'm "too young" to be in love, i really do believe it is...i mean ive liked him for 3 years and the feeling has never died down, if anything its gotten stronger...but the problem is that my friends dont seem to be to fond of him and this is the 4th time i've dated him...it seems that we date for a few months, then break-up and then realize we made a mistake...but this is the 4th time! i really do think its pathetic, i am not that blinded by love lol, but i cant help it, i love him...and i have been depressed and heart-broken since he dumped me the last time, so now that we are dating, ive been the happiest person alive! but, i still have that confusion in the back of my mind, that this is wrong, i keep telling myself im so stupid that i took him back when its been the 4th time...and my friends also dont like him to much...and ill admit, he isnt the most romantic person or one to show all his feelings, but i dont care...isnt love being able to accept their flaws, but still have that love for them? there are so many philosophies on love, i dont know what to do! anyone care to share some much needed advice?

Why does life have to be so hard? Why does it always seem that when I find that guy he turns out to be like every other guy in my pathetic love life?

You know its not that bad when like 3 weeks into this so called relationship that you think you are having the guy says that he likes hanging out with you but he really isn't interested in having a relationship at the moment and would like to date other people but he would still like to date you. Its not that bad until you find out that all a long he felt this way and was dating other people but he didn't want to say that at first because he was afraid that you wouldn't agree. Its not that bad until you find out that one of these other girls was one of your good friends, and its not that bad until you find out that he didn't tell her in the first place either because he was also afraid that she wouldn't agree.

This wonderful guy is Tim. Tim is one of the hottest guys that has probably ever walked this planet. He is in a band as the lead singer nonetheless. He's smart, charming, he is also very funny, loveable, and he is never boring. He seems like a perfect guy, right? Well that is another one of his qualities and that would be he is a deceiving ass. I mean if he was just truthful in the beginning about just wanting to date around and stuff then I would be ok with it but he wasn't. I mean this might sound weird but if I knew then I could of dated other people too maybe even one of his friends (come on the guys in his band are hot). He should of just told the truth in the first place, right?