Pathetic @ MindSay

I think I have a serious problem with motivation. I don't even really have the motivation to write this post...

I think I also have a sleep problem. I can go fine for days without out it, but at the same time I could sleep for hours and hours.

I wake up around 9-11h and I won't be tired, but I'll still just lie in bed and go back to sleep. I can sleep all day, as I often do. Or just lie in bed for hours, doing nothing.

I don't want to waste the day in bed, but I just can't seem to get out. I have homework and lots of things I should be doing, but instead I sleep or just lay around. It makes me feel so pathetic, but I don't know how to stop.

I try to force myself to get out of bed, think of all the things ( and often things I enjoy) I have to do, but still I stay in bed.

I think I should see my doctor about this... it's just confusing. I also have a wierd sleeping pattern that I stay up til 5... and I can get up at whatever time and not be tired, no matter how much sleep I get.

Argh. It's so annoying because I hate wasting time, especially when I have so much to do, like right now! X.x

By the way, if you are reading this... lurk more, asshole.

Man I am so pathetic..... ok let me explain ever since I was little I swore that I was not gonna be one of those crazy women that started planing their wedding way before the actual date, but even though the wedding is not supposed to happen for over a year I can't seem to stop looking at wedding gowns & planing what I want every one else in the wedding party to wear