Past @ MindSay

The more I think about it, the more I feel trapped. Society has captured us and are using us as tools. We abide by its laws and are being strictly watched over...You know who I blame? The fuckers that fucked up the freedom for us. Tryin tuh take advantage of the system, shit happenning way too many times that they hafta ruin it for the rest of us who want to have a good time. Think of it as this way, You need to use the bathroom and theres a line, but some asshole/assholette was tryna be funny and blew up the only toilet in that bathroom...Fuck you asshole/assholette. I want to kick your ass now.

What else could happen? God only knows....God...only knows...

Blessed those who are not blessed as Jesus would say. Why? Becuase they're dumb and need to be educated! I've noticed while reading the bible, that sometimes simple is the best way to go. Take the Good Samaritan parable for example. Some guy got his ass kicked and the priest walked past him, because in scripture it sed not to touch dead things. So from that kind of labeling, he walked past. And then some other bullshit ppl walked passed too. Then came this Samaritan guy. Half Jew half Gentile, pretty much considered trash. Apparetnly this guy was either simple minded or his heart was just that great. He picked up the beat up guy, tried to heal his wound and spent his money at an inn for this guy. Anyways, Jesus was trying to get to the point of love your neighbors/ brothers and sisters as you would love yourself. No matter whatever the eff they are. Gay, black, hindu, mexican, asian, communist, muslim. Love them. Why? Iunno. Maybe because there's more to life then just hate? Prolly because loving is more fun than despising? Although I do understand despising the unwise is quite easy to do. You should atleast try to act with respect around them. They too will eventually come to respect you as well. Be the bigger person. Show that you can cooler by being mature of the situation.

With that said, I also believe that all this religion hate shit should stop. Seriously? Alot of the religions worship the same God!! whats different? The texts....thats it!! just a bunch of words on paper is seperating our harmony and love for eachother on this planet. You do know the soul purpose of Him creating us right? So that we may gather to worship Him. Rules and regulations came later on in the book because of what I was talking about earlier from those asshole/assholettes!

It's so horrible how history repeats itself. It also hard to believe that all these nations will fall and new ones will be created eventually. USA might be called something else! Just like how Rome is now called Italy. And Babylon is now Iraq or something like that. It's so hard to see what the future brings. And what is the significance of my life? Live and Die...What will I leave behind? Who will remember me? HA! its funny how epiphanies work. So apparently I now have a better understanding of this do not worry bout the worldly troubles. No one will end up remembering you unless you were of some sort of political force or a cultural genius that helped change the course of time. Everything you end up leaving behind will be trash, BUT!! the kingdom of heaven awaits...So what would I do now that this whole world shit is just but a waste of time? I would share what I know by doing exactly what Jesus was doing. No, not healing the blind, or any other miracles.although that'd be pretty cool. No, what Jesus did was that He came to our world, as a servant. Jesus Christ!!! of all people!! HIM!! the son of God!! came down....to serve us...wtf!! why? because He loves us. Anyways, what he did. was serve. He tried his best to show the people what he was doing. Now that I think about it. It was prolly like tryna tell a really ignorant person that this is how things are done but its not easy for that person to take it in because thats not what he saw. That is why Jesus had to perform miracles!

hahaha!! I bet he was talking to the folks then, they were like...uhhhhh...so then Jesus sighs and was like. okie look. blind person right? now he can see!! thanks to God!!....ohhhhhhhh....what?? do it again!!!

Anyways...im off track...once i ramble on about God it ends up being weird... haha

so yea. Life...it's hard stuff...even harder when you dedicate it to God. the difference is, God will make you happy in the end!! So what do you do? Easy.
Love, Share it.
Dedicate, show it.
Be Wise, There's alot of people that will try to take advantage of you.
Sharing, Love it.
etc. etc....You will learn it yourself along the journey. That's the best way to learn right?

Haha, not really what I had in mind when I started this. It was supposed to be another 2 sentence entry...but w/e. wen my mind starts going. I juss gotta either jot it down or type! so yea.
Okie, ummm im really bad at conclusions so uhh... yea

Amen! :D

Until you find a way to look at the present as objectively as you're looking at the past. Maybe that's the statement then. You always think you're cooler when you look at yourself objectively.

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Today's been weird.
It's been one of those rare days where I make an effort to spend time with my mam - and rarer still, it works.

I sat and watched telly with her for a while - then went upstairs to sort out my FarmVille crops.
Mam asked me if I wanted to go to Lucy's while she dropped off Lila's birthday present. She said I could see her new kitten.

So I said I would, but asked her to hang about while I sorted out my strawberries.
Mam took an odd interest in what I was doing - asking me what you did and how it worked.

I liked Lucy's kitten Smudge at first - but he's one of those little bastards who lulls you into a false sense of security by acting all affectionate, then turning round and attacking you.
All I can say is that it's a good thing I was wearing long sleeves.

Even so, his claws went through my jumper fabric and got me a few times. I have a little bite mark on the side of my hand.
He looked a bit like a mini version of Adam's old cat Alfie - and a bit like the cats roaming about the hotel in Zante.

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When we got back, I suggested to mam that we try out my tarot cards.
I've had them for about a year and we've never really tried using them.

So, after we arranged the decks into the corresponding suits - shuffled them up and read the instructions, we did the simple version where you ask a question and the cards reveal the events of the past, present and future.

I asked: "Will Shelly and I stay together?"

The cards said that in our past, we had a lot of arguments, difficulties and there was possibilities of the relationship dying or suffering problems.
In our present, the cards said that we need more time alone on occassion, though our love and closeness is building.
For our future, the cards predict marraige, healthy wealth, strong relationship with friends and a possibility of travel.

The past and present seems to be right - and the future sounds pretty mint to me. :)
I hope it's right. :D

Freaking blast from my past happening right this minute.

We'll see what happens.