Pajama Day @ MindSay

It's Sunday. I am a lazy shit on Sundays.

Probably the only predictable thing I appreciate about my life is Pajama Day.

You could throw out a time of the day from 12:00am to 11:59pm and I could tell you exactly what would be happening. Once a week, 4 times a month, we take a happy little vacation in our apartment. Nothing too crazy, but I find it to be monumentally entertaining and satisfying.

Right now it's too early to start making dinner--Nathan is napping on the couch and I'm randomly playing what's on our DVR and surfing Realtor.com...do you know that they have GORGEOUS houses for like 400,000 outside of Nashville?? I mean, I'm talking a home theater and a pool for a $2,000 a month mortgage...What do they pay people down there? Slim Jims? Yikes. ...Mmmm. :) A slim jim is totally in the fruit group.

Anyway. I guess that's it. Maybe I'll do something super adventuresome and utilize a whole other room.

Okay. Well.

I'm working on my lab report for chemistry. It's not fun. I hope I do okay on it, though

Today was pajama day. I don't like pajama day, it's boring.

Mrs. Grossman had a baby boy, Chandler, he looks like Merideth, Drea, and Tori..he's adorable. Her sub, Mr. Z is awesome-we're actually gonna learn something now, which will definetly be a challenge.

After school, I went to Carroll, and found some cowboy scrapbook paper for my grandma's scrapbook. I've been working on her scrapbook for probably an hour, and I feel like I haven't gotten anywhere, and I don't like the page right now, so I'm sorta bummed.

I got a letter from Northwest today..I'm pretty excited for my college visit there, but I hope to get into UNI, still. It will be fun either way, hopefully.

I don't know if my calculations are right..

I really got the urge to be a neonatal nurse today..I realized that I don't like working with people my age, but I also realized I wouldn't really be working with them that much. I don't know what to do. Why can't UNI have elementary education AND nursing so I didn't have to decide RIGHT NOW? This sucks.

I'm tired..I don't know where Ryan is. I know he had to go to the JV game, and he was maybe going to go to the volleyball game after that, but I don't know if he did or not.

I need to put something together to decorate Ryan's locker-Our school has this new thing this year where you can pay $5.00 to decorate a football player's locker, and cheerleaders get to do it for free..so I need to..and he said I didn't have to, but I feel like I should, especially since it's our last year here. So I'm going to.

All day, the court was talking about going to Rancho and stuff...and I'm not bitter about not getting on at ALL..I knew I wasn't going to..it's just that I hate being left out, no matter what it is, so it sort of made me mad to hear them talking about that all day. Whatever. I'll get over it.

I really wish I knew what I was supposed to do with my future. I'm at the point where it's not realistic to dream anymore. A year ago, I could say..yeah, I'm going to UNI if I get accepted, but I wasn't actually worried about it, because when we think about our future, we never think about our dreams not coming true, so when it does happen, it's a huge blow. Just like when I say that I think Ryan and I will break up in college, I say it, and I know it can happen, but I don't believe it..because I don't want to..So now, I'm realizing, I might not get into college, Ryan and I might break up for real, and my dreams might not come true. Sorry to make that sound so negative.

Well. I'm gonna go do some career search.

Love,
Chelsea