Oru @ MindSay

How cool would it be to be British? Or to live in London? I would love to have a British accent.

I've been listening to The Smiths a lot lately, maybe that could explain my new found British love. Hmm. I do want to live there though someday, maybe for a couple years. It would be a fantastic place to learn more about Theater.

Why do I have so many insecurities in my life? Every night, I struggle with insecurities that cause me not to sleep. From wondering about my clothes, my friends, girls, my major, life, everything. I don't know why, but I spend so much time in my life doubting. It's interesting how I can appear so confident to so many people, and yet feel like such a little boy on the inside.

People don't think I'm a freshman here. I love that. "You're a freshman? Holy crap. No way!"

For some reason, that makes me feel really cool.

I saw the movie Accepted the other day. It was pretty damn funny, however there was a great underlying message in it. If you've seen it, maybe you can understand what I'm saying, but it questions a lot of our education system in the world. How it causes kids to turn into these crazy, wound up so tight they are going to explode, people who are so stressed out they can't function. I'm starting to see that with finals coming up, and I'm experiencing it. Why do I have to take a damn class over light spectrums and optics. How the hell is that going to help me pursue theater? I understand the idea of being well educated all around, but that raises the question, what exactly is education? Is education numbers, facts, or dates? Or is education looking on the inside of you and discovering whatever you can about yourself, or experiencing life and culture? I've learned so much this semester, and hardly any of it has been in the classroom. The thing that I've taken most from this semester is the actual college life experience. Actually living with people, in a community, versus being alone. It's amazing what you can learn about yourself by learning about other people.

I wish ORU's Theater program didn't suck balls. And I wish they didn't have some of the rules they have here, because I have met a lot of really cool people. If I could go to college because of the people, I would attend ORU... but, it's not that simple. I do need to get a quality education, and ORU just can't offer what I need. I'm going to miss being surrounded by Christians. And it's not like we are all the same either, like I thought it would be. ORU is very diverse because there are so many different people here from different backgrounds, but we are all brought together by one thing: the way we believe. I don't care if you believe in God or not, it's pretty cool to be surrounded by so many different people that you never would have known, and know that they believe the same way you do. Plus, there's some cool girls here too ;)

The Cowboys are playing really well, and I'm really excited about that. Tony Romo rocks.

Here's my thought for the day: Try something you have never tried before tomorrow, whether it be a cup of coffee, type of food, or word to say. Do that on a daily basis, and it will change your life. This is life, are you changing?

Eric