Orgasm @ MindSay

_{i've decided that i want to post my more personal shit without having people i know figure out, really.  i mean i am very open & whatnot, but i wanted to write things, more ideas and in-depth somewhat.  so here goes...}

 

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_{i'm a very sexual person.  i am not straight, i am not gay.  i am not picky.  that's what it is.  i don't like people because of sexual attraction, really.  i 106% of the time much more prefer a grade A personality and genuinity.  but that doesn't mean i don't look at people and lust....wishing to just pin him down and give him and good ol' BJ and swallow all his cum or get her on a couch and eat her out or finger fuck her like there's no tomorrow, making her cum so hard and swallowing all of her juices.  very lustful, i admit.  often horny.}

 

_{wrist-banging turns me on.  really can give myself an orgasm with that.  did it at work a couple times...starbucks.  hahahahahah!!!!!  i kind of gave in at the knees and disappeared behind the counter with an obvious expression of sexual pleasure on my face.}

 

_{i have learned to moderate my masturbation so that i don't get so raw and in pain when i finger myself.  always ALWAYS use condoms....have a ziplock full of those suckers.  dental dams, too, but i haven't used them yet.  actually just tried something new with my dildo.  put a golf ball on the top, covered both with a condom and went away at it.  sprayed like a fucking bitch, man, and had one of the best fucking orgasms ever!}

 

_{i just started having g-spot oriented orgasms.  before that, they've just been clit-based.  man, i love learning new stuff each day!}

 

I just got an email from Ticketmaster or one of those concert ticket websites.


May 1st, 2009:  "Hoodwink"
Badfish performing the music of SUBLIME songs and (dun dun dun)
NEW FOUND GLORY PERFORMING THE MUSIC OF GREEN DAY !<33


May 2nd, 2009:  "Bamboozle, Day 1"
Fall Out Boy, and a million other bands (no one else is assigned  yet)

May 3rd, 2009:  "Bamboozle, Day 2"
No Doubt, and a million other bands (no one else is assigned  yet)

Ummm....HI.

Does anyone know that I am already DYING to get to New Jersey the first weekend in May?
Remember in September when I tried to get to New Found Glory and we had to leave the show early because of fuckin' Jersey Transit issues?
And does anyone remember how I've seen Green Day 3 times in concert and cried EACH time they've gotten off stage, so seeing NFG (my 2nd favorites) covering the music of my favorites might actually kill me?

What an amaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazing set of shows that will be.  I have to get this organized, because I'm not missing this.

I really like to make guys feel good. And yes, of course that sounds normal, but I also mean sexually. which again, is probably pretty common, but I don't know if it's to an extreme. I suppose it most likely isn't abnormal, that I would want to pleasure those I care about.

But it just makes me really happy, and aroused sometimes. But even happiness that isn't sexual, it just brings me joy to make a guy have an orgasm.

I feel really disappointed if I try and don't succeed. It's only happened, once, but it made me sad. We weren't even going out. It's not about relationship I don't think, but I don't really know. I don't talk to many girls... so I don't have anything to compare with.

Could it be psychological? Is it a problem? I don't know... I just know that I could even have just met someone, as happened once, and I was playing with his little friend. I know it's not necessarily a sexual thing. I enjoy playing with it even when not involved in sexual activity, really. Like watching a movie, playing video games, etc. It usually turns him on, but I generally just like the feeling of it in my hands. And then, making him orgasm if we decide to engage in that.

Maybe it's a physical thing? I just like the touch, and to know how he is feeling. And having the power to make him feel good. Control or power, or just enjoying his pleasure? I don't know... It's kind of an obsession. But maybe not. I've never really talked to anyone about it. What do you think? Can anyone relate? >.<

 

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LOL! Enjoy!