Old Family Friends @ MindSay

     Do you ever feel like you do not belong? I do. Often. I find myself feeling disconnected from my friends and family all the time. Like I'm spinning off alone with no direction or anything to keep me steady. I feel like this especially when my friends are/boyfriend is ignoring me. Also I've been thinking about emotional eating. Random, I know. I have decided that I am an particular version of an emotional eater. I eat when I feel neglected by others but when I'm stressed I completely lose my appitite. I don't really know why I'm writing about this but it was on my mind so I figured I'd share. Anyways, I think I'm done for tonight. I might be back tonight but if not then I'll update later.

in approximately 20 hours i shall be boarding the plane, the pane that will fly me to Hamilton Island! im so excited!
ive done the packing! i hope i dont buy much, coz my suitcase is pretty full. Well if i do, i can steal room in Brooke's suitcase..lol. haha..well that is if she hasnt used the space already.
but seriously, im so excited! it is rather scary. it will be the furthest ive been away from home without any family around me. i went to melbourne last year, but i was accompanied by mum, my younger sister and family friends. mind you, back in 1997, i did fly to port macquarie with only my cousin who was only a couple of months older then me. but when we were to reach our destination we had family awaiting us. when we arrive at hamilton, there will be no family. that is the scary part! but my excitement overrides the fear - no complaints there.
but what i dont like most about going are the plane flights, but only when disturbing thoughts creep into my head, thoughts about how at any second something can go wrong and before we know it we could be plummeting towards the ocean! the turbulence makes it a whole lot worse, especially in a smaller plane; the domestic planes. you wouldnt be able to feel it as much if you were in a jumbo.
but overall, i like the plane flights. lol.

"please keep the reporters at bay. this is a matter of life and death, but i deal with things like this everyday. please keep the crowd under control. this is a matter of life and death, and we're not prepared. i just want you to know. please keep the crowd under control. this is the weight of my conscience. this is an all time low."

I'm doing my criminology assignment as I type.

woah, multi-tasking!

my sister had a birthday recently. i wonder what she would say if she knew that sometimes, she is one of the only things that makes me want to hold on.

sometimes it's not even just cause i love her. sometimes it's just the fact that my family thinks I'm strong, and I don't want to let them down.

I've let enough people down like that.

I think my friends all used to think I was strong too.

your bodies gone, but angel you will live.

I'm a little excited.... I might just even make some friends at my cold new world.

I've just taken to putting whatever tags it gives me.

can ya tell?

The commonwealth games are on and I really don't care. But i liked the way they used the duck.

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i hate sport.