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Me want more mixes of "Carpe Diem."

And for it to not be 9:30.

When the one thing that mattered to me left I went into a great state of depression.

I refuse to have help for any of my problems because I no theres a possibility of something worse to make of it, so I stay away from people and there goals of making me better.

My depression subsided and I went completely numb or blank if u will.

As of now nothing making me have feeling, wat I used to get so upset over simply makes me stare. I wish and hope for tear to fall from my hopless face, I yearn for sadness to wash over me, I try to make a smile appear on my face but I get nothing. The only thing i feel anymore is hate. I hate not being able to feel anything and i hate knowing that my life is over. I do not even have any type of fear anymore i used to be afraid to think of killing myself and going to hell, but now im willing to chance it, it's the only thing i want as of now, I want death more then I can describe. My only hope is keeping away from the person that brought me here and I no that will be almost impossible. I simply want the lifelessness to go away.

The women's Wimbledon final has been played after a fortnight of upsets over the top seeds. The Williams' sisters have once again stepped up when in counts - in Grand Slam competition. Some detractors see this as a sleight on the quality of women's tennis - that someone who pays more attention to fashion and media opportunities can turn-up to a major competition and still make the final and win.

The Telegraph (UK) argues that this supports why women should not get equal pay as men's tennis. Their argument reflecting not only the discrepancy in number of sets played, but how difficult it is to win the respective championships. The latter being highly subjective.

In the corporate world, there is never any argument that the intensity of work/labour is in direct proportion to the amount of earnings. In fact it is quite the opposite. In the corporate world, he/she who works "SMARTER" rather than harder, is the one earning the big dollars.

Venus and Serena Williams exhibit, what I consider, a healthy belief that their life can be balanced between success on the court and off the court. They believe they can win without tormenting their body with week after week on the tour. That is smart and those who object could perhaps look at their own belief patterns to ask themselves, why is it wrong? What do you think?

Music: Hare Hare Yukai (Kyon) - The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi
Mood: @.@

Hello. I'm Drifblim. I'm not new to mindsay, but it's been forever since i've been on so I wanted to make a new account.

It's been a while. I don't think many of the people I used to know are still on here, so i'd love to make some new ones.

I just do not want ANY drama. I've had way too much of that today. It makes my head hurt. Eep.