New Shoes @ MindSay

All girls love shoes, right? I have a little bit of difficulty in that department. My feet are just a little messed up and as such I have to wear shoes that have great support in them - hence why I wear athletic shoes almost every single day. It gets boring but at least my feet feel good.

However. I went shopping yesterday for an upcoming interview and look what I found.

wow this weekened was shitty:( Last week was so stressful that it all kinda caught up with me this weekend..i stayed in all weekend (except for piano lessons) because I just kinda broke down from all the stress. I also broke down because i downloaded some new songs (well, not new, but ones i havent heard of before;)) and they reminded me of the past 20 months (thats how long ive been struggling with depression for). So basically i just cryed myself to sleep on saturday and sunday..but i havent been feeling all that sad though for the past 2 days..like this morning and yesterday morning i woke up and i was feeling in a normal mood...so this leaves me wondering if this is a start of another low of depression or just me breaking down from the stress of procrastination+not getting enough sleep. I think its just a break down of stress, because normally after crying myself to sleep 2 nights in a row i would feel way depressed, but im okay. Plus on thurday is the last dnace of the year (and the best:D) so if not anything, that will make me feel better:)

 

Umm in other news, sunday i went shoe shopping with my parents for like 30min..i was originally going to get runners, but i found these pair of black leather high healed boots that were so awesome that i just had to get..(lol that sounded girly:P:|) But my dad made me get a pair of runners to because i needed something that i can use for normal day to day stuff..or w/e. Ive been getting comments about the boots, cause ive been wearing them to school, but i really dont care: i love them:) Basicaly people are calling them hooker boots, but i know they're just teasing, and like i said: it doesnt bother me:)

 

Random peice of info: not including weekends or exams: 10 days left of school:D

 

ummm heres a poem i wrote last night..its mostly about me, but the last verse i was thinking about the kids who commited suicide in april, and how everyone just ignored them or w/e until they died.

 

Killed By the Beautiful

 

Broken-hearted souls

Cry in the mist of the night

One takes insults as she rolls

She doesn't bother to put up a fight

 

What's the point of this?

Some are beat down

Some get bliss

In the end we all frown

 

But as she walks down the hall

The beautiful laugh and stare

They have a ball

Standing up: she doesn't dare

 

Emotions shoved into a pit

And she keeps walking

She takes their shit

Cause they won't stop talking

 

So kill her some more

Go ahead, go on

Your tears will pour

Once she's forever gone

 

By: Kristal St. Jean

Date: June 4, 2007.

 

-:)Kristal:(

  

yep. i did. among other things. but i think this was the highlight. :D here it is:




it took me forever. i had to get all the pipecleaners and then i had to wait for stupid kids to finish their speeches before i could do anything. that kind of made me sad. but then i finished it and now it's great. :D

oh and another thing that happened today. i bought shoes to go with my new black dress. they're American Eagle black flats. i REALLY like them. here's a picture.

my father came back from Israel last night. he was there because my grandmother was dying so he was going to stay for about a month but she died before he got there. he stayed and sat shivah and all that. but he still can't shave for a month. he looks like a freak. i mean. i don't exactly want to be a bitch or anything. but he looks like a total freak. seriously.

but it's great that he's back. i guess. he got the lotion and stuff everybody wanted. he got shoes for my sister and not me. i believe i told him that i wanted shoes too. whatever. i got some new $4 shoes at walmart a couple weeks ago so it's alright.

he also got little shoulder bags for everyone. i really like mine. i don't really have anything to put in it but i'm sure i'll find use for it somehow.

i don't have pictures right now but i might a little later. i need to take them and stuff first though.


untill then.