New Person @ MindSay

I have finally come to conclusion that this blog serves as a place to vent frustrations in my everyday life.  Not the content I had hoped to write.  The frustration today is feeling slighted at work.  A new person has just joined our department.  I'm the person who is responsible for the computer training and the other lead technician orients new employees to the many types of specimens we receive & process (excluding assisting with autopsies). Today this other lady who in billing sits at my desk & proceeds to show this person how to do billing/registration.  This woman, while very nice, likes to act as a know it all but has no clue how it pertains to what we do in our lab.  My boss didn't mention that this lady was going to train the new person.  Another of my co-workers asked me why so & so was doing the computer training.  She got upset that this person just stepped in & took over, called our boss & said that it's my (meaning me) job to do the training.  Then she acted like I was somehow shirking my duties because she knows I hate training even though I've been told I'm an excellent teacher.  We get along great & I really enjoy working with her but she just acted so disgusted with me.  As much as I like her, she's one to create drama among many of our co-workers.  I hate conflict & get along with everyone but this oftentimes puts me in the middle of the battle.  Awkward for me indeed.  It seems like I was the target today.  I skipped lunch since we were crazy busy & when everyone else came back from lunch I felt like I was the redheaded stepchild.  I got the impression that people were giving me the cold shoulder.  Everyone takes their job very seriously & if it appears you are slacking people say you aren't being a team player. We are all dependent on each other to get our work done.  If one person doesn't do their part it trickles down to everyone else.  I didn't feel like it was my place to butt in & when I asked my boss if this lady was teaching the new person he said yes since he needed me on my scheduled rotation because we had such a large caseload today.  I just did as I was told.  Tomorrow I'll probably talk to my co-workers since we have an excellent work relationship.  I was just too angry today to say anything.  One lesson I learned is I need to calm down before I say something I'll regret.  Reading this it sounds so petty, but I've never had that type of chilly reception from my co-workers.  Maybe I'm just being hypersensitive.......

ok so i have a new friend on mindsay ya'll should add her her username is doinou anyways she's pretty cool i kinda consider her as family she's like really retareded, crazy and obviously not shy! anyways add her she's cool!

More judgment....

As I sit here in someone elses house on someone elses computer, I can't help thinking, this person is great, and deserves so much better than this.

The integrity, compassion, dignity, and self-persiption of a person should not be treated with disrespt.

It is who they are, and they may not choose to be that way.

But they are. So why do so many of the onlookers pass a sentence of judgmental discrepincy when it only adds up the their predicion? To what they want it to be. They mold you, mangle you into a label, a box which they can scan you over in.

If you are to different, sorry, "NEXT."

Sorry, thats fucking pathetic and igotistic. It disgusts me. Truely and deeply.

You think you know a person so well, then they pick up old habits, or start new things, or just try something different, just for the hell of saying "Hey, I did that once....."

Then yor onlookers freak out and are rescaning to see if the missed that little gigga byte of information on you.

No, I didnt miss anything, so why are you so differnet?

Im not.

Same person, same smile.

Same person, same eyes.

Same person, differnt look.

Same person, differnt tastes.

Same person, old habits.

Same person, new habits.

Same person through out the mind, body and soul. But.....yet again, they reject you. Funny how that works isnt it? But you say thats life, right?

Wrong.

Your life, your body, you mind, your soul, your desicions. You are your toughest critic. You are your own dictator. You are your own person.

YOU ARE YOU............dont let that slip.

dont look for the awnsers, let them come to you.

dont look for the meening, let it find you.

*deep breath* Okay.  I need to vent.  Or rant, whichever term you prefer.  This issue has been bothering me a lot lately.  Feel free to comment, but please don't flame me.

 

Well, if you keep on with the news, they're trying to pass this anti-abortion law in South Dakota.  It will be illegal to get an abortion in that state, unless the woman in question is going to die as a result.  Only if you're going to DIE.  They make no other exceptions.  Not for rape, or incest, or other health complications.  Nothing at all.  I've read some articles...(I'll post a URL later)  They say, if a woman was raped, the rapist would have just as much control over the child as the woman would.  I'm sorry, but something is just seriously wrong with this.  If something like that happened to me, I would want to stay as far away from that person as possible.  The idea that a man who raped someone who could be a part of the victim's life is just scary.

Or, what if this person had a life to live?  What if they were in college, or an athlete...  What id they were a victim of rape or incest? Having a child doesn't just HAPPEN, you have to go through pregnancy for 9 months.  Heck, they might have to just drop everything.  Ruin their entire life plan.  Because women won't be able to have control of their own bodies anymore, not with these kinds of laws.  Or what if someone had a tricky health condition, that wouldn't exactly kill them, but make their life so much harder to get through if they were to become pregnant?  It shows no sympathy for the victims.  It's like they don't care if someone's a victim, they have to deal with the consequences NO MATTER WHAT.  I think it's scary that we wouldn't have a choice.  It's like women are slowly losing their voices, and their rights....

Now, don't get me wrong.... I don't think that abortion is right, especially in late-term abortions.  It should only be done in very, very paticular situations.  But, still in a woman's body, it's not a person yet.  Yes, it is human. But there's a difference between being human and being a person.  However, it's a potential person and should be treated with respect. The fetus would be unable to live outside of the woman's body- it is not yet an independant lifeform.  But when two beings occupy the same space, one should have control over another....  I don't know; I don't think I'm wording this very well.  I'm sure there's lots of loopholes in my explanation... Maybe I'll try to clarify what I mean, sometime... 

I mean, not all victims of those types of crimes need to get an abortion.  I think it's wonderful if a person is willing to have a child... To have something good come from something like that.  But I just think that a world without that choice would be a scary place to live in....

I only get like one person to reply to my blogs, i guess i should address them to that person everytime, gesh *tear*