New Love @ MindSay

Listening to : Black Sabbath

 

Okay- so life has been extremely good the past few weeks.

I've met the most awesome guy ever and I'm enjoying all the little, cute things people enjoy when they just start off with a relationship- like the constant messages and butterfly-inducing kisses and all that stuff! He plays for a heavy metal band and works in a video store- thats all he does??! And it doesn't bother me- because for some or other reason- his lack of ambition turns me on. It could probably be because I'm used to dating all these really ambitious guys.. I mean- you have to vary your taste sometimes don't you?

 

We got together over Easter-weekend- there was a party at his house- and although I've known him for quite a while, I only realized the chemistry between us was ridiculously high when we started pouring the vodka.. why does vodka always do weird things to you? But it's cool- I love talking to this guy. Thats like all we do.We go to Zeplins and headbang ourselves into a stupor on Pantera or Dimmu Borgir or we watch stupid episodes of Metalocalypse at his house. It seriously is so simple- but yet so great!!

 

I have to start revising for my exams which are coming up in a month.. I'm already stressing. I just can't seem to concentrate for more than 2 seconds at once. My mind is just one huge whirlwind.

 

I have to leave now,need to go for driving lessons (yes, I got my learner's permit!). So Im driving up and down in our neighbourhood's main street, trying to alternate my co-ordination between the clutch and the gas.. I'm all hard-core!!

 

Cheers.

"So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?

Woooaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see

I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regrettig the time you lost

It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here

Please tell me what we have is real"

"I found you here, now please just stay for a while

I can move on with you around

I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?

I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done

We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you"

"Then take my hand and walk with me. Come to me, your sanctuary.

Take my hand, I'll take everything from you. I will sleep under your skin. I will. I will hold onto your heart. I will."


i think it's so sweet how he uses these corny lyrics to express his feelings for me...he's like that though...we say lyrics to each other, or sing to each other...lol...

At this time of night I tend to wax philosophical and/or poetic. Often both. To tell you the truth, I really enjoy the night. I have always felt most creatively inspired at night, especially late at night when everyone is in their little beds sound asleep. This is also my most reflective time of the day--it's when the pace slows to a smooth, comfortable glide and my inner world begins to open... and when that happens, I often have a lot of questions.

My main question tonight is when is the right time to begin dating again after a relationship has ended? And I know, the answer seems obvious: when you feel ready to start dating again. But how do you know when you are ready to start dating again?

It has been 7 months since my last relationship ended and you know, it's weird because sometimes it feels like a lot longer, and other times it feels like it wasn't that long ago. I am a firm believer in staying alone to process a relationship... I have always felt that it is unfair to jump into a new relationship with someone else when you aren't ready to fully be present in the relationship. No one wants to be with a person who still hasn't gotten over their ex. I guess I'm trying to evaluate whether I have really gotten over my relationship... if I'm even in the right space to be looking at new guys. This past relationship put me through a lot and I certainly would like to think I've learned enough from it to know not to make the same mistakes again.

That said, miraculously I have noticed myself awakening to men again... believe me, for a little while there, it seemed like that was a long ways off... I didn't find any man that crossed my path the least bit attractive! I didn't even want to look at men, lest date them. I figure this is a good sign. And I guess I'm just hoping that the next guy that comes along will really be fun and easy to be with, someone who makes me laugh, who's really sexy, who looks into my eyes and sees the person underneath it all and really understands what I'm all about. I hope I will be ready for him when he does show up. And I know he will eventually. I guess I was hoping someone might send me a little note to let me know he's coming. Just so I know to expect him and leave the door open. =)

Howdy Howdy all! Well I have not had my second driving lesson yet but I will this week. For me it is a matter of getting more comfortable on the road rather than with the functions of the vehicle. I realized that I (gulp) actually like driving. Uh OH! I will likely get behind the wheel and disappear for months at a time once I get my road "legs". And to think I thought I was free before, now I can do all of my little adventures and deeds without even having to inform Greyhound and having to trust them to keep these secrets of mine and actual secret, LOL! Anyway, my driving and disappearing acts are not the focus of this entry....getting clean and spotless is, so let's talk soap folks..... This is a two-part entry because it would have been crazy long, so lets get the ingredients together first and then we will get started with making it next time.....

 

Stuff you need to get so fresh and so clean!

 First get all your ingredients together on your stable and clean workspace. My work table is a terribe example of a clean workspace but I will show it to you anyway...

Now you will need

1. vegetable glycerine (I buy mine from a local craft shop or sometimes wholesale from an online source) If you get it from a craft shop sometimes they have the clear glycerine "pre-mixed/cut/diluted" with some sort of oil. Now you can buy this for about 9 bucks at Michael's in 2 pound bricks or you can get it from an online source for slightly cheaper and un-diluted. It won't be a heck of a lot cheaper unless you have a tax ID number and can get it at the wholesale price. You could also make your own glycerine but I live in  an apartment and I just dont have the space for rendering fat and tallow and such in a vat to get glycerine. Here is a 10 pound brick of clear glycerine....

This one is white glycerine..... 2. Get some good scissors, in case you are like me and forget to let the soap cool properly and corrupt the mold. At which point you have to cut the soap out of the darn thing. I ruined quite a few molds when I first started this.

3. Some fun and happening molds. I like to keep it simple myself but there are a lot of fun and happy molds to brighten your bathroom and perk up your gift baskets (do I sound like one of those CHEESY infomercials yet?)

 

4. My favorite step. Get your additives together. I have a couple of shelves with the things that I use regularly. Ground cinnamon, ground rose petals, ground and whole mint leaves, and just anything you ever wanted to try in soap form. Be sure to do a little research on some of the essential oils to make sure you don't cause any allergic reactions. and ALWAYS dilute essential oils when you want to use them on your body. Never just dab a little of them straight from the bottle onto your skin. They are pretty potent and will cause SEVERE skin reations if they are not cut with a carrier oil like Sesame, Sweet Almond oil, olive oil or my favorite, Grapeseed oil. Usually there are not many allergic reactions when I make soap because the glycerine is an excellent carrier for essential oils and natural ingredients. This is the oils area.... And here we have a few of the dry additives, herb, flowers and such...

5. A microwaveable glass mixing bowl/pouring thingie. You want glass so that when you mix additives the fragrances dont get stuck in material of the dish and corrupt other soaps you make in the future. You want microwaveable so that you can melt glycerine in it if you dont have a soap kettle or a good teflon coated pan for melting soap over the stove.

6. I happen to have a soap kettle because it has a nifty warming feature for when you are waiting for the soap to cool. The little warming feature insures that the soap wont cool completely and become too hard to fast, making it useless (funny I never would have thought I would ever say/write that sentence). see first photo

7. plastic spoon, plastic scoop, wisk, and sharp butcher's knife. The first 2 are for mixing additives, the third is for scooping out the soap from your kettle or teflon pan. You wont worry over this if you use the microwave bowl/pouring thingie. The butchers knife is for cutting or shaping your soap if you use a free-form mold like an aluminum pan and want to make the soaps larger or smaller or whatever. I do this for myself because I like how rustic or simple they look, plus I just like a big-ass bar of soap.

8. Scale. any simple food scale will do. I like to melt about a pound of soap at a time but you can certainly melt much more if you like. The kettle will melt up to 5 lbs at a time but I always feel rushed to work with it when I do this.

That's it for ingredients and supplies needed for making some fragrant soaps for you and yours....

  Next time we will Make the Soap! Later gators! 

A short poem to end the entry....here goes....

Doubt No More That Oberon 

Doubt no more that Oberon--
Never doubt that Pan
Lived, and played a reed, and ran
After nymphs in a dark forest,
In the merry, credulous days,--
Lived, and led a fairy band
Over the indulgent land!
Ah, for in this dourest, sorest
Age man's eye has looked upon,
Death to fauns and death to fays,
Still the dog-wood dares to raise--
Healthy tree, with trunk and root--
Ivory bowls that bear no fruit,
And the starlings and the jays--
Birds that cannot even sing--
Dare to come again in spring! --Edna St. Vincent Millay

 

Goddess Bless