New Blog @ MindSay

Hello! This is ChibiAkuma at your service! lol (little devil in Japanese)
My name is Thina. Not that you care. Whatever. Soooooo. This is a blog, huh? I do blog. Just not very much and not on the website. Let's see what I can tell you......Oh!

I found this thing on the internet one day and figured this way I don't have to think about what I'm going tell about myself.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
nope!
02) What was your dream growing up?
I wanted to become a singer.....
03) What talent do you wish you had?
TO have a lot of talents!
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
Tea
05) Favorite vegetable?
hmmmmmm broccoli
06) What was the last book you read?
DOUBLE LUCK MEMOIRS OF A CHINESE ORPHAN by Lu Chi Fa with Becky White
07) What zodiac sign are you?
Chinese:Boar American:Aquarius (I think)
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
Earrings
09) Worst Habit?
Talking too much and too loud
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
Depends on who you are
11) What is your favorite sport?
I dunno
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
Depends on how I feel that day
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
Depends on who you are
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
Don't wanna talk about it
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
I LOVE ANIME AND MANGA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
16) Do you have any pets?
I wish
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
Who are you again?
18) What was your first impression of me?
I DON'T KNOW YOU STOP TALKING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
Ewww
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
zits blah :P hate em
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
WHY ARE YOU STILL TALKING TO ME?!?!
22) What color eyes do you have?
Dark Brown
23) Ever been arrested?
I can proudly say I have not!
24) Bottle or can soda?
bottle
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
Gather up my friends and lets go shopping!
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
anywhere with my friends
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
Hell yah!
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
Read
30) Do you swear a lot?
Depends on how I feel
31) Biggest pet peeve?
Dogs!
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
Accepting
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
Sure!
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
Fried Shrimp and Anything gross
35) Do you believe in God?
No. I believe that there is something higher then human beings but I do not think it would be consider "God".
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
WHO ARE YOU?!?!? AHHH CREEPY STALKER!!!!!

Alright, so I have a blog. Weird. I came across this site a few months ago and finally convinced myself to give it a try.

So, uh... where to begin? I mean, nobody's even going to read this... Actually, that's encouraging. I can just write whatever.

Well, I finished a very long manga series about ten minutes ago, and it made me cry... Ugh. Who the hell cries over manga?

Now, shall I describe myself?

I'm a teenage girl and one person in the world understands me. I'm interested in psychology, especially Myers Briggs. I am an INFJ, which explains the name. Most people think I'm boring, despite the fact the my inner life is richer than most of my classmates' will ever be.

Speaking of which, I actually went through phase last year or the year before where I was insecure about being a straight, white girl, as it seemed too boring. I wished I was a lesbian for months, even making a point near the end of the phase to think about breasts at several points throughout each day. But it didn't take me long to figure out that, for me, breasts are fat. They are not arousing.

Boys are a whole different story, which I don't care to explore at the moment.

I like shiny things. My favorite color is pink (don't judge), I like anime and manga, and I sing.

I have brown hair which needs to be cut, as my bangs are hanging in front of my mouth. My eyes are brown and rather large, which would be nice if I didn't have circles underneath from lack of sleep. Maybe I should stop writing at 10:30pm on school nights... I'm fairly short, but my best friend is 4'7" and makes me feel better. I'm not overweight, but I do have "fat days," which are mostly in my head. They usually happen when I'm retaining water due to the hated period which arrives randomly each month and makes me loose control and snap at the people I love most.

I don't even know why I need that lining! I don't have a kid! My uterus does not need to be soft!

Ahem. Now you know a bit about me. Not that anyone's reading this. I'm going to sleep.

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Dixie currently feels:

 Neutral

 

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Blog #1

Introductory Wankery

 

 

My name isn't actually Dixie Astrid Stonehall - but I'm going to lie and say that it is. I prefer this name far more than the one I was given. And introducing myself as 'Dixie' to several people at college, I am now addressed as it frequently - which doesn't cause me to grind my teeth in sheer fury like I normally would if they addressed me otherwise.

 

I am a previous blogger. This is my fourth or fifth blog.

I gave up on my last one, but life-changing events have occurred. I remember starting my previous blog for a similar reason, and it did help me pour some feelings out - so why not try it again.

 

I'm 17 years old, started my first year at college in September - and I'm taking four AS-levels.

Following the previous success of my year 10-11 GCSE exams with my 3 A* grades in English, English Literature and Media Studies - I took these three subjects, along with Photography.

 

My best friend is named Adam. I've known him since we were in year 2. We met up one day when he overheard a conversation between me and another about our shared favourite game; Final Fantasy VII. He joined in, and we've been friends ever since.

Since starting college, he's a lot more sociable than I am, so he's made a lot of friends and gets invited to parties - whereas I don't.

For a time, it felt like we were drifting apart. Once my mother caught wind of this possible ignorance, she stopped him coming to visit me - but that ban has recently been lifted - Adam has visited me twice this week, and I hope it continues when possible.

 

My two best friends in college are Ashleigh and Shelly.

I spoke to Shelly first, during the second lesson in Photography. I was alarmed that someone spoke to me - as I was planning not to speak to anybody during my college years.

I met up with Ashleigh during a break prior to the third Photography lesson - was indeed repelled by her attitude - but later learnt that it was purely her nerves, and we've became a group of three since that second week.

 

We work together in Photography. The banner photograph at the top is of Ashleigh and myself. Shelly took it for us. I'm the one on the left - the taller and blonder one with the emo glasses.

The funky blur effects were done by our Photography teacher when he was talking me through some more Photoshop techniques I was unaware of.

 

Sometimes I talk to the ever-hyper Michaella. Yes, it has a weird spelling.

Like Shelly and Ashleigh - she also spoke to me first. I was drawing at one of the tables during my break - she walked past me, noticed I was drawing, then sort of turned and came back.

She's popular and I don't see her much because she's on a totally different course to me - but she's good company when I can find her.

 

During Media Studies lessons, I sit with the shy and quiet Lewis.

Unlike the four above - I spoke to him first - mainly because he looked even more terrified than I did. I walk to the bus station with him most days of the week. Never on Wednesdays though, he finishes before I do then.

He's quite sweet. Shelly has ideas that he's in love with me - I kind of agree, but in another aspect, I also don't. I guess we'll never know. And even if we did know, nothing would come of it.

 

This is because I don't like men.

I learnt this after my second boyfriend was an absolute arsehole to me during the start of year 10. It started an all-out war with him and his friends against me and my minute selection of friends. Wasn't good.

This had previously happened before in year 8 - and that's when I took up self harming.

 

Oddly, I got the idea from somebody I despised - as I saw her showing her scars to her friend. I wondered if the idea would work for me - and I've been addicted to it ever since.

 

I have a lot of free time usually.

I spend a lot of the time wasting my life away on MSN, not really making any progress with my life. Sometimes I'll play video games - make progress on those instead.

Occassionally, I'll have ideas for drawings or sprite comics, and I'll make those.

I'm interested in film making, but I don't always have an opportunity to partake in anything of the sort. Recently though, that's changed.

 

What I really enjoyed the most was writing.

For the past few months however, I haven't been able to do it.

It's not writer's block though. Not at all.

Somebody could say a single word to me - and I could spew out several chapter ideas just from the one word. Ideas aren't the problem.

 

The problem arises when I come to write, and I get the voice in the side of my head - the left side, as that's the creative side - shouting at me that I fail. From then, I can't even squeeze out a single word.

It's now spread to me not being able to write coursework/classwork/homework for college either.

This isn't good.

 

I decided to keep this one as my public political blog, but I want a personal one as well that requires readers to be users of Mindsay.

Here's the URL:

lifesavers1334 

http://lifesavers1334.mindsay.com/