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I have been having a really rough time lately. My boyfriend in the navy was really starting to scare me, I haven't told him this yet, but I really have no way to tell him until he can contact me. So until than, I'm just going to have the time of my life. Honestly why does he want to marry me? He really doesn't know me all that well. He has no experiance whatsoever of living with me. and I know the first week of living with me we will be fighting so much. So I don't think it's worth all that trouble. He was already talking about baby names. Sure someday I would like to talk about that stuff with him just not right now. I got cold feet and started having panic attack. I through up. It was so scary. I had to break up with him I just didn't know how to do it. So I probably didn't do it the best way. But oh well, what's done is done. So I have moved on, I'm not making any commitments to anyone, until I am sure about what I am doing. Maybe when he is completly done with the navy we can work things out. OR NOT! It all depends on what i'm doing then and what he's feeling. He's probably heart broken but I was too when he left me in the first place. I did not make him sign the damn contract. If he wants to join the fucking Marines than he can go ahead and do that. Whatever floats his boat. Right now I'm not having the best time of my life. I just got done taking two finals: Government and Triginometry. They were all right but i'm not quite sure how I did. But I hope did well. Right now I need to concentrate on my education right now. I don't need to wory about John, whether he's ok or not. When he doesn't E-mail me or call me. It's kind of impossible for me to concentrate on my school work. But right now I'm going to try to get my mind off of him and put it on school, even though for some reasons my mind wonders and start thinking about Chris and how I just want someone to cuddle with right now. I don't care how corny it sounds, Cuddling is fun. Along with making out. If John reads this he's gonna have all sorts of shit running through his head and he'll want to talk to me. But he's gonna have to do that on his own. All I care about right now is my family, friends, school, and my new boyfriend, Chris. He is so fun. I know he's going to be reading this later on today. I met him a day or two before New Years. I talked to my cousin and she asked me if I kissed any guys at midnight. I was like no but I wanted to. Of coarse Chris, but we made up for that a few days ago. Anyway, It's snowing right now, I hate the snow because it's so cold. If it wasn't so cold I'd probably like it a little more. Wow I didn't think I'd ever meet anyone I like over at my brother's apartment, but Damn I was wrong! I saw this guy come in with his beanie on I was like; " Daaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmnnnnnnnnn!!! That is one fine mother fucker! I had all sorts of shit running through my head. The first time we started hanging out I just wanted to rip all of his clothes off and jump all over him. Maybe one of these days I will, when I know him better. I'm so bad. Y'al may think i'm a bitch but i don't give a shit. Peace out fuckers!! I'm gonna go get me some viddles.
Anyone who want's to tell me how much of a boict I am or ir you have any advice for me just reply and I'll reply back to you.