Musical @ MindSay

It has been so long since I posted on here.

And so much has happened.

Of course.

So like...

Wow.

 

I'm currently completing my Diploma of Music Studies at Orange Tafe.

We are currently rehearsing for the Orange Theatre Company's production of The Wedding Singer, in which I play George.

 

And... Yeah...

Let's see, the last thing you all heard was that I was working at teh Orange Ex-Services Club and doing Jekyll and Hyde, plus having issues about life love and everything...

 

Since then (in chronological order):

I have left the club; done Cats with the OTC; met this guy named Mat (different to me, I am Matt); been the Manager of Boost Juice; moved into a share house with a group of friends (Mat included); started dating Mat; got fired; started a Cert IV in Music at TAFE; done You're a Good Man Charlie Brown as Snoopy (hella awesome that was); moved out of share house and into a flat with Mat; completed a Cert IV in Music at TAFE; started a Diploma of Music at TAFE; broken up with Mat; moved back to Canowindra with Mum and sisters; taken up Tai Chi; and got the role of George in The Wedding Singer... All in 2 and a bit years.

 

So yeah. Things are going along better than ever, and I have found a great deal of peace within myself.

I am pleased to be no longer as emo as I used to be. lol

I am more in touch with myself now than I think I have ever been. I dont fight things so much, I go with the flow a lot easier, but I also work hard to create the reality I want for myself.

I'm proud of myself for the things I've done and do, and I've healed a lot of crap from my past.

I enjoy my life and I love my friends so much, they have helped bring me back from some of the darkest times in my life.

Being with Mat was toxic, I loved him and sorta still do, and he loved me as much as he could, but it wasn't a healthy relationship, too many drugs, too much stress and depression and shit.

I understand that everybody hurts and every couple has rough patches and stuff, but it just wasn't healthy. Everyone who knows me saw me change so dramatically in the 2 years I was with Mat, and now they see me and can see me smiling again and laughing again. It's good.

I miss him, but at the same time I'm glad. I hope he finds his way out of the darkness, I sincerely do, but I just couldn't let him bring me down anymore.

And I didn't want to be responsible for not being good for him anymore, and thus being responsible for making him worse.

So yeah, that was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, but it was necessary and I was definately being the grown up in that situation. I think.

So I moved back to my mum's. lol

My family will always be there and I hope they realise that i will always be there for them no matter where I am. I love them so much, my sisters are so awesome. *hugs for them*

 

My plans for the future?

Well, for tafe this year we have to record an album, so once I do that I can sell it, and next year I'm going to get another job and work my ass off earning money, while getting vocal training and dance lessons so that I can try out for WAAPA (Western Australian Academy of Performing Arts) in Perth. They do a Bachelor of Arts in Musical Theatre. Sweet!

That's what's motivating me for the next three years, but I'm open to that changing.

 

Anyways. I'll try to update this more often now, and the appearance of the page will probably change.

I also wanna go back and delete old posts that are full of angst and stress.

 

So cha.

Peace and love all.

 

Matty D.

Well, my anticipated trip that I've been waiting for ever since I got the permission form was today. We got on the coach bus (I sat with Sam. ^^) and we drove up to Stratford. It was an hour or two, but oddly enough, it went by quickly.

Once we got off the bus, we were told that we were free to wander around and check out some of the stores in downtown. Sam and Chantal stuck with me, and we went to the Tourist area to grab ourselves a map so we wouldn't get lost. I'm glad I recommended that before doing anything else. I never bought anything. We were actually bored for most of our exploring.

Then we went to see West Side Story at the theater we walked all the way up to for 20 minutes. The performances was so epic!! I loved it! The choreography was amazing, the acting was too - and I loved the musical pieces. I was thinking about my mom the whole time throughout that performance, though (she loves musicals just as much as I do), and I even told her when she picked me up when the bus arrived back at my school that she would have loved it so much. She was disappointed that she never went. She remains determined that, if another musical comes up that I'm going to for another field trip, she's going to - no matter what anybody else says. XD I wish I could've brought her back something...

The third good thing about all this is that I've got a lot of sparking, influence, and inspiration to continue on my Juliet Perspective now. I never worked on it when I was on the bus, but I have most of the weekend to catch up and work on it, which is good.

I wish you all could have came! D: Oh well. ^^ Wish you were all pocket-sized.

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Dixie currently feels:

 Neutral

 

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Blog #90

I likes me some excessive WavePad...

 

 

There's nothing like a bit of excessive WavePad to remove your mind.

 

I've been wanting to make a HUUUUGE music-mash up for a few weeks now.

I recently upped my NEW PLAYLIST from 170 songs to 200.

(I added Vicarious and it became 171. 175 seemed too uneven, so I went for 200)

 

So, I cut 30 seconds from all 200 songs and blended them all together in a music mash-up.

The final file is 1:40:29.

I expected it to be near the 1:40:00 mark, but those damn nanoseconds sure add up. :)

 

My PC actually coped with having 200 music files open at once too.

As I was opening them - there was only ONCE that it jumped and crashed briefly - and that's when THE WHEELCHAIR (LOL!) opened.

Ashleigh was amused when I told her that.

 

She came online today.

Ash only ever comes online when she wants something - and she asked if she could come down tomorrow.

No problem - I've not seen her for over a week, I'm missing her.

 

Good news - Denham is home and he's starting to walk about again.

I was glad to hear he's alright. Denham is proper sound. I was worried about how him being away was affecting Ash too.

 

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I expected this 200 song mash-up to take me about 2 hours.

But no, it took me FIVE.

 

Whatever, it helped me de-stress a little.

Watching lots of green frequency bars jump around is quite theraputic.

My day was actually better than I had anticipated. I was so anxious the whole morning to get my shots done, until I found out something...

If you didn't get a paper/form in the mail, then you didn't have to get the needle. I never got a form in the mail, so I didn't have to get one! :D My day was ten times better and worry-free once I heard that news. The last tetanus shot I had was in 1999, I don't know why I didn't get one...

Unfortunately, I'm probably gonna have to get it sooner than later - and to be honest, part of me deep down wants to get the needle to be on the safe side, you know?

Math was okay, kinda boring. English was pressuring, as we had our Literacy Practice Test and we have to finish fifteen pages - including a written essay and news report - in two periods. But since I have special accommodations for my education plan, I get four periods, if they're needed. :3 But still, it's pretty frustrating. I can't think when I'm forced to do something in such a limited amount of time...
The real test is on April 2nd.

Oh, and also, I'm going to be gone for most of the day on April 17th (I think it was the 17th....) I'm going for a fieldtrip to Stratford, Ontario - otherwise known as the "Shakespearean City", to see "West Side Story" - which is a modern, musical rendition of Romeo and Juliet, which, as you know, we are going to be studying sometime this year. I'm so stoked! :D R&J, is like... My baby. (Well, not LITERALLY, but you know what I mean. :3)

Musicals + R&J/Shakespeare = <333333!!! ^^ I'll take pictures for you all, too - because it's just THAT interesting. :P

History was good. We were given assignments to present a "news report" on a specific battle in World War I. We were split in groups, and I ended up with Kristy and Zac - a boy who would not co-operate or do his work. I'm not going to put in my share, and HIS for him as well - so I told him that he could work by himself. Up to the idea, because he does not get along with Kristy and I, asked my teacher if he could, to which, she agreed. So, now, Kristy and I are working pretty hard on this assignment - Zac is sat at his own desk, not doing a single thing. His loss, not ours.

Computers was good, too. We're working with Microsoft Powerpoint now.

Also, it's my mom's birthday t'day. She turns 39. ^^ We're taking her out for dinner at one of her favourite places.

And also, my dad said to me this morning, "Pray for me, 'cause daddy's going for a job interview today." - I keep wondering how it went. I hope he gets it, for everyone's sake. He's been pretty down ever since he got laid off. :/
And YES, my parents still use "mommy" and "daddy" to me. Guess it's just a thing to keep it in their minds that I'll always be their little baby, or something. Maybe I'll be doing the same thing with my kids when/if I have 'em. Maybe it's a "reassurance" thing, you know?

Toodles! :D

I've been really stressed recently, but I can't pick out anything specific to say what I'm stressed about. I've been losing sleep, and I've been gaining the missed hours of sleep when I get home from school, so then I'm up restless all night. It sucks. D: Sometimes, if I feel really down and low, I go to bed to forget about it and take it away.
I'm also doing a bit of research, to really see if I have a lot of symptoms of PTSD. Meh, we'll see. I've noticed that unfortunate memories of a recent past return to haunt me for hours upon end at night, when I'm lying in bed. I don't know how to erase them; unless I got a complete memory wipe... Half the time while I'm lying there I wish I could just get this "memory wipe" and forget about everything. But I can't. As much as I hate to accept it, it's what's helping me gain experience to continue to be empathetic and in relation to how somebody else feels. I've cried for the past few days now, but I can't tell you for what reason since I have been crying for no apparent reason.

I woke up this morning, and I grew depressed after conversing with mom how Academic English is overly difficult for my mind to handle. I might have to drop to the College level again, which will probably just discourage me.

One of my friends on an online forum I visit on a daily basis told me that "what happens is out of your hands, you're your own independent person and the respect you deserve is something you should think of getting. You sound so negative, but be positive, make new friends - and if people from your past goes off and does whatever, it's no longer your concern. It's their issue now. Don't worry about them."

My friend serves a strong point. Therefore, I'm currently going to continue leaving fragments of my past behind - and I don't care how long, or how painful, it is. I'm going to do it, even if I need aid from buddies. I need to learn how to stop being frozen in my past and I have to warm up to the future that lies ahead of me.
I have a lot of friends on that forum. And I love them all. ^^

But anyway. Not much happened today. As soon as I got at school, I felt instantly lightweight when I saw my friends by the main doors and all that.

For English tomorrow, we're going down to my school's theatre to watch a musical production my school's putting on which is called "McBraveheart". It's a parody off Macbeth, apparently. I'm awaiting it with great excitement. ^^

Musicals + Shakespeare (two of which I adore) = <3!!! :)

I've also gained a strange obsession with llama's now. XDD Thanks to "The Llama Song" (look it up on Youtube or something. XDD) And I was singing parts of it in Computer class and went out into fits of giddy laughter. But that's me for you. :)

And now... I will share a little part of it with you...

I was once a treehouse,
I lived in a cake,
But I never saw the way,
The orange slayed the rake!

LOL! XD I kept singing bits from it, and Becca thought there was something wrong with me. XD

News from... My relatives, I guess! XD Both of my cousins are now officially ENGAGED! :D I`m so happy for them!! ^^ But unfortunately, I don`t think I`ll be able to attend the wedding - since they live in Alberta. I'm only in Ontario. ^^
And the really cute news is, my cousin who has down-syndrome (he's like, 19 now or something) was asked to be the ring bearer guy for a wedding. Isn't that just cute? :)

Anyway, for school, we're getting course/option selection sheets sometime this week and we have to fill them out so the school will know what courses we want to take. I'm thinking about taking a course that has to do with studying the human mind, how it works, etc. But I don`t know. I`m going to look into it some more tonight. I`ll keep you posted, though. :)

Oh, and as you know, I`m reading Hamlet. I was scanning through certain bits and it's REALLY... Sexual. 0.o But, hey, that's Shakespeare for you! :)
But, I guess you'll just have to deal with it! >: D But don't worry, I'm not going to insert anything that seems OVERLY inappropriate. So don't worry. But really, I can't wait until I get this whole Hamlet/Ophelia POV started! :)