Music Is Life @ MindSay

I know that life just isn't fair sometimes. I also know that if you want something, you have to make it happen. Nothing that is worth having comes without a fight.

 

Yes, I am still trying to get over her, dammit!

 

Tell me something, how does it happen someone tells you they love you for 3 years and one day, its over? What happened to that love? Where did it go?

 

Funny thing, seems the music in my life always fits what is going on in my life, always fits my mood. I mean like even playing on the radio, of course music I play fits, because I pick it, lol. I like most music, I can listen and enjoy almost anything, from Rob Zombie,metalocalypse to Garth Brooks and shania twain, lol.

 

What played on the radio yesterday that was so fitting, Here I go again by Whitesnake. I am on a training course right now, 4 hours from home, and I had to drive here, on a long road I have been on many times before to. Just like my life, I use to travel this road with the help of others, then one day I had to strike out and travel it alone. It was scary, but I made it to where I had to go. I had to travel this road many more times since then but it never gets any easier. I have learnt alot along the way though. Take your time, take things slow and be safe. You can never trust the other drivers. Or the other people in the case of my life. So, this is what it comes down to I guess, I am losing faith in people.

 

I don't think it is so much losing this girl as it is just being alone again, I knew our relationship was in trouble for sometime, just seems I am going down this road alot.

 

Anyway, I am tired and going back to sleep.

If I had a nickel for every time I said or thought 'I'm bored' I'd be a trillionaire! Could it be I haven't found my passion? Am I simply not experiencing life? Am I watching it fly by? Do I need a new location to help me experience life or does it even matter where one is?

 

Everything is lapidary[or set in stone]...the same..routine. I need a rush. I'm just rotting away slowly. I guess that's why my mother continues to proclaim she's dying. I want a life far different from hers. Her daily schedule, as well as mine, pretty much centers around the insertion and removal of food, talking, working, and sleeping. [only I seemed to have lost most of my sleep cycle]

 

I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen when I  should be the one making things happen. Good moments in life are limited. I wish the next one would just happen already because I'm lost in this world of monotony.

 

Honestly, without music I don't know where I'd be. Music is the gift in My So-Called Life.

Editor's Note: This is my new piece for the poetrychallenge  , the regularly scheduled Blog has been posponed until I have a chance to write it. K? So, I shall include the poetry thing here for all to read...

Ticking away...

The rhythm of life -
The beat in the street -
The symphony of a storm -
The tapping of the feet...

The song of the birds -
The beating of a heart -
The whistling of the wind -
Let the music start...

Every brief instance in time
Is another passing of the second hand,
Every joyous cry of young
Is another reason to strike up the band...

And I sit here all alone listening
To the world that surrounds me,
My mind soaks it all in
From the rain outside to activities as yet unseen...

Life is the greatest composer of them all
And the music it creates is above compare
And I rejoice in its glory
Whilst I sit upon this wore out chair...

And another day comes
And another day passes,
The symphony continues
To entertain the masses...

mood: very content

music: "reptilia" the strokes

 

Life is good. I like it alot.