Move On @ MindSay 
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This poem's about a victim in an abusive relationship. It's one of the things that I'm passionate about - be it woman's abuse, child abuse, or animal cruelty. I wrote it for all those young women (and men! Men can be stuck in them too, but not as often) out there who are struggling within the hardships of an abusive relationship - be it a verbal one, a physical one, or a sexual one. You can get out, and you AREN'T alone. Nobody deserves to be treated in that way, by ANY means. Nothing is your fault, and you CAN move on without your partner - even if it is with great difficulty.
Here we go... Meh, all I can say is I hope you enjoy this. =/ Oh, and this is to make up to Bonnie. ^^ Since I can't think of anything for the victory topic. :P
OH, W00T, YOU GUYZ. This made top blogs! >: D Thanx so much! ^^ <3 u all!
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You
You showered me with compliments.
[And I bathed within them…]
You said nothing would ever tear us apart.
[And I agreed…]
You made me feel like I was dreaming.
[Or was something else coming…?]
Then, as we got further into things, it all started to change.
[I only just turned twenty, you know…]
You treated me with disrespect.
[I thought I deserved it…]
You treated me like I deserved hell.
[Do you remember when you said you wanted me dead…?]
You took me by the wrists, slammed me hard against the wall.
[The bruises are still there, you know…]
You spat insults at me as I crumbled to the ground.
[I believed them…]
You pressured me for sex.
[And I succumbed to it…]
You threatened me.
[I grew afraid and promised I wouldn’t go…]
You toyed with my mind.
[And left me lost…]
And you played with my emotions.
[To believe I couldn’t live without you…]
You lied to me.
[And lost my trust…]
You blamed me for things that weren’t even my fault.
[When all along, they were yours…]
I thought I deserved better.
[You said I already have the best…]
You used my words against me.
[Why must you keep pointing your finger at me…?]
I said I couldn’t take it anymore.
[You claimed that you did nothing…]
When you saw me packing my bags, you clung desperately to me.
[And whispered into my ear how much you loved me…]
And I said I loved you, too…
…
…Save me from this hell…
…I can’t resume this abuse…
…I won’t show the scars…
…Proof of when you let loose…
…People say there is life after all this pain…
…I don’t know how much more I can take…
…I’ll silence my screams of agony…
…And my wails and cries of how much my body aches…
…It’s only a matter of time before you break…
…Until then, I’ll ignore the bruises…
…Faded red, yellow, purple, and blue…
…And I’ll surely overuse the excuses…
…Through tear filled eyes, I’ll embrace you tonight.
…I’ll sing a silent song…
…I’ll plead to God, asking for a day…
…Where I can forget this nightmare that’s been haunting me for so long…
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January 31st, 2009 -:- Emily Gabrielle Fieldus.
I have to say, I have always been sort of an ass, people seemed to always look up to me and seemed to expect me to lead and make all the decisions etc. I think I started taking a lot of the people in my life for granted. Relationships came easy, and went easy. I felt like no one I knew was as smart as me.
Now, I find I am not getting much attention from anyone anymore, guess I am getting what I deserved. No one is calling, people are avoiding me. I guess, I don't care, maybe it just means it is time from me to move on, move somewhere else and start another life, I am not sure.
I don't want any sympathy, I know what I have to do, just have to not be obnoxious and self-centered anymore. I just felt like I needed to come clean, that is all.
IMOVE WITH ONE THOUGHT
i move with one heart
i move with all my strength
but am i really telling the truth
beacuse my mind is so confuzed with all these thoughts
to walk is jsut a primarial instinct
and my strength fails me most frequently
but ill still move on
although my held up head may falter
and my thoughts may wonder
i must still go on
pretending in this sherade
everthings fine, ill find my own time to shine
but for now ill still move one
help you through
no need to worry
ive only let my gard down
a couple moments in time...in time
So i move with one thought
i move with one heart
i move with all my strength
or at least ive been trained so well
that it just seems so
for its just an act
just another role to play, my set time on stage
my life just a script, this solitary page
blank and white and pristine in its innocence
thats how you will see it
to me
i see
i remember
some of the thoughts
that this page hoped to hold,
and deliver to the world
woven throught time
just keep on moving
on
and
on
ive set my foot on the concrete line
and looked over the imaginary edge
that one we will defiantly remember,
when the end of the concrete starts
and
so just to make sure
i move with one thought
i move with one heart
i move with all my strength
but am i really
just barely
just holding
on
just moving because i must
or have i
will i
did i
ever
plan and write my life
on a
single
solitary
page
reluctent to deliver to the world.
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