Mom Stuff @ MindSay

Everytime I have a conversation with my mom, I realize all over again how racist she is. She was telling me about a shopping trip with my daughter and how they were the only white people in the store and she was glad they weren't there after dark. I just got done telling Rich that we need to limit the time the kids spend with their grandma because I don't want my kids to grow up thinking it is okay to judge people by the color of their skin. My mom and I are so totally different that it is hard to believe we are related. I am glad that I am who I am and I did not let her closed mind effect me. I wouldn't have half the people I know in my life if it were as closed as hers.

this was a reply to onewalrus's entry, but it was way too fun to leave in comments.  so here it is.  kid stuff.

1. "MOMMY I THINK YOU NEED TO WEAR A PAD" [loudly in the women's restroom]
2. eating butter
   
3. wearing stockings so I can take off my dress to swing, but getting in trouble anyway
4. dirty songs to the tune of "say say oh playmate"
5. [after meeting dad's new girlfriend] "Hey dad, um, are you having sex with her?"
6. being afraid to sleep unless the bed is next to the wall in case a polar bear comes up the side of the bed and eats my back
7. being afraid to sleep when the bed is against the wall in case a daddy longlegs comes out
8. swallowing the second loose tooth in a burrito and having to draw a picture of it for the tooth fairy
9. "I'm FREAK-AYY" [while dancing horribly suggestively next to mom's second ex-fiance]
10. "Hey mom, where's the dick?" [short for dictionary, promptly chastised]
11. singing along with Madonna and whispering the word "bitch" in "Human Nature" until mom says it's okay
12. discreetly flipping off mom while she is sitting on the toilet, and being grounded when she notices
13. arguing with friends about how to flip people off, and whether or not pointing your middle finger at someone is flipping off god
14. "YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO ME!!!!!" [screaming and crying after friends decide that my FACTUAL statement--that everyone dreams several times during sleep due to rapid eye movement--is not worth listening to]
15. mom's ex-fiance's hick brother: "So, Megan, what are you learning in school?" me: "Oh today we learned that the sun is a big burning ball of gas that will eventually burn itself out.  That's when the world will end."
16. "Hey mom, the crust of this pot pie is like the crust of the Earth, and the inside is like magma."
17. recording "commercials" on the little answering machine tape recorder, as well as me singing along to "Roam" by the B-52s
18. running away when mom wants me to practice piano before watching tv, making up an excuse that mom "squirted pen ink in my eye," running all the way to west bay drive, almost causing an accident, getting picked up by some hippies, taken back home, spoken to by the cops
19. running away from sleepover at friend's new house because it's haunted
20. rolling down hills of ivy
21. playing baseball and hitting a line drive right into a tree
22. hitting tennis balls over the court fence while playing with older kids, and then getting mad and indignant when they say that's not how to play
23. wanting to know what fainting is like, trying multiple ways, including hitting self on the head with a shoe, finally giving up

i feel like a horrible child. in about fifteen hours my mom is going to be sitting in the kitchen. she'll hear me get up and smile because she'll know i'm coming out of my room to give her a mother's day present. and what is this wounderful thing going to be? i have no freakin idea. now my mom isn't expecting anything showy or flashy...she's not that kind of gal. she really likes the simple stuff that no one else would think was cool, like the one year i made her a crossword puzzle with all the clues being inside jokes between us.

 

i really love my mom. more than anything. she's my best friend, she's always been there for me and i know she always will. we laugh, we cry, we fight, we hug. she is such an amazing mother, but more than that she's a wounderful person. strong, thoughtful, smart, loving, patient-the kind of person i want to be.

 

i think the problem is that i can't think of a way to convey how much i love her and how much i appreciate everything she does for me and our family, ya know? and know is the best time to do it since i'll be leaving soon for college. she's all sorts of sad about that. damn. this sucks.

 

do you think i could just show her this blog? haha. no.

With the idea of marrying the man I love I first must overcome my first road block on that pather of happiness.   That road block: my mom.

 

I've already have an issue on trying to figure out what to say to her to tell her that I want to marry this man.  Then, yesterday we had a talk.  She doesn't think that we will last because she knows me and knows what bothers me and what will get on my nerves because she raised me.  But she only brought up stuff that bothered her about him, like the way he eats, but not stuff that bothered me. 

 

Then, and this drove me nuts, she said we weren't ment to be because I never called her saying that he takes my breath away and that I want to give myself up to him even before marrage.  If only she knew, that I've been trying to fight against my physical feelings for him because I was afraid she would flip out if she found out even what we do now together( don't worry we are still holding back sex until we are married).  I've just never been big on talking about this stuff with her for fear of not being her perfect daughter.  I always get mixed messages from her, I don't know if she wants me to be little miss perfect or if she wants me to be the rebel like she was when she was my age.

 

I also love the "I don't want you to miss the true guy you are ment to be with because this boy is convenient".  Anyone who reads this would probably notice that he's not convenient, we really have to work to get to gether and to be sure that we are keeping each other happy.  She also wanted me to get out of looking at the church guys and date someone outside of church and bring some guy to church.  Yeah, there is nothing wrong with doing something like that, but why do that when the guy I love is there.  What is so wrong with dating someone in the church? 

 

Actually she is the only person who really seems to be agains me and my guy being together, everyone else, though they don't know that we are thinking about getting married in october, seems to think that we are good for each other.  I think we are good together and I thank God for allowing me to have such and experiance with him and I pray that we will get to spend the rest of our lives together so we can experiance a lot more. 

that i HATE my mom. ok so i am in pre-calc and right now we are revisiting stuff that i learned in my trig class last year, and i dont throw away my notes because i know that i will need them eventually. well around a month or two ago my mom went through my old room and like completely rearranged everything. and well i was like wtf mom. and she said that all she did was reorganized the book case. so i was like whatever. there is this thing in there that i have kept papers and artwork and all that krap in. so tonight i went to get my old trig notes out of that drawer and what do i find? FUCKING NOTHING! omg, my mom went through there and threw everything away. i am so fucking pissed right now. y cant my mom just leave my shit alone! omg i totally hate her. i just wanna grr. i mean seriously i do NOT go through her shit and just throw it away. and i just grr. and i know that i will freak on her tomorrow about it and she wont give a rats ass becuase she is one of the most selfish ppl i kno. who cares if missy will get upset, just as long as mom is happy. omg i fucking HATE this! i am under way to much stress for my mom to be a fucking whore! ahhhhh

god damn it

i hate being in a bad mood so much, and all i want to do is punch something really hard.