Mitch @ MindSay

Today was Mikko's 18th birthday^_^ :D it was alot of fun. Today started out with Chris's mom calling me at 11am ish telling me the plans for later on (will get to this later on). I then got up and called mikko, and told him I'd call in an hour for him to come over. So, then i got some breakfast, and hurried to finish the scrapbook. Once i was done, i called him up. After he called me, cole then asked if she could come over, and she did. before mikko came over, i grabbed a slab of cake my mom had made the other day, stuck some candles in it, and waited for mikko and cole to arrive. Cole arrived first, and mikko came moments later. before he entered my room, cole made him stop in the hallway so i could light the candles:P once they were lit I sang happy birthday and he blew them out:P for an hour or so the 3 of us just hung out, ate cake, and i gave mikko his present^_^

at about 3:30,  cole left to cassy's. Mikko and I couldn't go over to chris's yet, so we just kinda cuddled and such. he wanted to leave at 4:30, but i made sure we didn't leave till after 5, because that's when everything would be ready at chris's. Once we got to chris's, we (samara, kyle, mitch, chris, chris's mom and I) all shouted surprise and sung happy birthday. Then we had pizza, and saved the cake for later.

About an hour later at 6, we went to the movies and saw Never back down, which was good. we had an hour and a half we had to waste before the movie, but that's okay. We all got back at chris's at 10:20, and I left around 11, and now I am at home:P

So in all it was a really good day. He liked the scrapbook, as did everyone that saw it^_^ And I promise i will add the pictures of it on in a few days for everyone to see.

anyways, im kinda tired, so off to bed with me. Nighty night.

-:DKristal:D

Well this weekend has been good to me again..kind of. All of this weekend all ive been doing is hagning out with friends..constantly. On friday Kara and Cassy came and slept over...good times:P I must of listened to the song "discovery channel" by Eifel 65 30 times:|:P lol but thats okay i like that song anyhow:) We ended up sleeping in my tiny room..i ended up pulling the matress off my bed and onto the floor. Kara slept on the bottom part of the bed, which is mainly compased of boards on the bottom, which was uncomfortable for her, unfortunately. Cassy slept on the matress, and i slept on the floor between the matress and the door..i had a 3 feet wide space to sleep in that night lol. It was all good though..i actually got around 6 hours of sleep  

On saturday everyone went over to mitch's mom's place to sleep over..it was so weird:P His mom called me "Emo" even though she doesnt know what it means:P:| I wasnt really offended though..cause like i said she doenst even know what it means. All of saturday the main part of the group (which conmsists of me, cassy, kara, nigel, mitch and kyle) hung out then slept over at mitch's place. The guys slept down in the basement, and the girls slept upstairs in mitch's sister's room. It was really funny becaus ein the morning when the girls work eup we went downstairs and talked to the guys for a while, then mitch's mom came down and said "It's weird..I was worried about the girls and guys mixed together being a problem, but I should have been more worried about all of the guys!:P" lol. She said that cause the guys always joke around and say sexual things about each other:P Also, we were playing truth or dare at 2am and nigel and kyle ended up having to strip down to their boxers and dance around:P lol.

Sunday was Canada day (happy Canada day by the way..even though its a little late:P) The group ended up going to the marina to watch the fireworks late at night, then sleep over at Cassy's. The group had to take the bus both to and from the marina, which was kinda of nerve racking for most of us when we had to go home, because we were afraid of getting mugged or soemthing. I was a bit scared, i must admit, but I knew i would be okay because Nigel has ty-kwon-doe (sp?) training and he could kick the living shit out of anyone..seriously. lol but in the end we all made it to Cassy's alive. When we got there we watched saw 2 and 3, and then at 5am  me, kara, nigel, and kyle got up and went to the baseball feild to watch the sun rise. It was really nice, but we didnt really watch it...we ended up making up a country song...well actually mainly nigel did lol. It was abput how kyle was nigels dad/neice/nefew and hopw he had sex or soemthing with kara who is ni9gels mom/sister/boyfriend lmao. You had to be there i guess, but it was funny:P Thats night i only got about 2 hours of sleep..when all of us got back we hung out for an hour but at around 7:15 am nigel left to robins donuts for a coffee and all of us fell asleep. Once eveyone got up we jsut talked and stuff..and just before i left all the guys were having a marshmallow fight:P lol. so that was prertty fun.

However, despite being there with my friends, i still am suffering from depression. I have done very little thinking about it (usually i think aboput my depression so i can better understand it) but because ive been hanging out with friends so much my depression can interfere at times. Sometimes ill just sit out rom everyone sitting down somewhere and try to think about it. I end up bumming people out which i really dont want to:( Today im just spending the day to think about this and to try to understand why i am feeling like this, cause even i am confused.

Anyways thats all for now, byebye

-:(Kristal:)  

hey

So the last 2 days were my exam days. Yesterday was my english exam..it was actually very long. We had full scap (sp?) paper (for you guys that don't know what that is, that is basically like normal 3-holed paper except its the size of that with an extra hole.. i guess thats the best way i can descibe it) and we had to write ALL answers on there double spaced, with only using 1 side of the paper. In total i had 11 sheets:| Originally that exam was going to be 1 hours 30min to write, but mrs. marks switched it around an made it different so we got 2 hours to write it, but by the 2 hour point there was like 3 people including me left in the room so mrs. marks just told us to finish up..so in all it took me 2 hours 10min to write that exam, and i was the 2nd last one to leave. After that exam i headed to westmount..originally to see the teachers, but it didnt work out that way. When i got there i saw kyle and mitch sitting off the side of the feild, so i talked to them, and they told me that one of the teachers threatened to call the cops, so we sat there for a few minutes, then we headed to mitchs to gte food cause kyle and mitch were starving to death (i was a bit hungry). When we got there we ate perogies..mitch and kyle had like 7 each while i had 3:P lol. afterwrads we did some karaoke, and headed over to cassys place. I ened up hanging out there till 9pm, and at one point there was around 11 people at her house . It was a lot of fun though:)

Today things were a little more fucked up though. Today was my geography exam. Now, this exam was EASY. it was around 130 marks, and the first 98 questions were multiple choice, matching, and true and false, and all we had to do for those 98 questioins was put an X in a box provided. as for the last 40 or so marks it was drawing a line to a place on a map and labeling it with a letter to show what it descibes, and short answer questions, so it wanst too bad. We had 1 hour 30 min to write that exam and it took me an hour and 10 minutes. After i was done i went to westmount: i was determined to see the teachers regardless. I needed this closure. The very first adult i saw there was Mr. Tozer..he is a custodian. I asked him if he recognized me and he said no, so i got my mp3 out and showed him a picture of me from grade 8..then he remembered me (his exact words were: "oh my goodness! ") lol so yea after i showed him that he recognized me:P The next person i saw was mrs. nutley, my grade 8 teacher. She didnt say much..said hi, hows it going, and of course "oh, you changed your hair". Not exactly the shock i was expecting, but thats alright. The nest adult i saw after that would be Mrs. Robinson..my original grade 4 teacher back at heath park, but after heath she worked at westmount. She was so happy to see me she gave me a hug..i found that a little bit awkward i must admit..She was really nic and asked me how things were going, and she said "oh you changed your hair" kind of like mrs. nutley said, but in sort of a nicer tone. It was good to see her again. 

Now, after mrs. robinson, i saw my old principal, mr. macleod. THIS is when my day started fucking up. When i saw him he said "Whats with the dark hair...and the dark clothing? Why are you gothic? Do you live in a castle?" I didnt show any offence to him, infact i even joked around and said, "Yes, i do live in a castle." After he said this he just got off that subject completely and started telling me to stay and school and whatever. after i talked to him i went outside and met up with people..they were having this family picnic this at westmount so me, kara, cassy, nigel, kyle, mitch, and others all went to it and sat with eachother and ate pizza and whatnot. After a while i went and looked for more teachers..i found Miss. Wisnuk..she was originally my frnech teacher in grade 4 at heath park, but then went to westmount. She asked me if my hair due was done on purpoes. This fucking pissed me off so bad..i was already pissed off cause of mr. macleod but after her i nearly freaked out on her..i just said "yea, it was done on purpoes" and walked away. After a while me, mitch, nigel, kyle and brendon stayed around for a bit, but eventually got kicked off the school grounds once the play day thinger started. All of us went to wayland park for a bit, but then i had to go to voulnteer at pinewood, so i did my volunteering then went back to my place to i could drop some stuff off and what-not, then went to cassys. I hung out at her place tiull 7:30, and then came home for supper. But when i got home, my dad flipped out on me: my friend Nigel had had black lipstick there, so i used it to be weird, and when my dad saw me he started flipping out and judging me and him, so i defended myself and got bitched at some more. I went upstairs for a bit too cool off and to eat some supper, and then my mom burst in and said that i looked like a 25 cent hooker, and said i coukdnt go out ack to cassys like i asked to sleep over. i went downstairs and my dad stated calling me a prositute and said to go wash it off or im grounded, so i went upstairs, closed the bathroom door, sat on the toilet seat and broke down. i took all the stuff off, then  calmed myself down enough for me to go downstairs and grab the phone. i called up cassy and told her everything, while sobbing. She helepd me calm down enough so that when she got Nigel to phone me i could actually carry out a conversation. The phone calls really calmed me down, and made me feel much beter. I dont know about laughter, but i say friends are truely the best medicine:) But even so, with everything (not just insults) going on in my life right now, im pretty damn certain that im in another low of depression. Heres a song that truely describes me in almsot every way, sept for the gender (song is called man that you fear so...). Heres a link to the video. The song itsealf is incredable, but with the video, wow. Just wow. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=367fL1F_Myc

also, heres the lyrics to the song, if ayone cares:   http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/marilynmanson/manthatyoufear.html

well thats ll for now, bye

-:)Kristal:(

Mitch,

My new blog heading picture is just for you. Others know the main story but you were the one involved!

Its not the same as "the story" but you get the main idea!

Enjoy my dear, and Merry Christmas !

(This one too ....)

Oh my god! I just realized how perfect this picture actually is! The only thing wrong with it is that the snowman doing the robbing should be empty handed because I got him with the blowdryer.

Ahhhh memories!