Mistakes @ MindSay

I am now 30.  I have yet learned to do things properly from the beginning.

I was making a purse/bag last night and skipped several steps - ironing my fabric, measuring twice and cutting once.  Now I get to redo the whoooole thing.  Grrrr........

Maybe that'll be my goal before I turn 31 - to learn from my mistakes.

But the fabric is really cool - it's black with grey spiders and spiderwebs.  I got it from the Hallowe'en section, but it's gonna be an everyday bag.

tuesday july 22nd 2008. The best day of my life.

We saw each other again. Everything came back. The words. The feelings. The moments. The memories. The kisses. We made love the way we were always meant to. I was the most naked I'd ever been, and I don't mean physically.

 

I was so scared. Afterwards, I didn't know what to think. I thought I'd made another mistake. I thought I had been used. I thought it meant nothing to him, when all I wanted was to be his everything.

 

Today. Today I made him believe that I had found someone else. Today I lied in my despair to get him back. I just ended up pushing him further away. I cried as I finally spilled it all. I told him I wanted him back. I told him I missed him. I told him I loved him. I set it all out on the line. I believe I was rejected.

 

I don't know if I really lost him forever. I sent him the most revealing email. Pride is nothing but a memory to me now. He's going on a trip with his family and he gets back this tuesday. He said he'd call. I don't know what will happen.

 

If anyone is reading this, I'm lost. And I'm begging for any type of advice. I want him back, and I don't know what to do. Please. If there's anything I could do, I'll do it. I've made mistakes and I'm willing to pay the price, but I'm also more than willing to fix them, because I know that they're fixable (don't know if that's a word).

 

This is a plea to anyone out there. Any who may be reading this. Please help. Please.

Hello, dear reader.  I'm Maria.  And I'm starting this, because my friend and I have decided that we've made a lot of mistakes.  We've made so many, in fact, and they are so strange and unbelievable that I cannot keep silent any longer.  I'm going to tell you, my dear reader, all of them. 
I hope you enjoy, because it's been not only stressful, but amazing, and in the sheer bizzare nature of it all, I've had a lot of fun; a lot of heart ache; a lot of laughs.
I'm looking forward to you having fun, too. 

So, three of the four geocaches I placed yesterday were found today.  The coordinates were reportedly right on... except for the fourth one.... a single number... entered as a zero instead of a nine... made a difference on our little globe- of 547 feet!  That will teach me to check and double check before the cache is published... sheesh. 

Oh well, my list has not been accomplished, but curling up in bed with my husband seems a priority right now.  Lately I've been crawling into bed late - and chilled... to be greeted by grumbles and startled jumps if I come close enough to thaw in the radiant heat of his body.  I try standing in front of the heater- but warm takes on a richer meaning under the covers.  No need to stay up - tomorrow will be here before I know it.... luckily we have a workday tomorrow- no kids.... a day's reprieve to ease into the familiar routine for the final quarter.  It's all downhill from here!

Oops, just thought of a couple must do tasks before I turn out the lights...... outta here!

Golden Oldie

All men make mistakes,
but married men
find out about them sooner.  

-Red Skelton  
Quotes of the Day
Friday the 13th, 2001