Miraan @ MindSay 
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Dixie currently feels:
Neutral
(That smiley looks more sarcastic than neutral...)
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Dixie's current top ten songs:
1) (F)lannigan's Ball - Dropkick Murphys
2) Let The Fire Fall - Virginia Creeper
3) Koi No Megalover - Maximum The Hormone
4) Follow The Wolves - Demon Hunter
5) Chu Chu Lovely... - Maximum The Hormone
6) Science Genius Girl - Freezepop
7) Mann Gegen Mann - Rammstein
8) Only This Moment - Royksopp
9) Johnny, I Hardly Knew Ya - Dropkick Murphys
10) Southpaw - Double You
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Oh, I don't know what I can say about today.
First lesson, IT - I was in there for only about 15 minutes, then I went to my appointment with Parry. That was alright, I got to get some stuff off my chest.
Second lesson, English - We were doing practise exam questions, and she HAD to pick the dodgiest questions ever. Some of them, I looked at and went blank. I pray that the questions in the exam coming up are more reasonable...
Third lesson, Science - This was alright, we were just revising for the upcoming exams, so I just read through section B6 in my textbook.
Fourth lesson, Maths - This is where I got seriously pissed off. I felt so sick and tired, I just put my head down on the desk, I couldn't understand a single sentence of the work she was explaining to us. I don't know if I fell asleep or not - but as she went bpast my table, she proper screamed at me to wake up.
Naturally, I shit myself, but raised my head, proper glaring like fuck at the silly cow.
Scott stood up for me though - he told her that I was feeling sick - which I was, considering I've had a stomach upset all night.
Fifth lesson, Media Studies - The final session down the CLC, I just sat with Stephen, listening to stuff on music sites, because we didn't really have anything planned for our final day on the project, it was just an optional, I decided not to do it.
Anyway.
In the library after school, I sat with Stephen, Jamie, Pips and Miraan - and we just discussed random stuff.
I was partially listening, because I was working on this:
Another wonderful drawing of #1263. :)
- Which shall be posted up to DeviantArt soon, too.
Speaking of #1263, I've been working on the first chapter: Perserverance.
I've wrote #1263:TB in such a manner, the chapters can be read in any order.
So I write them in a weird order.
But I'm starting to want to start posting it up to FPC, so I'm going to have to do them in order.
Perserverance is one of the hardest chapters to write, though.
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This noble knight is standing in wait for her fair maiden to return.
Dixie currently feels:
Neutral
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Ah, it's been a long time.
Blog, I have neglected you so.
So, the last time I blogged was exactly a week ago.
So what eventful has happened this past week?
- Well, I've completed Parappa The Rapper. I still need to get the 'cool' ranking on level 6 before I can unlock the bonus level. - Which is hard, because the music of level 6 is really hard to follow.
I don't know if it's my eyes - but my font looks weird today.
It doesn't look right...
Oh well, we'll cope. It's Arial red, it's supposed to be my font, anyway.
Through the week at school, it's only been revision, because the exams are starting this Friday with the first one.
My first one is in a week's time - and then I have three weeks of exams.
One thing though, I've got out of my depressional spiral.
I'm not harming every day like I was.
I'm not crying as much.
I seem to be crying more and more as I get older.
Maybe that's just the stress adding to things.
And I've made up my friendships with both Stephen and Claire - we were all sat together today in the library talking - poking pencils through a pear, before we lobbed it at Carl, and it shattered all over the place.
- And we got shouted at for that, too.
Then I started licking my hand, because it tasted nice, and Pips was filming me really close up on her phone - and it looks really pornographic and wrong.
She's threatened to put it on YouTube - but if she does, I'll kick her teeth in. :)
I walked home with Pips and Miraan - and I ate some leaves off the trees.
I wish I hadn't though, because I've got an upset stomach now.
I've had to use the bathroom twice, so far - but the first time, the spicy salaminis I ate last night sorta repeated on me. - How it burned, and how I whined.
The leaves were horrible - the green ones all got stuck in my teeth, and Miraan moaned at me because I kept spitting.
I wasn't spitting AT him though!
Adam stayed over on Saturday just passed.
I have this little water game I won in a 2p machine in Southend, and I took the plug off the back, and I went to flick it at him, but it never came out.
So he got it off me, cornered me in the gap between my bed and the wardrobe and poured it on my face.
I was sad.
Then he kept getting me with the water pistol I stupidly filled up.
Either way - I watched him get right to the final area on Resident Evil 3 - we decided to start again, seeing as how we knew where everything was this time.
He's left it here, in my PS1, and I wanna play it. but I'm scared. :)
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Today's song lyrics:
Only This Moment - Royksopp
Forces within me, makes reason with lust...
But I try to accept it and not think it works...
Because I know I might lose you by taking the chance...
But love without pain isn't really romance...
Only this moment... (Holds us together)...
Close to perfection... (Nothing is out there)...
Always beside us... (Trusting my senses)...
Deep down inside... (I know I will survive)...
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Dixie currently feels:
Depressed
(Well what else is new...?)
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Yesterday was a bank holiday Monday, so I spent the day at Adam's house.
We played a few songs on Guitar Hero III co-op, and got him a couple of groupie points.
Then he burnt me Parappa The Rapper, and I tried it out, did the first few levels, and got the "U Rappin' Cool!" rank on level 1.
When I got home though, I kept failing level 1.
Which was annoying...
Almost as annoying as the fact that memory card slot 1 is broken on my chipped Playstation, so I'll never be able to save PTR, because it will only save to slot 1.
Anyway though.
We sat around drinking Cherry Coke, eating Oreos and sweets - milk bottles and cherry cola bottles - then crisps and salted peanuts.
Adam then suggested he get out the old PS1 and we play Resident Evil 3.
Of course, he played it, I watched and offered my hints. :)
It was great fun actually.
The weird thing was though, every time I seemed to speak - something would happen.
And this happened like five times - every time I started talking, either zombies would jump out of cars, dogs would jump out of windows, or Nemesis would burst out of a door.
Today's been shit though.
It's weird though - I don't think I've done ANY schoolwork today.
- OMFG THERE'S A SPIDER ON THE WALL BEHIND MY MONITOR...
...But yes.
Umm...
Lesson 1 - IT, exam prep, I'm not doing the exam again, I had nothing to do, I went on FPC.com.
Lesson 2 - English, revision, I didn't do a lot, just listened and read.
Lesson 3 - Science, Cowley just talked us through our coursework.
Lesson 4 - Maths, Wilson wasn't even there, we were down in humanities 2, and Miraan, Amanda and I just played hangman for like the whole hour.
Lesson 5 - Media studies, down the CLC, Sam and I just sat there playing hangman on the PC, because we can't really do an awful lot on our project.
Though, I felt depressed all day.
Just listening to a certain set of people who used to be friends with me until they met each other - talking and laughing down the aisle next to me.
So I cut myself a little bit.
At dinnertime, I did my left, and I did my right after school.
Which was a bad time to do it, because as Mrs Mac was talking to me, she took me by the right wrist - as she often does when she talks to people - but she pressed her fingers right into the fresh cuts, and it KANED.
So I just stood there wincing, trying to keep silence, despite how much it hurt.
Tomorrow I have to go and see those people, and I'm not looking forward.
At least mother isn't coming.
Sigh...
Dixie currently feels:
Despairing 
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Good things about today:
- We had a fire drill at break, and got 10 minutes extra because of it, hence, missing 10 minutes of Science.
- Science was a piss easy lesson.
- I got my results for my Science resit exam; an A, so I'm quite pleased.
- I got another bit of #1263 artwork finished in the library.
- I came home and played iSketch with Miraan, Adam, Ayshea and Stephen. It was fun, we had laughs.
- I talked to Adam for ages over MSN, sending each other really hilarious sound files.
- I laughed so much at a screenshot from our iSketch game, I almost crapped my pants. - Really, I was totally touching cloth. :)
[Though you may ask what's good about that one, I like to laugh, regardless of the consequences.]
Bad things about today:
- Results of my ICT exam, totally not happy. Two grades lower than I wanted.
- Thus, I have now given up on ICT.
- Thus, making only 3 out of 9 subjects that I still give a shit about.
- Coursework deadlines are indeed, stressing me out.
- I was tired throughout the whole day.
- I cried down my aisle after school, but Sammie comforted me.
- Claire is ignoring me. She seems really angry at me, and I don't know what I've done. I think she doesn't like me anymore.
- Emily isn't back... I haven't heard from her at all. No Mindsay comments, no emails, no anything...
...Where is my darling Emilpops......?