he's gone, and you know what? i feel better.
want to know why?
well... it starts with denagh.
she took me to a metaphysical store.
it was amazing in there, honestly, i felt so comfortably and at home.
and it smelled amazing lol
but i was there to find a deck of tarot cards
denagh said i had to find the one that really calls to me
there were all sorts of them
one i liked because the artwork was very pretty
but when i read the box
it just talked about how it was designed by the top of the line computer software
blegh
and then i found one that really interested me
it's called the revelations tarot and i absolutely love it
well i got that, and then denagh explained my 'situation' to samantha, the store lady
they both suggested burning some candles to help let go and gave me the right colors
blue to ease emotional hurt, red for him,
orange to give me energy to not just be all blegh about it,
white to send him off with my blessing
and yellow to call someone to my life who will bring sunshine with them
well as soon as i got home i read my new cards
it explained me exactly. i'm talking like scary accurate
they all pointed to the end of one journey/era/part in my life to the beginning of a new
they told me my obstacles were my shitty home life
but i have someone there to nurture me and give me strength and a positive role model, totally denagh
it said love or balance was in my future, but to aviod immediate relationships
i swear it was the most amazing thing
i love my deck =)
and then before i went to bed i burnt all my candles but one
i left out the yellow because i need to anoint it with some oil first, denagh has it
so i burned the blue, red, white, and orange
and this morning... i feel great!
i'm not sad, even though the guy i might have loved is gone
all i remember is how well he treated me, but not enough to be longing for it
it honestly feels like a great weight has been lifted off my shoulders
and you know what... trevor doesn't even believe in magic anyway.
but i do.
