Messed Up @ MindSay

I swear Im accident prone...

I've had this back injury since febuary. and I've been going to physio since july (because cassidy finally forced me to lol). and its usually pretty good for 2 weeks. but yesterday at practise when wrestling with a rookie who was 10 kg heavier it REALLY started to hurt....and that pain hasnt gone away....

and then today during band class we were in the practise rooms and peter cimone says something that caused me to want to hit him....so i did....sort of....I ment to hit his shoulder but he moved and i punched the wall....quite hard. So I hit my right hand pointer and middle knuckles and they were all red and sore. The pain in the pointer finger has gone down since. But I think I may have messed up my middle knuckle...theres something sticking out sort of, and it hurts; no swelling though...

anyways theres an x-mas concert tonight. thankfully chris isnt in everything less then i am acctualy :). im in orchestra, concert band and junior band. he's only in orchestra and concert band....so we'll be able to see eachother tonight lol.

last night him and i were supposed to hangout but his mother decided that he had to help decorate the christmas tree. no big deal right? well thne around 7:30 when they were going to start his sister decides to take a shower. no big? wrong. she took at 40 minute shower. spent 20 minutes watching tv. and then did her hair. but nooo chris cant hang out. his mom can be quite the bitch.

lol wow..

Miller

            Today I briefly emceed and introduced a meeting for teams that are planning to go to Guatemala in June and August of this year.  I said, “Let’s begin by praying”—and then couldn’t speak.  I was on the verge of tears and had to compose myself.  I made it through the brief introduction and then introduced the leader, fighting back tears the entire time.

            Missions.  It has “messed me up” forever.

I have a quick question for anyone reading. Why does everyone like my blog so much? I dont know half the people who look at it, but they look at it almost religously. I guess I can use that for good, huh? But seriously, I'm really not that interesting of a person. Am I? Hmm... Something to ponder.....

Okay so update.....

I'm currently at my sisters'. It's 1am and I'm wating anything but patiently for my..... I'm not sure what to call him exactly.... to come on. See, there's another thing imput would be la excellente on. This hypothetical *person* and I aren't friends with benefits, but we're more than friends and less than dating. I've adapted a name for the relationship.... effed up.

Imput, calling all imput. Why the heck do people read my blog, and what *fropesstional* (sorry, I'm bored professional) name for my *hypothetical 'friend'* and my relationship.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love Christ and are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28

Have you ever had like a complete melt down? 

I'm starting to have one, my world has been turned so upside down with my sisters home now, and I have no time to myself anymore, and its sorta messing me up I guess.  I need to figure out a way to not let them effect me so much, but oh well.  I'm used to being home alone everyday until at least 3:30 and now somebodies here all the time, and its kind of making me nuts. 

I'm tired, and going back on my antibiotic is beating me up.. I want to get in to see my doctor sooner than august, but doesn't look like that's going to happen, and i'm kind of worried i'm gonna lose it... I hate being on the antibiotics, and I know that I need to keep taking them, but sometimes I just don't see the point, it never feels like anything's going to change, and i'm getting a little frustrated with trying to be strong, and not complain or tell people how messed up I feel. 

I need to see my psychiatrist next week too, because we had to cancel my appointment on monday, because nobody could bring me. 

I hate this, I feel like such a failure when I get like this.  I'm tired of being the one thats always letting everybody down.

I'm outta school!!!!!!!!!!!!FINIALLY!!!!!!!!! I don't have to put up with those teachers anymore!!!!!!!!! Here's something I found on funnyjunk...........................................................................................

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