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Kitsune no Tora

Eating: Skeleton gingerbread man with green icing - pretty epic. :P
Drinking: Coca Cola
Playing: Nothing atm, but I really should play Avalon Code, Rune Factory, and finish up Rune Factory 2... oh, and Kingdom Hearts, the game I've had for about 2 years now (borrowing from a friend) and am only just after HalloweenTown. iFail. XD
Excited about: YOUMACON IN 22 DAYS!!!!! And NaNoWriMo is kicking up~
Should be writing: Duplicity rewrite
Should be outlining: NaNoWriMo plot
Happy about: Being free from school until Monday~

Kitsune no Tora is feeling: SUPER ESTATICALLY EXCITED, sleepy (constantly)

Uhh... hi?

Didn't I say a long time ago that I wasn't going to leave this for such a long time again?

...I guess I lied. XD Oops.

ANYWAYS...

Since the last time I posted, school has started. I have class Mondays, Tuesdays, and Wednesdays. Mondays I have Calculus I 11-1, Tuesdays I have Short-Stories and Novels 1-4, then Career Planning 6-9, and Wednesdays I have Calculus I again 11-1, and then a (annoyingly easy) Word Processing class 6-9. Not toooooo busy of a schedule, but Calculus is kicking my ass. D8 I suck at trigonometry, so I fail terribly at all the problems involving that stuff. ^^; We just got done with limits, I think I did pretty decent on the exam this morning, but I'm not positive. It was hard. D8

Today I hit an animal driving through campus on my way to get some lunch. I was driving down the road and this squirrel just jumped right in front of my car. I braked a little, and I didn't feel anything or see anything in the road in my rearview mirror, so I'm hoping that I didn't actually hit him. But it made me sad anyway. :(

I want something (preferably living) to cuddle. But I'm not going to ask any of my family (eesh no), and my kitty Squirt is the most uncuddly cat ever. He doesn't like to be held for very long and he will NEVER sit on your lap. The most you can get is him sitting next to you. I had to trick him this morning to sit on my lap - I was in the living room on the couch and had a blanket over my legs because I was cold. I stuck my hand under and moved it around, and he jumped into my lap trying to get my hand under the blanket. He stayed there. :) But it was only because he didn't realize he was on my lap...Too bad I had to trick him, though. :/ I really hope he grows out of it.

YOUMACON IS IN 22 DAYS!! I'm so super duuper excited. 8DDD Too bad my cosplay fell through. :( I took a last ditch attempt to get the right fabric so that my aunt could make it for me (she's a talented seamstress, and I know if she made it it wouldn't fall apart or anything and be of good quality), and now it's too late to order one. :( They say it takes 25-30 days just to ship it out to me, and probably somewhere around a week after that before it gets on my doorstep, since it would be coming from Hong Kong. :/ *sadface* Andrea said that I should still find something simple enough and cosplay, but I have absolutely no idea who to do. She said she'd look some up for me, though, so we'll see how that goes.

...Maybe I can find some overalls/coveralls, a blonde wig, a peach bandana and make a cardboard wrench and go as Winry Rockbell, haha. XD That could work... I dunno. I'll have to think about it. I want to do something that is easy, but not stupidly simple, like L from Death Note or something. Those are just lazy. :P

I'll definitely do Riza next year, though. And maybe someone from Hetalia, I dunno. 8D I'm partial to Italy~ He's so cute. <3 Plus it would be an excuse for me to act like a dork (moreso that I would normally at an anime convention. :P).

I WONDER IF WE'LL FIND JESUS AGAIN. XDDD And I hope they have Death Note Mafia again, that was a lot of fun, despite the douchebag who decided to act like a pompous smart-ass and ruin everyone's fun halfway through the night last year. I just hope it doesn't coincide with Mario Party After Dark again, I really wanted to go to that, but couldn't tear myself away from the game. XD We played it from like, 11 to 4 in the morning last time, it was a blast.

We should also totally do Otaku Family Feud again, we killed everyone at it last year. Pocky Brigade FTW! We'll need to find Jessica again, though, I didn't get any contact information from her. Maybe Andi did...

Aaaaaand NaNoWriMo is gearing up again! I'm both super excited but ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED at the same time. ^^; I've been having a lot of problems writing recently. I can see and imagine the scene in my head, and it's great. The words flow through my head perfectly. But when I go to put it on paper/document, it just... dies. No words come. It's insanely annoying. Hopefully I can break that before November. I'm already going to get a bad start because of Youmacon (the last day is November 1st, and after that I'm going to be completely wiped and have no will to write anything), so I really really hope that gets broken soon.

I decided to go ahead and do the sequel to Duplicity as my NaNo novel. Except it's slowly becoming too AU to be the true sequel. XDD; PLUS, Duplicity isn't actually DONE, I even went so far as to restart it because it sucked. ^^; So I'm technically writing the sequel to a story that hasn't been written yet. SO SMART Y/Y? Especially since I'm an extremely linear writer, I just can't jump around in my story. It just ends up weird and doesn't feel right. That's PROBABLY why Precious Wingbeats (working title of the sequel) is becoming so intensely AU. ^^;;;; Oh well. I've been using an outlining technique called the Snowflake Method, and so far it has been doing me some good. I've actually got things down; I guess restricting myself to your normal outline format was what was blocking me from creating previous outlines. I'm on stage 3 with Precious Wingbeats, and plan on trying it all the way through. I'm just too lazy right now to plot out all the characters, since I know them all pretty well at this point...

CAN'T WAIT UNTIL THE END OF THIS MONTH OMG. <333

I've been so intensely sleepy a lot recently. It's weird. I get enough sleep: anywhere between 7 1/2 and 10 hours. That's what I've been getting for most of my life now. But it just feels like I need a nap all the time, except during some points of the day. I have the hardest time EVER getting up. I feel like I need naps during the day (which I have never done in my life except on occasion). I don't know why... my lifestyle hasn't changed at all. Maybe it's a mental thing? But what would make me want to sleep all the time? Idk. :/ Oh well.

...I must be sitting weird, because my wrists are starting to hurt from the typing. D8 I guess I'm done for tonight.

Goodnight, digital abyss.

Kitsune no Tora

Drinking: Water
Craving: ...Chicken?
Hoping: My driver's test tomorrow ends well
Annoyed by: Mother's nagging, my laptop being stupid
Lurking: the forum
Need to do: Dust the tables, clean up that sticky mess from god knows were, vacuum, shower, lineart for RG's pic, work on my fanfic
Wondering about: what to make for dinner, how hard the JP11 form is to fill out, my new hours at work, when the lab opens

Kitsune no Tora is feeling: Strangely tired, moody

I haven't really been sleeping well. The past few days have been better than earlier this week, as I actually slept, but those nights have produced some rather odd dreams.

Sunday, Monday and Tuesday nights I hardly slept at all. I just hovered around the area that you're dreaming, but you know you are and are awakened by every little sound, and don't actually get much rest. Those days were the ones that my fanfic was weighing especially heavy on my mind, and I was especially frustrated that I couldn't get anything out.

Wednesday and Thursday nights I managed to get out of my fanfic-funk and actually sleep, but I had some rather strange dreams.

The first one makes me wonder about my sanity, to be quite honest. ^^; In the dream my extended family and I had been kidnapped by a rather strange looking man who, after thinking about it, is quite similar to the demeanor and appearance of the Millennium Earl from D.Gray-Man, which I have been reading recently. Although I don't think he was as extreme in his appearance, definitely more human-like. XD Anyway, we were being held in a house that looked strangely similar to my grandmother's, only much larger and with a few rooms I didn't recognize, and we were being constantly watched by video camera held on tripods, cranes, etc. At one point we left down this tunnel to join hundreds of other people I will assume were in the same boat as me in some auditorium, where a floating dog that acted like a mascot ran around and introduced us to our captor, who came on a big screen in the front of the room. He announced a contest of some sort. One person from each family would be chosen to participate, and the final winner would be able to take their family and leave.

I was picked, of course.

And, of course, the contest games were terrible, horrible. I don't remember what really any of them were, I just have a very deep impression that they really weren't pleasant. Cruel, and even sexual at times. Thinking about it, I get the feeling that I would rather have it blocked than not.

I woke up in the middle of one, so I don't know the ending. XD

The dream I had last night wasn't as bad, but still pretty bad. It started out at some school, like a community college. I guess I was taking classes there. It wasn't like the one I go to right now. Anyway, I was taking a Trigonometry classs. For some reason, it was held outdoors. It was constantly windy, so windy that it made it impossible for me to hear the teacher. Either that or there was music blasting (lol, it was Gackt), but no one else seemed to care about it or have trouble listening, either. I was totally lost as my teacher showed us some random thing.

Eventually my protests got through and we got moved indoors, but we got moved to this pool area. It wasn't very large, and the entire area was covered in this pinkish-beige tile, even the ceiling, and the pool was in the middle, with this huge tile half-wall surrounding it from the outside. We all sat around the pool with our notebooks while he taught at some random whiteboard in the front of the room,  near the door. It was a very inclosed space, I remember.

Then, it went all zombie apocalypse. Think Highschool of the Dead, if you've ever read it. It was almost exactly like it. We all hunkered down in the pool area, crunched together on the half-wall. I nearly had a nervous breakdown, I did. I hated going to that school, and had wanted to go home ever since I got there. And then I couldn't, ever again, most likely.

Eventually we were found by the zombies because this doofus (as always) decided to check outside and had shouted that it was all clear, and being that the entire area was all tile the sound echoed and amplified and attracted them all. There was a big fight, with my classmates (and me, somehow I had gotten a hold of a pipe) were fighting off the zombies, both of which were being thrown in the pool, which turned a sickly, bloody color. Me and (my suddenly appearing) friend from high school, Venneta, managed to escape the pool area and get somewhere quiet with a group of other kids. I had to constantly remind them to be quiet or we'd attract them, the idiots. >.> (Luckily my friend listened to me and helped, haha.)

We were in the middle of a food raid (which resulted in having to explode a car to distract all the zombies from us) when I woke up. The first thing I did was shudder, then joke: I really need a zombie plan. XDD

Anyway, those were my weird dreams. I usually don't get nightmares, which is why this is strange to me. I wonder where they came from.

PS: I managed to start something I like for my fanfic, but it's starting in a rather abstract and philosophical tone, which I don't like much. I guess I'll have to deal with what I have, and then change it for subsequent chapters. Hopefully I won't confuse anyone with the sudden change of tone. XD

Goodnight, digital abyss.

KitsunenoTora

Drinking: Nothing, but I'm thirsty. :/
Reading: Bokurano and the new Naruto chapter (ZOMG STUPID CLIFFY GODDAMIT)
Playing: Rune Factory 2
Working on: Taylor's Christmas present, RG's Hanekoma pic in Photoshop - I can't draw snow. DX
Listening to: 89X Morning show's podcast

KitsunenoTora is feeling: Tired, overheated

Yet another day I didn't get up when I told myself to. I set my alarm to wake me up at 11:00, because I wanted to get up early to study some more for my chemistry test, but I ended up getting up around 1:00. >.> I stayed up too late, I was just too awake last night to even think about getting into bed until nearly 4 am. Now today, for some strange reason, I was really tired at midnight. (Although it's almost 3 now, haha. XD) I don't get it - I didn't sleep much more than I usually do, maybe an hour more. I got 10 instead of 9. It just took place at different times. Well, actually, I think I got around 6 or 7 last night... I dunno, I don't remember. It's strange, sometimes I work better on less sleep than I do on a normal amount or more. You'd think it'd be the opposite, but I've had days where I was way more awake and alert while running on 4 hours of sleep than days when I get 8 or 9. Weird~

Anyway, I got up, took a shower, and studied some more. Although it was really hard to concentrate on it - I can't do anything if there's a tv on in the room I'm in, my eyes and attention are just drawn to it automatically. Even if it's a show I despise and would rather do my work. I'm just so easily distracted. ^^;; So I ended up watching more of the movie that was on (that I've seen 50 times but just can't remember the name of... hell, I can't even remember the name of one of the actors. I am lame. DX He's Indiana Jones. Goddam I'm awful. XDDD) than studying, but I had gone over everything the night before, so.... I did know a few things.

I went to class an hour early because Dr. Khan said he'd also be there early to help us study and answer questions. He ended up being 15 minutes late, which he blamed on a broken copier. In the end, he only did one problem in front of the class, the rest of the time was spent joking with one of the other students and taking individual questions. Which was annoying - I didn't have any specific questions, I just wanted him to do a few of the problems on the board with the class as practice so I could set it more solidly in my brain. Last minute cramming is not the way to go, and I wanted him to do some a few times so that it would at least stick longer in my brain. So I was basically left to my own devices anyway. I probably won't go early again. Although, it was good study time, there wasn't much to distract me except my own nervousness. Half my time before the test was spent nervously tapping my foot and staring off into space, trying to remember things - I was way too nervous to focus on a sheet of paper. DX

5:30 rolled around, and it was time for the test. I have never been so nervous for a test in my life. Luckily beforehand he mentioned that he went easy on us on Chapter 6 - there were two problems, and you could pick whichever one you wanted to do, and only one. I picked the easiest one, of course. XP Anyway, I skipped right to the math problems section, because that section was the one that I had all my cramming teetering on the edge of memory for. So I got that done and then did the multiple choice in the beginning. I think I did well, which I'm relieved about. I did so terrible on my last test, I don't even want to think about it. DX There were two multiple choice questions I wasn't too sure about, and one math problem one that I got confused about at the end, but I'm pretty confident I got at least a B. I finished really early too - at about 6:10 - so I spent a good 20 minutes checking over my math and making sure I didn't make any minor errors. Then I turned it in (almost knocking over one of the expensive glass tubes on the desk in the proccess, oops. Luckily he caught it) and walked around for a while. I was going to go to the library right away and get on a computer until 7, but then I realized that Andrea might be hanging around the corner in the cafe, so I headed there. This big fat Asian guy was walking by - apparently he saw me playing Kingdom Hearts with Andi yesterday. I guess he joined the club, but I'd never seen him before yesterday. He introduced himself and shaked my hand. I think his name was Kevin, but I'm not sure. I'm terrible with names. XD; His hand was REALLY WARM. Like, he was feverish or had just been running for a while. (But he wasn't sweaty, and with his physique I doubt the latter, sorry to say. >.>;) It was strange, but maybe it was just me, I was just outside. I felt my hand afterwards, and it was cold, so maybe.

I just saw the usual guys playing video games and that board game that I can't understand no matter how many times I've seen it played, so I turned around and left. That Kevin guy had acted like he wanted me to wait around and talk, but I wasn't too interested. He seemed nice and all, but it didn't seem very reasonable to me to stick around for only half an hour, he'd probably just get back as I was leaving. Plus, I don't know a lot of the guys in the club that well, anyway.

Went to the library and surfed the forum for a bit. It was really busy, but no one was really talking about anything I wanted to talk about, so I just commented on my test and surfed the net for a few minutes before I had to leave.

I walked down to A building and waited for my ride there. A few of my classmates were in the little lobby there talking about the test - one of them asked me how I thought I did. Although she didn't ask me anything after that, although it looked like she wanted to make conversation. Oh well. I waited around for about 3 minutes before I realized Pat's truck was outside, I had been looking for mom's van instead, so it didn't even register. He parked way at the other end of the circle anyway, which is kinda hard to see because of the blinds.

Got home and did really nothing of importance... just ate, worked in Photoshop, taked on the forum a teensy bit, played Rune Factory 2, etc. Oh, and I talked to Silent. Apparently that girl he had been forced to ask out by his friends (who said no, twice) made a bet with one of her friends - and if she loses she has to go out with him. I told him that if she loses that bet he should say no - she's just playing games with him, and he's just going to get hurt. I can tell that she's totally not worth it by what he's told me, anyway. Although he didn't exactly tell her in the most eloquent of ways... he outwardly said "I hope you win that bet" rather than explaining how he feels about the bet to her... I don't think it went over that well. He said later that she said "I'm going to drop a nuke on you," but he wasn't sure if she was joking. I don't think she was. He definitely soiled something in the way he said it - she's definitely mad. I had been really hoping that for his sake, things would end up well... but he handled it in the wrong way and screwed it up, it seems. D: Poor Silent, I feel bad for him. But what do you expect? Despite how mature he is (even I'm impressed, I wish my brother was as mature and smart as him) he's only 12, and has never dealt with something like that before. He didn't even want it to happen - he confided in one of his friends that he liked her, and word spread amongst his other friends, who then forced him to ask her out, starting the whole thing.

Of course, I have no right to talk, since I've never even gotten even close to confessing to someone and have no personal experience, but I've seen it a million times before, so I can at least work with it "on paper." He said it in a hateful way - which is a reasonable reaction, just not the right one - instead of just mentioning how he feels about it in a calm way, so it's bound to blow up in his face. I just didn't tell him - I didn't want to ruin any hope he had. And you never know, I might be wrong. Maybe she was joking, and wasn't offended. I wasn't talking to her, so I can't know.

...I'd offer to join in a group chat with him and her to help sort it out, but he got rather philosophical after she logged out and started quoting some lines from a website. One was something akin to: "When the pain becomes enough, people will allow anyone to be a doctor."  Which applies directly to that offer, and after mentioning it he told me that he wanted to work it out himself rather than rely on someone else to try and fix it. That he'd rather suffer nobly than lean on someone else he hardly even knows. Which is admirable. Plus, I know that road too well - from trying to help Dixie. She got to the point that she cried out for help on her forum, to a group of people she hardly knows, just has a relationship with over the internet... and none of us could help her, really. So I couldn't exactly offer to act as a medium and help them figure it out, could I? It's not my business anyway, no matter how much I want him to work it out in a way that doesn't hurt him too much. There's only so much I can do, so I suppose I can only just be there to hold conversation with him while he tries to sort it out. He told me that it helps him keep his composure, so I guess it's enough.

...This is getting surprisingly long considering it's only spanning one day for once. O.o It's really late anyway, I should head to bed. (WTF why do I keep on spelling "bed" as "bead?" DX)

Goodnight, digital abyss.

Seriously, WHAT?
Not that I care so much about the manga itself (although I would really love to see it translated xD) its how dramatic it looks.
Oh God.