Maggie @ MindSay

Well, coming home from college for the summer means (among other things) reunions with your best friends from high school. Two of my friends came over last night--Maggie, best friend since second grade and Perry: trackie, first boyfriend, and occasional judo partner. (Not really. =p )

We've all changed since we graduted; it seems like Maggie and I have completely switched places. She was going to be the psychologist, I was going to be the writer. Well, now I'm the psych major and she's writing screenplays. Perry's into martial arts now, plus learning how to track. We're all into different things now, but we all have our common roots: high school and track.

They stayed at my house until 1 AM, just tlaking and catching up. And reminiscing, of course. Suddenly we're back in high school, remembering all the drama. Yearbook scandals, evil nuns overstepping their bounds, all the fun we had. But what I remember most, sadly, are the bad times.

I was so excited to go to college and get away from what everyone had labelled me as for my entire life. I could finally become the person who I really was inside, and I wouldn't have to be afraid about it.

So when I come home, I'm back in a place that I've hated my entire life, even when I was a kid. There's parts of my life here that I can't just leave behind, that I can't just let go no matter how much I want to. Re-living four years of high school in one night will make you feel that especially well. I'm trying to let go, but it's harder than I would have thought. I'm still a bitter old woman here.

John Canemaker, a 2006 Oscar winner (Short Animated Film- The Moon and the Son: An Imagined Conversation) was actually a graduate of my high school. He apparently had a similar high school experience to me, and after he won the Academy Award, he was invited to come speak at my school. Along with the students there (myself included), his old classmates were sitting in the auditorium. At one point one of his old classmates tried to ask him a question, which Mr. Canemaker did not answer. He only replied with, "You had your chance twenty years ago!"

So, in my perfect dream, one day I'll be rich,famous and succesful. I'll be invited back to NDHS to speak, and all the people I've graduated will be sitting in the back of the auditorium, behind the students still attending the school. Then, as they try ask me a question I shall dutifully quote Matchbox Twenty back to them: "Strange, where were you when we started this gig?"

"..."

"No I am not bitter!"

Yes, yes I am.

"We've all got bad yearbook photos
Which we forgot to let go
And just like acne
Our insecurities should be something we left with the JV
So here's to letting go of yearbook photos
Things we've got that's holding us down
So that was yesterday
There's always tomorrow
We are tomorrow"
-Superchic[k], "High School"

dayenu  posted a literary quiz.

she is new so welcome her please - but she doesn't look like her picture LOL

 

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You Have Your Emotions in Check

You are an incredibly stable and happy person. Ever consider being a therapist? You have figured out how to keep a positive outlook, no matter what. You don't have an easier life than anyone else. You just have figured things out a little more.

 

good thing too, as I earn money being a therapist.

Hey ppl!!

I just had a 35 minute convorsation w/ my WONDERFUL boyfriend!! But of course no convorstaaion is perfect!! I had to open my mouth and say some dumb ass shit. No don't worry we didn't like break up or anything!! But I went on to explain something that made me sound like a whore!! Which I'm not!! But then of course in Joel's eyes I would be breaking my rules!! I know my rules and I'm gonna stick by them!! I don't plan on breaking my rules anytime soon!! I wasn't even thinking that until Joel said something!! Oh well!!It was still a rly good convorsation!! AND I still feel like a dumbass!!

Maggie informd me today that Cory.....(Joel's cousin) HATES me!! Now don't ask me what I did to hime but evedently what ever it was was pretty bad!! He hates me cause I'm a bitch!! Which i don't think I am!! But oh well!! It don't rly bother me!! OH and Maggie might go out w/ COry!! GO Maggie!!!

I'm currently at KC's!! Whoop Whoop!! We were watching movies!! But then Joel called and I talked to him! *refer to above* Then we went outside and played vball in the dark!! It's rly hard to do by the way!! Oh well!! It was rly fun though!! We were rly hyper!! But now we're like alll mellow!! Oh well!!

Ok well I g2g!!

TTFN

I love you and I'm sorry for opening my big ass mouth!! DOn't hate me!! Love you!!

ps Send love to Joel....his grandpa had a stroke!! Love again!!