Loving @ MindSay

I feel like a kid on Christmas morning!! I get to spend time with my love and any minute she'll be in my arms!!!

my love life isnt what the average person would call perfect or even normal i know 3out of every 5 girls fall in love with one of their best friends but i feel islolated from the reality stuck in what is the perfection of my dreams of what could be and should be but is simply not if i only had two words come out of his mouth that would make my heart melt  i would remain on cloud nine for eternity.  if only i had the guts to walk up to that kind of perfection and tell him my feelings. we talk and we are almost the same in every way possible , our inner most thoughts become one when we talk and still he does not see behind that smile and those glowing eyes and see me frowning because hes not mine and staring into those eyes and see them crying because i have to endure everyday seeing him with HER hes simply clueless. if only he would turn to me and speak his true emotions for me instead of pretending to like her. he tells me hes having problems instead of turning to him and telling him to forget her she does not even have a single amount of love for you as i do instead i have to act like a FRIEND and give you the advise to make everything work out. he has no idea hes all i think about the first thought when i wake up and when i fall asleep but when you love something the best thing to do is let it go at least for now but you will still be in my most inner dreams.      

The Phantom of the Opera was fantastic!  Even baby could hear enough of the music, and kicked my ribs excitedly at the big cresendos.  I felt like I was in upper society, 99% of the people there were in formal dress, including Cal and I, I was lucky that Cal's mom had bought me a cute black maternity dress! 

I'm glad that I was a 'virgin' of the theatre, it was awesome XDXD

Cal can now hear baby's heartbeat through my stomach without the aid of a stethoscope, and it kicked him when he talked to it with the side of his face to my belly :)

Thank god for tax returns as well, Cal's and my money worries are quelled for now :D