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love
My heart is aching right now. It wants to be held.
I need someone to talk to but everyone is too close. Everyone. I just want to express my love and desires.
I should be telling my boyfriend, but I dont know if he wants to hear that right now. Even tho he does.
I just miss him, and need him in my arms. If i think that i will go through this life without ever holding him, kissing him, loving him, I cry. I cry cry cry cry. I could cry all day if I couldnt stop those thoughts.
I just went for a healing, and my kundalini is rising, my sexual self is REALLY waking up, REALLY coming out. and it got stuck and im trying to make it go up and i just feel the energy brewing insiide of me.
Healing Notes
man in a shell, afraid to be a man, hides as a boy
wont come out to me, cant express feelings, wants to be in control but hes not when i voice
my desire. strangled.unable to speak. spins the world on his finger....
fish man - hubby. will fill my belly, zones out while eating, wont hear me if i speak. Just as ravenous with my body and he is with food.
give me my son and my daughter, exact replicas of their parents.
Boyfriend
we will always be distant with intervals of physical closeness. we heal each other sexually and emotionally, and some how are sexually together when we're so far apart.
Kundalini rising, stuck in my solar plexus affecting my sexuality.
Fullfill our relationship to the fullest, because we need it, and we will leave healed, and fullfilled.
Even now i can feel my body asking, craving for sexual pleasure, sexual relief. Oh i want it.
I just want him to touch me, be within me, i just want to feel him entirely.
I love him so much. its painful to be parted. my mind torments me with pictures and scenarios.
Frig, i admit it. im horny and i want him and only him
Wow. Probably going to be one of my more juvenile posts. But oh well. I suppose we all have our moments of juvenileness...juvenility? You get my point.
So, at this moment, I'm sitting in a semi-crowded cafe in downtown Nevada City, sucking up free wifi. Why, you might ask, would I do this when my previous living arrangements allowed for wireless at the house? Well, I moved out. That's right! I'm officially on my own. I moved out yesterday. My mom and I had an arguement on Thursday night, and I just knew it was time to leave. So I asked Natalie and Laura if they would mind helping me move, and I moved out. Only took two trips. I was kind of nervous about moving out, but I think it's the right move. I feel so much more free, but at the same time, I feel so much more responsible.
On a much less mature note, I found out that the guy that is totally rocking my world right now is actually trying to rock my world. Which makes me rather happy. *insert big sloppy, overly self-satisfied grin here* I have a hard time telling, usually. What I see as signs of attraction usually end up not being. But then he said something to me. We were sort of...skirting around the discussion of liking people, and I said that I had a hard time telling. And he said, "Well, the surest way to tell is when a guy will go out of his way to be near or around you." He grinned, and offered me a cigarette. Since then, I've noticed that...well, he does go out of his way to be around me. When I started working with him (oh yeah--he's my shift leader), he parked in a different lot than I did. I park on the other side of the store, over by the dumpsters. Sometime last week, he discovered that I park over there. Since then, he's been parking next to me. I'm not gonna go all psycho-boy-crazy-teenage girl on you, so I'll stop. I'm just really glad I'm not being retarded. Well, maybe I am, but my retardedness is reciprocated.
Between the darkness on the street
And the houses filling up with light
Between the stillness in my heart
And the roar of the approaching night
Somebody`s calling after somebody
Somebody turns the corner out of sight
Looking for somebody
Somewhere in the night
Tender is the night
When you hold your baby tight
Tender are the motions, tender is the night
Between a life that we expected
And the way it`s always been
I can`t walk back in again
After the way we fight
When just outside there are people laughing
Living lives we used to lead
Chasing down the love they need
Somewhere in the night
Tender is the night
And the benediction of the neon light
Tender are the hunters, tender is the night
You`re gonna want me tonight
When you`re ready to surrender
Forget about who`s right
When you`re ready to remember
It`s another world at night
When you`re ready to be tender
Tender, tender tender...
And in the hard light of an angry sun
No one remembers what was said or done
Tender are the words they choose
You win, I win, we lose
Tender
Tender is the night
Tender
The benediction of the neon light
Tender
Tender are the hunters
Tender is the night
When they hold each other tight
Tender
Tender are the undercover
Tender
The stranger and the secret lover
Tender
Tender are the motions
Tender is the night
When you hold your baby tight
Tender, tender tender...
With the bidding complete, Belle smiled, giggled and bowed to her audience, then turned her back to them and bowed low giving one last look at her cunt and ass . . . stepped off the pedestal on her tiptoes and went to meet her three new masters . . .
He stood, she patiently waited until he raised her by holding her leash up. She stood close to him and put her hand on his arm and found her place beside him. She took a minute to straighten her posture . . . raise her chin and poise herself . . . properly, elegantly, displayed at the end of her leash.
They walked into one of the master bedrooms of the large townhouse. A spotlight illuminated the bed and the others stood in the shadows where they didn't intrude. He stood her in front of him, putting his arms around her and pulling her close. She raised her arms around his and pulled them tighter and enjoying the secure feeling. She turned her head, parted her lips and offered a kiss . . . afterward kissing his neck softly several times.
"I'm having a wonderful time" She kissed his neck again and settled in against him, waiting and feeling the wet ache between her thighs and her nipples rise against the sheer fabric of her dress. A moment later Belle walked in nude and sat on the corner of the bed, wrapping her legs next to her. The three who bought her walked in dressed in robes, acknowledged her master and the first slipped his robe off and stood in front of her.
Belle uncurled and spread her legs over the edge of the bed, reached forward and caressed his cock as he stepped closer and fed it to her. She held his cock where she wanted, kissing the head, gently sucking and working it fully into her mouth as she cupped and caressed his balls. As he slowly began fucking her mouth, she slid her fingertips between his cheeks and stroked him. He reached and grabbed her short blond hair and pulled her mouth firmly to his cock. She took his full length in and wrapped her legs around his.
She was pushed back on to the bed and her legs spread widely. With the spotlight directly over her, her cunt displayed a dark pink as he opened her and worked her pussy with his fingers. She braced herself, pushed up and raised her hips giving him as deep a penetration as he wished. She moaned giving him his second reward as he pressed hard on her clit and raised her more with the force of his hand. Quickly he reached out, and her master lubricated a large dildo and handed it to him. Fucking her cunt with his fingers he again raised her and as she cried out, he pressed the dildo against her ass and pushed firmly and steadily into her. A second push and she took all of it.
He opened a condom as she positioned herself on her side and raised her leg. He drew her leg up and pushed firmly into her cunt and fucked her hard . . . Her breasts rose and fell with her quick breaths as he fucked her . . . when she whispered to him, he turned her on her tummy and raised her hips and fucked her from behind, a minute later he withdrew the dildo. Her ass was well opened and the others could see her clearly under the intense light. She whimpered as he displayed her for the onlookers and she whimpered appreciatively as he positioned her ass, pushed his cock hard into her and fucked her with long hard strokes. She was fucked for the next several minutes before he came and pushed hard against his cock as the last few strokes were made.
As he withdrew his cock and turned her over on her back. The others let out whispers of approval and comments appreciating her display. Before she could rest, the second man let his robe fall to the floor, grabbed her by her hair and shoved his cock into her mouth. She caught her breath and twisted quickly to her knees where she could suck him and be open to for his wishes. He fucked her mouth, holding her tightly by the very top of her hair and thrusting hard . . . he released her, shoved her back and she spread her legs wide, reaching for her ankles and pulling her hips up where her cunt was open and swollen, her ass also clearly open to him.
He stood for a moment, then surprised her and the others by quickly spreading her labia and slapping her cunt harshly. She gasped and raised her head, but held firmly onto her ankles. He smiled and complimented her and hit her cunt with hard slaps three more times. He pushed his cock into her and was handed another lubricated dildo which he used to fuck her ass. It took only a few moments until he withdrew his cock and came on her cunt and belly. He continued to fuck her ass with the dildo until he was satisfied. He turned and left her abruptly and didn't look at her again. The others waited until he'd left the room and then again whispered their compliments for her.
Her master stood silently not reaching out, noted by several comments, and she reached out to the her third master and beckoned him to her. He straightened her on the bed, placed a pillow under the small of her back and spread her legs wide. As he opened her cunt, she reached again and held her ankles, raising her hips and ass for his pleasure. He opened her cunt, fingered her clit and spent minutes arousing her and displaying her to the others. He spread her cheeks and displayed her ass and commented to her how wet and sweet her pussy was, how beautiful . . . she began to moan and whimper as he fingered her clit and massaged her ass until she was riding his fingers. Her master handed him to heavy clips as he reached out. He pinched her nipples and she immediately raised her breasts to him as he attached one clip then another. . . . her master again handed him a clip, he whispered to her and she nodded, opened her cunt with her fingers as he attached the third clip to her clit.
He ran his hands over her, bent and kissed her mouth, pulling on one clip then another as he covered her cries and whimpers. The spotlight caught ever part of her glistening skin, the vivid color of her vulva and labia . . . and the crimson of her nipples . . .
She cried out as he knelt between her legs, took and held her hands apart with his and pushed his cock into her and fucked her with long deep strokes. She rode his cock and fucked him for every stroke and whispered to him. She spread her legs more and raised them over his shoulders and he pressed deeply into her and fucked her harder. She whimpered as she came and her released the clips, causing her to cry out and shudder and wrap her legs around him tightly. He came quickly and she kept her legs around him, not wanting him to leave her for another moment . . .
He kissed her face and withdrew, then bent and kissed her again as she rested . . . her master instructed her and she again spread her legs wide as she rested, allowing everyone a final look at her cunt as they whispered their compliments to her and slowly filed out . . .
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