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Lithium-ion Battery Life and Death
Lithium-ion laptop battery packs are expensive, so if you want to make yours to last longer, here are some things to keep in mind:
- Lithium ion chemistry Sony pcga bp71 prefers partial discharge to deep discharge, so it's best to avoid taking the battery all the way down to zero. Since lithium-ion chemistry does not have a "memory", you do not harm the battery pack with a partial discharge. If the voltage of a lithium-ion cell drops below a certain level, it's ruined.
- Lithium-ion batteries age as Dell inspiron 6000 battery. They only last two to three years, even if they are sitting on a shelf unused. So do not "avoid using" the battery with the thought that the battery pack will last five years. It won't. Also, if you are buying a new battery pack, you want to make sure it really is new. If it has been sitting on a shelf in the store for a year, it won't last very long. Manufacturing dates are important.
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Exploding Batteries
Now that we know how to keep lithium-ion batteries working longer, let's look at why they can explode. Several news reports in the past six months describe laptops with lithium-ion laptop battery that caught on fire.
If the Toshiba pa3107u 1brs battery gets hot enough to ignite the electrolyte, you are going to get a fire. There are video clips and photos on the Web that show just how serious these fires can be. The CBC article,"Summer of the Exploding Laptop," rounds up several of these incidents.
When a fire like this happens, it is usually caused by an internal short in the battery. Recall from the previous section that lithium-ion cells contain a separator sheet that keeps the positive and negative electrodes apart. If that sheet get punctured and the electrodes touch, the battery heats up very quickly. You may have experienced the kind of heat a Toshiba pa3384u 1brs batterycan produce if you have ever put a normal 9-volt battery in your pocket. It a coin shorts across the two terminals, thebattery gets quite hot.
In a separator failure, that same kind of short happens inside the lithium-ion evo n600c battery. Since lithium-ion batteries are so energetic, they get very hot. The heat causes the battery to vent the organic solvent used as an electrolyte, and the heat (or a nearby spark) can light it. Once that happens inside one of the cells, the heat of the fire cascades to the other cells and the whole pack goes up in flames.
It is important to note that fires are very rare. Still, it only takes a couple of fires and a little media coverage to prompt a recall.
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Do not go sheep
you sick demons
provide your money for tunics, sandals, food.
whatever you let your feet send you to
you will worry
for it will not deliver you
2.
rise up to hear
speak to your moth your brothers
father and sister
gather together
and behold.
3.
have her
celebrate and please her
whatever she was
nevertheless
give her the cities and compassion
bring her the multitudes and look up
blessed.
The Dixie Classic Fair was fun though,but I got very tired that day.. That it how its been . I get so tired doing anything and stomach problems too. I was glad when my Doctor appointment finally arrived over a week ago now. All my blood work came back with great results. No thyroid problems or Liver problems and I'm not perimenopausal either... Cholesterol levels were great as were blood count, etc.. so, Dr. said it sounded like depression. All the stress from this year...Yes, worry is a sin..I don't handle it very well and I give it to God, but I always manage to pull it back..Not what you're supposed to do...so now I'm back on my Zoloft after being off it for well over two years..Starting to feel like me again. Last friday at the West/Reynolds game I had the best time. My friend I haven't seen in a long while, Trace' Cave Cunduff came. and wonders of all we saw John Sherrill too! We haven't seen him in years! Long years! LOL He has not changed a bit! He's still John! haha.. we had a great time picking and carrying on..just like the old days again! I knew I was gonna be okay then..
I can almost pinpoint a time when I really felt lowest...The day we got that Certified letter from our mortgage co..I had to sign for it and my heart sank...I prayed so hard while opening that letter, and called James crying my eyes out...That was hard, as I have written before. I just kept praying though, and I knew God would answer in His time, but I was being honest with Him and asking Him to hurry up. :) Not what you're supposed to do either, but He knows me and we are all human and live in this imperfect world.
Meanwhile its been getting cooler and having crisp nights. There have been some Indian Summer days though. I was able to not turn our heat on for almost 2 whole weeks.
Then Monday came. I was working at home on Quickbooks trying to get it straight for Biogreen. I get a call and answer it. It's Lynn. She's been helping us deal with our mortgage co..She said"They are sending you a package out Fed Ex and you should get it tomorrow.. Your interest rate dropped to 6.375% and your new payments are like $848.00"... My skin started prickling and I cried... I felt relief wash over me.. She didnt know the rest of the details..we'd find out from the letter.. I stayed home again on Tuesday and worked on Quickbooks again,finishing it....James came home for lunch like he always does...I see the Fed Ex truck back into the driveway... James goes to meet him and signs for the letter... we sit together and open it. I read it...
"James, it says that this is for the next 365 months!" Oh my! Here come the pricklings again!!! We look at each other.. "So this is the new payment for the rest of the loan?" "Yes!!" Hallaluha!! after trying 3 times with them to get this Loan Mod, we get it and it's great! we didnt know if it would be just 6 months as most are or a year, but the life of the Loan!! That was such a blessing !!! A burden lifted!! I thanked God all the rest of that day and still am....
another prayer was answered too on Tuesday. Ariana was able to trade her Jeep and her $2500 for a 2002 Saturn! It only had about 75000 miles on it. Her jeep broke down over a week ago and it was a pain trying to get her to College and picked up and to work and me to work.... it was a mess but we did it.. and she had to buy the $84 dollar part and Jeff fixed the jeep for her, but it still needed a battery...she'd go somewhere and have to get a jump to start it... Not good..plus it was eating gas and ate oil like crazy too. She had to put 3 quarts in every two weeks or so.. she did cry though...The jeep was her first car... She didn't really want to give it up, but she knew it was for the best. Now she 'll have a good car when she goes to UNCC in a year or so..
and Morgan. He had to buy a new car too. Late September his old car starting acting up and stalling out on him, so James looked around here and found him a "97 Grand Am with only about 65000 miles on it.. and Morgan could afford it. he just had to borrow $1300 from Grandma to do it and he'll pay her back in Jan. when he gets his financial aid $ again. It cost him $2800.00. Both of the kids cars are white now! That is odd! I wont know who is who until I can see the whole car coming in!! LOL
So many blessings this week..... I am feeling better on my medicine and getting things done now that got neglected over the summer...Whew..now on to the next problem..figuring out how to pay our taxes of $1800.00!!! since we inherited that 7 acres of land, our property taxes went up...big time!!
We signed the papers from the Mortgage co. and Fed ex'd them back all on the same day...we should hear soon about when payment is due and all that...
There's still the matter of Christmas too. I told James we could not afford to buy for everyone this year... We will get the small ones something, and try to figure out how and what to do for Morgan and Ariana... I just want us to be together...I don't need one thing! After all what is Christmas all about anyway? -The Birth of our Lord and Saviour!!!! When you realize that, nothing else matters. Enjoy the season of Love!
Thanksgiving coming soon! Time to Thank the Lord for all our blessings! But we should thank Him on a daily basis... He does so much for us..look for the small things and the big things..There's always something! I remind myself of that daily...
Manifest Your Soulmate in 90 days. Find your man by discovering your own soul
The whole world is at your feet.
You love your life, and you're ready for more.
What is your next step?
What do you want now?
Could it be that you are ready for a new adventure?
Could it be that you are ready for love?
The true love.
Love that you always wanted and the soulmate you have been waiting for?
Congratulations!
You just created the opportunity and attracted the solution to your deepest, hidden desire to meet, date, madly fall in love with and marry the one and only, your soulmate.
Would it be great if one week from now, you walked into a grocery store and met someone who is exactly the man of your dreams?
Or think of tomorrow, lunch time, at the coffee shop on the corner; you just finished a phone conversation, and suddenly someone said: “Excuse me. Have we met?” You turned around and it was someone you’ve been waiting for a long, long time?
Would it be great if that would happen just like that?
Imagine how much your life would change if you had a wonderful, caring, passionate soul by your side?
How much more your life would be filled with joys, celebrations and excitement?
What energy would flow through you?
What would you be feeling?
What would you be thinking?
What would you be doing?
What would it be worth to you?
Having the man of your dreams by your side...
All this is possible,
and the opportunity to make it happen is in front of you.
Can you see all this happening for you in a short 90 days?
“Looks good, sounds good,” you may say. “I tried it all!”
“Law of Attraction does not work for me.”
Tried The Secret and it did not work?
Want to know why?
Ready to learn 3 biggest mistakes that keep you from finding your soulmate?
I love this topic, I love to talk about true magic of manifestation. It is so deep and so close to our own skin that we are not even aware of it.
What is the true secret?
There is one secret about the law of attraction no one told you about.
And in a minute I am going to reveal it to you.
Before I do it, imagine…
Imagine you decided that you need a new pair of shoes. You came to the store, looked at the first pretty pair in front of you and took it home.
I wonder…
I wonder what’s the chance that this pair of shoes will perfectly fit you?
What’s the chance that it is the one?
100%? 50%, 10%, 1%, 0%?
Yes, you know it. The chance is very, very slim. Without knowing your size, what you want, what looks good on you, without trying on at least a dozen of pairs of shoes first it is impossible to find the one.
Newer mind a soulmate.
I have the most amazing clients. They come to me to fulfil their desire to find their soulmate. All of them want to know:
“When and where can I find my soulmate? Will I recognize him when we meet? Will he recognize me?”
And this is what I say:
The answer is simple. Your soulmate is a reflection of your soul. If you want to know what your soulmate looks like, if you want to love deeply, passionately first you need to look inside.
The #1 most common mistake that keeps you from finding your soulmate is not knowing yourself, looking for answers on the outside.
When you open the “Manifest Your Soulmate Manual” you will find a step-by-step process to get clear on what your soulmate may look like, on how to discover your own soul, and how to open your heart to new possibilities. The journey to your soulmate will start with the journey to your own soul.
The journey to your soulmate will start with journey to your own soul.
If you are looking for your soulmate, you are not alone.
What does it mean to you.
It means that you are in luck and not so in luck.
Think about it.
If you are a woman, you have over 40 million possible suitors to choose from. This is good. If you believe in finding “THE ONE AND ONLY” you have 40 million men to search through.
Can you see the challenge in front of you?
If you are waiting and hoping for magic, if you are a big fan of the send it to the universe and see what happens method of making connections, you are in for a big disappointment.
The #2 most common mistake that keeps you from finding your soulmate is your mindset. Powerful relationships, deep love and happy lives are not attracted; they are created.
Wishful thinking, Feng Shui, and mandalas will not help you.
In the “Manifest Your Soulmate Manual” you will find an action plan that takes you through a step-by-step process to get into an active state of mind, create a dating plan and take action.
The world is a place of creation. The world is a place for change.
You can take charge and create a change.
Did you know that in 2005 married couples became a minority in America?
Did you know that according to U.S. Census,
40% of all African-American women have never been married?
With the divorce rate nearly 60%
35% American children are born to one parent family?
IT MAKES ME CRAZY!
American women are proud, independent, educated and detached.
We can do it all.
But what does it mean to our children?
We have a whole generation of children who simply do not know what does it means to be a married couple, how to share feelings and emotions, how to live in a union of souls.
Children born into a single parent family do not have the chance to learn the skills of relationship: negotiation, communications, commitment and peace.
We know how to hate and do not know how to love.
We simply do not know how to see and touch each other’s souls.
If you are struggling to find the soulmate of your life and build a lasting relationship, know that there is good reason for that. You are not alone and my mission is to change that.
The #3 most common mistake that keeps you from finding your soulmate is thinking too small. Thinking that your personal love life, the search for a soulmate matters only to you.
Are you willing to accept this reality?
America is a lonely, unhappy nation I've dedicated my life to changing these statistics.
Join the movement for a soulful life.
What gives me hope.
A rapidly growing trend.
Listen to this. New studies show that
88% of American singles believe and search for a special person, a soul mate who waiting for them somewhere out there.
94% of never-married singles want to marry no less than a soulmate.
86% of them agree that marriage is hard work and a full-time job.
In a time of a rapid change we are still on the verge of even a bigger shift. What makes this time so exciting? We are entering a new epoch, a time of Unity.
Millions of people today are ready for and want a deep emotional and spiritual connection with one person for life.
Imagine for a moment, you’ve read the book, followed the manual, listened to CD’s, and discovered your own soul. You feel definitely more clear about your future love life. You start seeing results and transformation.
What will happen next?
You will start living with greater ease.
You will be able to start speaking, thinking and living from your soul.
Your life will have clear structure, be well organized and full of action possibilities
Everything around you will slowly start to make sense and support you on your path to the one.
Every person you meet will bring you closer to the one you are searching for, your soulmate.
You are loved, seen and supported. You found the one who can see you in all your glory, in all your perfect imperfection, who loves you when you are funny, angry, or happy, who can see you with the kind eyes, who knows that you are growing. Someone who is growing along with you, making the life around you into a spiritual community of soulmates.
What can you do right now?
This book was written for you.
Imagine …
Imagine we met for one-on-one session in my office. I made you feel comfortable and relaxed. You told me your story, all good things and all not so good things, your struggles, your disappointments, your hopes and secret desires.
We looked at your past with kind eyes, we discovered lessons, and we started building your new future.
First,
You read “Manifest Your Soulmate” e-book. You finished it in a matter of a few hours. The book is short and sweet because I know you are busy and appreciate a quick read, and you know that the most important step is ahead of you. You can't wait to design your action plan and get started using the proven process that is as reliable as gravity. You know from your other accomplishments that when you set your mind to something, you make it happen. ...
Second,
You received your “Manifest Your Soulmate Manual: Shift Your Beliefs In 90 Days”a step-by-step plan to change your love life and start fresh all over again. You spend an incredibly fun time thinking about yourself, your likes, your ideas, your beliefs, all your good memories and all these hidden dreams that you thought you would never make come true. You followed the simple daily exercises in the manual. You discovered new possibilities; you created a clean simple understanding of yourself and the world around you. You were thrilled about the answers to all these hard questions that you've asked yourself your whole life. You implemented the whole program with sparkling perfection. You now have a clearer understanding of yourself, your values, your desires. You know yourself so well that you have fallen in love with this new you. You accept yourself and believe that you deserve the good man who will love you like you prefer to be loved.
Third,
You listened to your “Meditations On A Soulmate” 4 CD set that helped you to learn to relax, to trust yourself, to love your body, and understand your mind. You listened to your CD’s, you shifted your thinking and brought yourself in alignment with the power of Universe, the dependable Law of Attraction.
You began to date on a level you never imagined and you found yourself running into strong, kind good men. You discovered that there are many fish in the sea. And you only need to choose one. You found yourself attracting someone who just might be your soulmate. Things changed quickly and seemingly with no effort on your part.
You healed your soul; you cleared your heart. You felt fresh and the whole life ahead of you became so much brighter.
Inside the book is the breakthrough formula to bring the man of your dreams to your arms. In “The Manifest Your Soulmate: The Skillset for Spiritual Womenin the 21st Century,” you have a revolutionary approach to meet your Mr. Right based on the Law of Attraction and the practical principles of neuropsychology.
Join the hundreds of students to whom Patricia Fuqua has taught the proven formula.
The benefits of reading this book include:
Increasing your attraction skillset by 99%
Attracting the man of your dreams faster
Discovering a savvy way to date
Setting in motion your desired train of events in relationship sooner
Knowing and recognizing your soulmate when you meet one
1# Sometimes all you need is a fresh perspective to turn everything around...
Inside The Manifest Your Soulmate Manual you will find the easy-does-it process to make it happen.
You will be guided through a clear 90 day plan to build your love life from the scratch.
You will use the power of commitment, intention and action to create the love life of your dreams like you would create a business or home.
I will help you to discover what’s holding you back, and you will change it all.
Powerful and strong, you will take charge, you will commit yourself to your success.
You will develop habits of abundance and love, you will learn how to open your heart to the soul of the world.
Every morning you will wake up with the soulmate mission in your mind and a clear plan for the coming day ahead. During the day you will make it happen; you put your strategies to work.
On the 90th day of this work, your vision of love will be so clear, and a sense of your soulmate will be so close to your heart that the outside world will have no choice but to give you what you want, the one.
What you can see you can create.
Imagination is the key to making your dreams come true. Imagination is the first magical requirement to makes things real. What you can see you can create.
The 5 CD set will take you on the journey of your dreams towards what you want, towards your future. It will give shape and form to your deepest desires. It will anchor and deepen your work that you've done in your journal. It will empower your unconscious mind to take charge, to release power and start working for you.
Disc 1 - Introduction to Meditations on a Soulmate
This CD welcomes you as you step on the path to your love. We will set up the rules of the game and you will take the first step towards your inevitable future.
Disc 2 - Stress Release Meditation
We open our hearts and minds when we are relaxed, peaceful and calm. Imagine coming back home from the long day at the spa, loving every cell of your body, sensing air around you, and feeling your heart, knowing that love is near. Disc 2 will get you in the mood of relaxation and creation. It will teach you to relax and trust your own powers. It will teach you quickly to get to the heart of matter.
Disc 3 - Energy Power Up Exercises
Your body is an energy-producing vessel. Whether you believe in ancient Indian medicine system of chakras or not, CD 3 will guide you through an exercise of clearing and charging your body with new energy and power. When you energy is clean, you are magnetic, and the whole world is at your feet.
Disc 4 - Power Visualizations
How do you meet a man of your dream? First you allow yourself to dream. When we dream, we create a blue print of our future. Without dreams our future is just a repetition of the past. Disc 4 will guide you through visualization exercises to investigate and build all aspects of your future soulmate and your happiness.
Disc 5 - Blueprint Affirmations
Affirmations take all change and growth that you created in previous exercises and put them into action. Affirmations on the disk 5 will cement and deepen your new reality. They will give you the power to attract a man who you want and deserve in no time.
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Think about it.
Our universe is a sea of energy. We are part of it and there is not separation between us on an energy level. The magnetic field of the earth connects us to each other. We are tuned in to each others’ hearts, souls and minds.
The biggest mistake is to think that the world around us is something separate and the Law of Attraction will help you to pull something from the outside world to make you happy on the inside.
What is the missing secret?
Everyone and everything around us is a reflection of who we are right at this moment. The universe is a divine mirror that helps us to discover who we are.
We meet true love when we truly love ourselves. We meet people who understand us when we truly understand ourselves. We have infinite power to change the world around us and this change starts inside of our souls.
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What you need to do next? Read on.
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A beautiful woman sat down in my office. She had everything: career, friends, but no good man. Alone for 16 years she demanded to know where he was. Gently, I lead her to tell me what she had been doing all that time to meet him. She had done nothing because all the good men were taken. Immediately, I assured her that when she changed her mind, the man would come into her life. Sure enough...twelve months later, she was married.
Why me?
Here's the magnificent story of my life.
I remember this magic moment, like it was yesterday.
I was at a party with my good friends, we were laughing and talking about recent news when suddenly I felt that something had changed. I could hear music and I felt that the whole room began to dance. I turned around, looked at the far side of the room and saw a man stepping in. He came straight to me and asked me to dance. I looked into his eyes and at that moment I felt as if I had come home. I knew he was The One.
That man was my future husband. Since that day we’ve never been apart and our love is ever growing. We've built a wonderful family together.
Why did I tell you this story?
Because I believe that love is the greatest gift that you can give yourself and successful relationships are just a few moments away from you.
Now I have three daughters. When my daughters grew up and started dating they suffered from choosing bad boyfriends. My heart ached to see their unhappy faces because of their choices. I pulled together my resources and designed a process to help them to manifest what they truly want.The system I designed for my daughters is offered to you today. You can be on your way to the light-hearted and sure-footed ways of a woman who is happy to be with her right partner.
Patricia Fuqua is a Soulmate Coach. She has helped hundreds of singles attract and bring into their lives the soulmates of their dreams. She founded a successful relationship coaching practice "Venus de Menlo Consulting," in Silicon Valley and has hosted a TV show as well as appeared on numerous radio and TV programs sharing her wisdom with other mothers and their daughters.
For twenty years, Patricia has practiced the psychological/spiritual arts. She knows you need a clear vision before you can move towards a goal in any area of your life. She knows how to help you clear away confusion so you can make decisions that bring you more love, prosperity and health.
She will teach you how to get to know and appreciate your own soul on a deep compassionate level. She will give you power and clarity to see your beautiful true colours. She will give you a simple action plan to attract the One into you life using the awesome power of the Law of Attraction. “Manifest Your Soulmate: The Skill-set for Spiritual Women in the 21 Century” is a one-of-a-kind clear guide to love.
Patricia Fuqua is a Soulmate Coach. She has helped hundreds of singles attract and bring into their lives the soulmates of their dreams. She founded a successful relationship coaching practice "Venus de Menlo Consulting," in Silicon Valley and has hosted a TV show as well as appeared on numerous radio and TV programs sharing her wisdom with other mothers and their daughters.
For twenty years, Patricia has practiced the psychological/spiritual arts. She knows you need a clear vision before you can move towards a goal in any area of your life. She knows how to help you clear away confusion so you can make decisions that bring you more love, prosperity and health.
She will teach you how to get to know and appreciate your own soul on a deep compassionate level. She will give you power and clarity to see your beautiful true colours. She will give you a simple action plan to attract the One into you life using the awesome power of the Law of Attraction. “Manifest Your Soulmate: The Skill-set for Spiritual Women in the 21 Century” is a one-of-a-kind clear guide to love.•
“O, my God, Patricia! This stuff works fast!!
I was just emailing a really attractive guy before I heard your talk. Then he asked to meet me over a glass of wine. Now, he's ready to stop dating other women because he knows I'm the one he's been looking for! Thank you for your inspiration.“
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“This book changed my life. Reading and working the steps of the Manual was a healing experience. I felt nurtured and cared for. Now I know myself, who I am and who I am looking for.“
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Depressed -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
....Gah.
I seriously fucking scared myself today.
I was reunited with that blackened, blankened emptiness in my head - the very same one I had when I spat on Ash from the top of the wonky stairs, when I punched her in the face by construction and the several major arguments with Shelly where I came close to strangling her.
I don't even remember what the build up to it was - I can only remember the during and the afterwards.
I remember getting more and more frustrated with her, knowing she was being a fucking stupid cunt as usual - being so damned selfish, self-centred, self-important, spiteful and generally immature - to the point where I ended up leaning over her, pinning her to my bed by her shoulders - actually not using a massive amount of strength, but she wasn't able to fight me off.
I wasn't violent - I didn't hit her - but I spoke with that incredibly sarcastic, patronising, calm-yet-very-violent tone - making no effort to swallow excess saliva - so when I said my harsh consonants, she got my wet rage on her cheeks. And I said a lot of harsh consonants.
I wanted her to be scared, and I knew when Shelly gets that scared, she has accidents. I wanted her to piss herself - I wanted her to be humiliated, ashamed - I wanted her to have no control over herself.
I spoke to her like this for about 10 minutes, then went to sit at my computer for a while. What I did, I don't remember - but she didn't move - she stayed on my bed, laid in the same position.
I went back over to her afterwards and returned to what I was doing previously - but harsher.
At one point, I saw her flush red and she started crying hard - as opposed to the watery eyes she'd had for the rest of the time. I had a feeling I may have accomplished what I set out to do - but I made her admit to it to humiliate her further.
There's another gap in my recollection - but after this, I went to lay in my special space - between my bed and drawers. I took a pillow and laid on the floor, my head by the boiler and my feet by the desk. I cried a little bit, because I felt guilty. Then I cried a lot, because I was depressed and ashamed.
I couldn't apologise for a very long time - nor could I bring myself to look at Shelly. She made me eventually and I gave a sort-of apology. I don't think it was good enough, but she assured me that it was.
She made me tell her some events from "5 to 15" that I don't like talking about. She insists that they have some answers to why I feel the way I do now.
Well I'm willing to bet they do - but not as significant as she makes out. She fucking assumes wrong all the time. How dare she fucking assume and then go ahead to state that I ENJOY feeling depressed all the time. No, I'm not fucking content in my own depression. If that was the fucking case, I wouldn't have agreed to more sessions with Dianne. I wouldn't fight with myself every fucking night to stop myself cutting.
She is the fucking stupidest cunt I know. Who the fuck would say I enjoy being depressed? You can CLEARLY fucking see that I don't! Anybody could fucking tell you that!!
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