Lot Of Work @ MindSay

Today I woke up to do some work, because my progress reports are due on Monday.  I only have 2 to write, but A's took me SIX PAGES, SIZE 10 FONT to accurately complete.  And it would have been longer if 3 of his goals weren't things I had to write, "This goal is not currently being addressed as part of our curriculum, but will be by next semester".  If I had to fill those in, It would probably be 8 pages.

Today is all about writing E's, who has less goals than A, but his are quite involved and I need a lot of specific examples.  But that's not why I am writing here today.

/End boring teacher talk.

I woke up to do work, and had to promise myself chocolate to get out of bed.  Not because I'm tired.  Because I feel like I'm living in an icebox.  I finally got up, wrapped myself in the blanket, and walked across the house to crank the heat on to just below 70, and then crawled back into bed for 20 minutes until the heater pretended to work.

Currently wearing:  2 shirts, and 2 sweatshirts, 3 pairs of socks, and a smaller blanket.

I should have known I was in for a boatload of trouble living up here when I woke up to teach my first day of school IN AUGUST and was greeted by 47-degree weather.  And it's going to get colder.  It sounds incredibly melodramatic, but...living up here might actually kill me.  I wear pants and sweatshirts in 90-degree weather.  Today is a high of 22, with strong winds.  It's not even 'winter' yet.

Anyone have extra thermals they wanna loan me?

Before I start blabbing about myself. My thoughts and prayers are to anyone who are having floods, tornados all over the place in the midwest and more. Especially those boyscouts, my prayers are to those parents when they got hit. That's such a crushing blow. Started talking about one of the kids who would make pillows for the hospitals and what not, man that hurts so much. If this is all you read of this entry, I'm still content that you at least read this part. Everything after this is a lot of stuff that has been happening for the past two plus months. So if you guys really want to know whats going on please ocntiue to read if you want to check up on me ^_^.

 

You guys know how much I work. I work at Gamestop, a game store you all probably somewhat heard of. As of lately they had changed our managers three times. And this last manager I am not getting use to at all. My personality and what not isn't working with this guy. And that's really hard to do. Plus with them changing managers so much on us, that the kids haven't been able to get use to this guy either, so everyone's having a rough time. When I saw that they were changing managment for the third time. It was with a person I haven't heard about or don't know. The one thing that went through my head is, crap gotta start over we just got use to this one, and they're sending some srt spy. So pretty much I felt like I was going to be targeted. I told all the guys at work to be careful of what they do. I know these guys too long, and also before Jenifer left she hired every single one of these people. So I know they're good and if caught stealing or whatever she would have all their heads. Jen took a lot of precaution on hiring people, she was the tough one while I  was the nice one. So I pretty much told them not to get in trouble. But I just had this bad feeling.

 

So that bad feeling starting coming true. I could tell this new manager didn't trust any of us, and why finding mising stuff. Which is understandable at that point, but I'll put my full trust in all those kids, most have worked with me for over a year or ever since I've been there. Plus I'm there at the store too much, there's no way they would get around me. So just as of recent watching the new manager, he's only been working for the company 6 months, and I'm like that's not a good idea for this store since we're such a big rich area as well. And that this guy cannot count or know how to really look up stuff. So no wonder whenever he's looking for something he's always missing something. The past couple days I've been finding a lot of stuff that he said was missing.

 

Yeah there's no way this is going to work out well. We started having meetings, to make sure everyone is on the same page. Of course I was still trying to figure out this guy plan so I didn't say much, the kids ask questions here and there. And our district manager was there and what not. So we talked about our performances and reviews for each person. So I had mine and the biggest thing that flagged to me was that I was actually getting some blame, which is perfectly fine, but didn't happen after almost 3 years of working here. Somethings wrong. So basically they wanted me to go on vacation and was wondering if I still wanted to work, and I was like, umm I wasn't there to think about work on my vacation and what not. That's what vacation is @_@. That also occurred to me that they were trying to find out something. First point blank I told myself, they're really trying to see if I'm affecting the store and stealing. So my district manager was wondering why I wasn't helping out this new manager better and kept saying I had a lot of experience. True I do, first I was like yea I feel like crap that we are treating him bad, but I didn't have that feeling about him. And that's very rare for me to treat anyone like this. So I told them I didn't have the right training, which I didn't from DAY ONE on working here. There was only 4 people working this job when I started. And I was doing things higher than most people in that position. My store would get the calls because no one else would know what they're doing so I had to do it.

 

Second meeting. okay this really started to piss me off. The store wasn't getting fixed or whatever. So my review on the guy sucked. I hate managers who don't do anything. Yes supposely they're suppose to be in the background but this is a game store, so you have to help fix it, because there's millions of kids that come in. The good thing is that it wasn't the kids that bother me. It was just him. And seeing how shipment when he was there wasn't getting done, I've never seen him do anything. But how do you react or tell your own boss to get to work? but yeah he sucks and doesn't deserve that job. But as in this second meeting district manager comes to me again, and I'm like alright this seems like a good time and finally it's an opening. I give my two weeks in. Told them I wasn't fit to be an assistant manager. I only moved to being that poistion because I was already doing everything an assitant manager would be doing and since we were also understaff through 2 1/2 years. And there was never really anytime to train once Jen was gone. She whipped everyone into shape. And I know she was thankful for me because I would have quit a while back but I knew she needed the help and she's a good friend of mine. And Joe-e the manager that came in next, I wasn't going to leave him during Christmas time, and we ended up being a good team, than they took him back to wherever and put this new guy here. But yeah I never had true training and I did everything by the seat of my pants, and the factor that brought me down was that I was more customer service than actual selling everything in sight. This dude's a good seller, but no personality. And it's already screwed me and the rest of team over sooo many times.

 

So I'm quitting Gamestop, if I would have made it to August it would have been almost 3 years since I worked for that company. I'm just happy I was able to get out. Of course I'm worried that I'm jobless, but that was only my second job. Meaning I don't just quit and what not, so I should be able to get a new job hopefully. Also most of the kids are graduating from highschool so they'll be moving on and what not. I'll miss all the people I've met and I met a ton of people and made a lot new friends, and watched a lot of little kids grow up in front of my eyes. Monday will be my last day there June 16th. God you should see how many mom's gasps and don't want me to leave. A lot of the kids gave me hugs or high fives or handshakes. I tell them because I known them for a long time and that a lot of them come to see me. That's all they ask is where I am lol. Had a mom come in yesterday she was on the phone, already knew who she was she said maybe three words and I knew what she needed. She just laughed and smiled, "I love you Rory!" and I'm like haha thankyou I think I knew that ^_^.

 

So yeah I'll miss the place, but I'm probably won't ever talk to that manager, because it seems like everytime I wasn't there he would harrass all the team trying to find out anything about me. First of all there really wasn't anything to find out, I don't need to steal from a damn game store, I'm not desperate and it's already hard enough being black and getting judge on that too you know. So a lot of team feels bad because they think they said things they shouldn't have unless it was ok with me. All they said was that I was tired and looked a bit burned out, and that I was talking about getting back into school. So they think they cost me my job, and they didn't but yea that manager did put me in a spot to where I need to get out, if I could have made it through the summer I would have quit right at 3 years. I do hope all my guys will be alright I told everybody but Lauren I haven't been able to hang out with her yet, but she'll be the most devastated one. I think we're all leaving sometime soon. And then I totally forgot about my best friend Graham, he's still in Japan, when he comes back the day I quit so he won't know what's happening lol whoops! So I have no idea what I'll be doing, I do have a bit of money saved up, I hope I'll be okay. But yeah I really need to get out of there. I wasn't loving videogames as much anymore, and that tells me that I'm not being myself. So pray for me on that!!

 

Well anyways that's a lot and I still have so much more coming. I told you about my ex Kim. We've been broken up since the end of Janurary, we were still seeing each other off and on. And now she got back with her ex just recently. She liked him more than me which sucked but there's nothing I can really do. But just as of recently, we haven't been getting along as much. The problem here is that I've been causing her to feel bad and what not. And I'm like feeling like crap, I mean I haven't been in a relationship for a long time but I didn't think I would be this bad, even outside of one. I never had ANY trouble with an ex NEVER!!!! This is the first time.

 

So I end up being the problem/ bad guy and she doesn't want to talk as much now. Why does this feel like we're breaking up again. It wasn't a heavy blow at first, until later, I was pretty mad because I can't beleieve she did that. Yeah it's probably or is my fault for all the things that happen. But to pretty much lose a friendship as well. Isn't that a bit overboard. Sure I don't like her ex as much, but it's like she hasn't considered my feelings and I just told her the truth and what was on my mind. There's a lot of things I did wrong but to have them come back like this was like okay. And I'm not even with her, I broke up wit her because I already thought I was the problem. So how did this get bad to even worse!? She was probably one of the only girls that I hung out with too. and that sucks now she doesn't really want anything to do with me. I don't know how I'm going to react to her IMing, I'm going to practically get pissed off because it still pisses me off. And it's like I can't talk about my feelings, even if she would let me, she still didn't understand them enough that I still ended up on the bad side of things. So she calls me back being mad at me when I just told her what was on my mind, but she didn't want to hear anything about me she just wanted just this one thing answered. Talk about Damn!!!

 

And then just recently, been hanging out with another girl friend of mine, she nearly burned down her apartment, had to fix everything when I got there. She was just flipping out. We talked a bit, have to admit she was smoking hot that day too. I really do like her and started talking to her, but now I haven't gotten a call back in  like a week and half. So I screwed that up somehow. So I clled her again just recently and just apologized for all the stuff I did. Relationships are just not for me it seems. I just suck at them, and piss every girl off so I should give up on this. So I've actually have started deleting numbers out of my cell phone. I mean what do I do with relationships now.  just don't feel comfortable, and it seems I can't tell anybody about myself practically. Kim was asking to know about me, but whenever I would, I mean I'm pretty crazy so like crazy things, she totally lost interested or doesn't want to talk. So I can't be true to myself like that but guess it wasn't enough.

 

Thanks for all who's reading this, this was really long but all this was built up and I could actually sit here and type so much because I had so much on my mind and heart.

Talk about being at the end of your rope and holding on for dear life. That's what it's been feeling like FOREVER to me!. I somewhat awake this morning and I get a phone call. Picked up the cell, and it was a lady from Georgia Gwinnett College.

 

Pretty much the beginning of this year I was trying to get back in school and leave work. Main reasons things turned out the way they did was because I messed up a whole lot. I am an idiot. I tried to apply back to school at the beginning of the semester. I wanted to try to transfer o a different college try to start over. However. A lot of trouble nad heavy hitting blows came. When I tried to find out all my information. I had beeen put on a three year exclusion. Because my Math is really weak that I was just taking beginning highschool math in college. Pretty much called learning support. Doesn't even count towards my GPA if I pass yet if I fail is drops like a rock.

 

You only have a certain about of tries. And what happen I used them all up. So they expell you from school for like three years. The last time I took a math class it got a little hetic and my schedule was not looking too good for it. so I pulled out not even two weeks, but still counted as an attempt. I was utterly defeated pretty badly when I got the news. Life wasn't over but I felt so trapped, the way I am now. So when I talked to the lady she told me that there's is five attempts at learning support math. I didn't know I was had one more attempt. I  made a call to the person she told me to speak too but I didn't get a hold of him and I left him a message. But it very close and possiblity that I can go back to school.

 

Now at work, we have a new Manager, because our old Manager went to help another store that really needed her. Everythings going okay, the real reason why it's falling apart and everything is that we're VERY understaff... This is my third Christmas coming up with the game store. However yeah it's just a lot of the regular crew and a lot of them are in highschool and one my main guys has been extremely sick which isn't good at all. So we're under quite a bit of stress, and of course all the people looking for Wii's at the very last minute. =_= I've known about videogames all my life, yet the most important thing is make sure you check every now and then with the videogame people asking them what's hot or is a new game system. Rirght there probably won't be a new game system for the next 4-7 years. We've already reached the peak with graphics now it's all about the content of the games. There's your biggest thing to have if you're not a gamer. I'm not sure exactly what going to happen, but I don't think I'm doing very well as an assistant manager.  Not sure if I'll leave the job, I'll probably see if I can demote. I could nearly run a store but keeping up with it constantly would be a freaking hassle. And don't need any more stress.

 

I think that's all I have for now. I just wanted to thank a lot of people that are probably thinking about me and praying for me. I don't know all their names I know a lot of my family does, and I have a couple offriends on here they keep me in their prayers as well.  I don't know what would happen if I didn't have them affecting my life in some way, even only if it's a little. But this mroning pretty much hearing that I have another chance is a true blessing and I just thank my family/friends and God for putting up with someone like me and still show me the mercy of caring for someone. Ths song that I have below this blog has been in my head all freaking day. That's the first song that came to mind. It's a song done by Lupe Fiasco "SuperStar", it's pretty much a guy from Chicago rapping but the musical insturments make it sound more inspirational, talking so true. This guy is like a prodigy, probably even better than Kanye West. No one knows who this kid is, man everytime I hear this song my heart really is moving and I just have to sing it all day long and definately a song to dance to. Thanks for listening. To the fans!

 

 

By the end of October Winter Holiday Seasons had already started, and is getting worse and worse every single day. This is the main reason why I haven't been around. Also been going to meetings on what's going to happen thorughout the holidays. Also we have some stupid visit with the VP coming to our store. So it's really been hectic at work already. Too much stuff coming out in this month. I got a 360 about a week ago. Call of Duty 4 is fun trying to get use to the idea, not a first person shooter guy.

 

Got to hang out with my family a bit better. Finally talked to my cousin after months of not seeing each other or more the half a year that's for sure.So been doing a lot of catching up and what not. Been hanging out with Kim a lot. Pretty much I haven't admitted this yet, not sure how I could explain this. But yes I do have a girlfriend (haha over 2 months now sowwy ^_^;;) , everytime I think it's been a long time since I truly had one. IT has, but really it's my very first. I still remember I never dated in highschool either so it's really my first time truly dating someone.

 

This week Assassin's Creed comes out, so does Super Mario Galaxy, and tons of other stuff. Actually it's about 84 games come out on the same day.. That's right you saw that correctly. SAME DAY, so that's either tomorrow or the day after, so it's already a nightmare of what's going on. I'm still amazed how people always want to go shopping after thanksgiving ofr Christmas, aren't we spoiled enough. Plus Soemone like me has to work the day after thanksgiving. Oh come on now that's really really lame. Just because someone is willing to spened more money but won't give a break to those people who work and can't spend as much time with their family as muych as there is you know. We just got to figure that out to get around something like that.

 

Anyways there's so much stuff to tell but it take too long and not all is important. I've been around but not really. I'll comment here or there and leave the palce be for a few days. I really need to change my background and all that stuff because the World War Hulk's over. I need to give you guys another look at that. And find out what in the nend happened. Plus want to know how you guys are all doing too so please do reply. It's nice to know what's going on and stuff.

Work has been steadily increasing the load lately thanks to the upcoming holidays. I know a lot of you all live in places that are cold and wintery already, but over here on the west coast we're having an 'unseasonably warm' autumn. Which I think means that Thanksgiving is taking everyone here by surprise.

Unfortunately, anyone who got caught up in this just realized that winter holiday shopping is about to burst upon us. And thus, I am working late a lot lately trying to get everything done for these people. It is kind of fun though, it's a whole new holiday anticipation. While it's stressful, it's also really interesting to watch as more and more people start buying just to give each other stuff.

It's kinda sweet.  =)