Lost Time @ MindSay

I lost another iPod. The last time I remember having it I was in the planetarium last friday during 6th hour and I was messing with it in the dark until Nickole told me to put it away, so I put it away I don't remember either in my pocket or in my backpack. It was about the time I got down to the parking lot in which I noticed I didn't have it on me after I phone-groped myself. At the time I thought I left it in the planetarium so I drove up there and the door was locked. Mrs. Bierle is the only one with the key, so it was safe while it was in there and the door was locked. I waited until the beginning of this week and I was the first person in there since friday, which means it should've been in there, but it wasn't, and I was assured no one else had been in there or could've gotten in there, which was obvious. I still don't know where it is. I stripped my back pack to no avail. I've looked everywhere in my car and room just because even though there's only 2 places (the planetarium and my backpack) it could've been. I was one of the last ones out on friday before it was locked so i don't believe anyone took it, at least yet. I looked in the little section of the lost and found for it, but to no luck, but I didn't ask if any specific electronic device had been turned in, so maybe I'll do that tomorrow.

God. It could only be in the planetarium but I searched it bare, everywhere, and I'm going back to look tomorrow with a better flashlight, and going to the Main Office to inquire. Fuck, I'm going to cry if I can't find it. That'll be my 3rd iPod so far that I've lost/broken and 1000 dollars in the past 2 years down the drain that I could've spent on a bass guitar or my own computer.

I think it's just living in shitty Carlsbad. It's getting to me, holding me back, and causing me to experience decadence in all the worst ways. As if life couldn't get any worse.

Fucking Piss.

Christmas break pretty much sucked, as I've managed to be sick for nearly all of it, excluding this final weekend. I slept for most of it, and the waking hours were spent coughing, drinking tea, and watching movies. Sweet. I managed to lose ten pounds, but I was thin anyways, and now I can see my pelvic bones. That can't be healthy.

Ah well, I'll get it back, assuming I don't die.

That's life though, eh?

I'm lost without u and I care about nothing.

From the time I wake 2 the time I sleep ur all I think about.

Now ur gone...I have nothing. I cry myself to sleep and I want nothing but to be in ur arms. To feel the softness of ur hair, and the to see the beauty in ur smile.

I love you and I don't want to go on after all this time......there is no one else for me but you.

 

 

When can I see you again, when can my heart beat again, when can I breathe once again, and when can I see you again. When does my someday begin, when do the tears stop from running over, when does you'll get over it begin, I hear what ur saying but I swear that it's not making sense so when can I see you again.

 

This romeo is bleeding, but u can't see his blood, it's nothing but some feelings that this old dog kicked up. It's been raining since u left me now I'm drownin in the flood. See I've always been a fighter but without you I give up.

I feel so sick roight now. I am working and I just gave a boarding pass to the wrong person. I even forgot to give this person there Id back. I dont want to type but im bored and theres nothing else to do and I cant sit down or I will get in trouble. i think im going to okay im back I had to up chuck. I will say good night to everyone. if you need to reach me. ill be on messenger. coolgirl_99559@hotmail.com